Author has written 5 stories for Doctor Who, Terra Nova, and Merlin.
I am a girl and I live somewhere (SPOLIERS!) I have two cats one is Lily and she means the world to me, the other is Lewis, I have a dog his name is Milo. I also have two Guinea pigs, two girls Ebony and Ginger and lots of fish. My life has been hard but I've pulled though, love, live and enjoy is my motto, love what you have, one day it might be gone live for the future, it gets better and enjoy every moment, it might be your last! :) I have made many friends on FanFiction and I would like to show my appreciation:
Firstly to Siodhna: You are so random and you are the most beautiful person and make me laugh with every pm and every review (unless it's sad) I get so happy if I see private messaging (1) or more and I hope every time it is from you. You have the best advice and without you my story: If things were different would be very different. Thank you for listening when no one else would and for reviewing every chapter, you make me laugh you make me cry you give me a reason to live, I love you xoxo.
ebi pers: You were so nice reading my story (Today I Tell Her) about a couple you don't like to much, and you have taught me to do the same, I promised myself that I would read every Maddy/Mark story and I keep my promises. Your trilogy was breathtaking and has to be one of the most amazing stories I have ever read and I feel so privileged to have been able to read and review it, and I won't be surprised if one day you PM me and say you have published a book. I wish that more people were as amazing as you, I love you xoxo
Theodora Helena Miller:Where do I start... How about YouTube, I met you on there and ever since I don't know how I would have survived without your support and helping words to keep me going, you are one of the nicest people I've ever talked to, I wish we could meet so I could hug you and show you how much I appreciate all the help you have given me, we talk about Merlin and laugh at how amazing Gwaine is :D Without you I wouldn't be the same, thank you for listening to my problems you'll never know how much you mean to me xoxoxoxo thank you I love you for now and forever.
Terranova99:(Coolgal99 before she changed her name) You are just amazing, and mean so much to me, I love how we both love Terra Nova and how I just talk and talk about it and you put up with my rambling. you have read all of my Terra Nova stories for spelling and to give awesome suggestions, you are the god or DocX and I'm so surprised what more people aren't queuing up to get a piece of your amazing talent, really you are a fabulous writer and I wish that more people would find and hire amazing writers like you. Just like ebi I won't be surprised if one day you PM me and tell me you published a book, You are an amazing friend and Thank you so much, for everything, I love you xoxo.
Konny 10: From the start you have been so nice and always loved my chapters even when I didn't think they were good enough, you dedicated your first ever published chapter to me and I will be forever grateful, thank you, you’re an amazing person and I'm so happy you reviewed my story :)
Wolf-lover-girl: You were the first person to ever talk to me and my first ever friend on FanFiction and your story brightened my darkest days, you were the reason I started my story and made an account, thank you SOOOO much! as I would not be here today, I was shattered when you said your story was complete after 50 fantastic chapters, thank you so much.
To my new friend Josephine Stone: we became friends 29 / 9 / 11 but I can see we are going to grow into great friends :)
Lastly to my new friend (whom I also made 29 / 9 / 11) Night Monkey: We started talking because of a review she made on one of the stories I have been reading, she didn't like it and made some 'constructive criticism' LOL!!! We both know what that means :D We both said some rude things to one another, which now I regret, Night Monkey I'm sorry, as you know and we have made a truce and are now on the path to a great friendship.
I have many more friends but these are the people who have touched me the deepest if you aren't on here and wish to be, pm me and I'll see what I can do :)
Rizandace, I promised you I'd do this, so here you are xoxo
Rizandace, this is for you! My amazing inspiration / the head writer of the Merlin scripts. (it’s no use denying it because I know you are) :D xoxoxoxoxoxo
Where do I begin… I found you on my long, long search for the perfect Merthur BROmance story, and my gosh did I find it. I am sorry to everyone who I told “your story is my favourite and the best thing I’ve ever read.” Because nothing, NOTHING can compare to ‘Connected’, it is the most amazing story I have read in my life, go read it NOW, because if you don’t there will always be this hole that won’t be filled with Rizandace’s masterpiece.
How can I describe you, I can’t really describe you as a person as we haven’t spoken that much but I sure can chat away about how ‘Connected’ and all your stories have affected me. They make me happy, they make me sad. They make me laugh, they make me scream. They make me cry, they make my heart skip a beat. They make me shake, they make me hold my breath, and last of all they make me smile, a small smile is always on my lips, every time I read a bromantic moment it makes my heart melt away like wax from a fading candle! Without your story I don’t think I’d be the same. In fact I don’t know how I possibly thought I could have loved a story as much I thought I did, I guess I just underestimated how amazing some people really are.
I have never written such long reviews; seriously I never thought I had it in me to be so honest and so happy. Normally I write one or two sentences maybe a small paragraph never over 1,000 words. It must have been a totally bore to read me ramble on and on and on for SOOOO long, but I really couldn’t seem to make the reviews long enough.
‘Connected’ has changed my view on FanFiction once I signed up I never thought I’d be so captivated in a story, yes I have read some amazing and fantastic stories on my time here, but only your story stands alone at the top of that list, and nothing will be able to take it away. I hope all my reviews have made you smile a little bit and you don’t think I’m this creep who is obsessed with you, because when I find something I am so passionate about, nothing can stop me from diving into detail about how it affects me, I’ve written three letters to my best friend with things I can’t seem to say in front of her.
I remember the moment I made up the word Permaking, just for you and your stories. I also remember at the end of connected I wrote this: AMAZING! PERFECT! WONDERFUL! BEAUTIFUL! FANTASIC! EMOTIONAL! MAGICAL! REMARKABLE! MESMERIZING! INCREDIBLE! ASTONISHING! ENCHANTING! OUTSTANDING! CAPTIVATING! MAGNIFICENT! SPEECHLESS! FAULTLESS! GORGEOUS! SPECTACULAR! SUPERB! BREATHTAKING! PERMAKING! Which was a massive, massive understatement, seriously. You are the most unique and extraordinary person I’ve ever had the privilege of talking too. You really need to become an author I can see you will go far.
I can see real potential for ‘Destiny’ and I can’t wait to see where it will lead I can feel some more bromantic scenes coming, I only hope you write them in.
Thank you for putting up with my extremely LONG reviews and hope you understand how much you have made me smile, it is hard for me to do that sometimes, but it comes automatically whenever I open up you new chapter or story, so a thank you isn’t enough :)
For now and forever, your #1 fan
There is so much more I want to say about you, but don’t know how to say it.
'Connected' READ IT NOW http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7878818/1/
MY ENCOUNTERS WITH FANFICTION:
I first came across FanFiction last year I read a story about Sandstorm and Firestar, from the novels written by Erin Hunter, I am a total Warrior freak, my room is covered in posters of just Warriors :) The story was amazing and it was one of the best stories I've ever read. I didn't take much attention to the actual site, just the story, but then a few months ago I came across a story written by Wolf-lover-girl About Eleven and Amy now that story was phenomenal, once I started on chapter 1 my heart was stolen right from my chest, the story was SO great and inspired me to write my very own FanFiction, I made an account and started on the story, Wolf-lover-girl volunteered to read my story and I am so happy I met her and made my account, the people I've met on her are fantastic and I am grateful for all the reviews :) thank you to everyone who has read my novel and if you haven't I encourage you to read Wolf-lover-girl's, the link is below under my favourite stories :D xoxo
Now if you read my story All I Need Is You, here are the links I was talking about. Click the link and it'll take you to the pages :)
Now if you read my story If things were different, here are the links I was talking about. Click the link and it'll take you to the pages :)
Life of a star (Sun), From Sum up and notes 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YU6X3SPZAJo&feature=related
THING'S I'M INTO
The things in life I'm really passionate about are music, hanging out with my friends, writing, FanFiction, reading, watching T.V and just relaxing in my PJ's (HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA) some of my favourite songs are: (No order)
Sideways - Citizen Cope, Lost in Paradise - Evanescence, Echo - Jason Walker, Everything - Lifehouse, It Will Rain - Bruno Mars, If You Don't Mean It - Dean Geyer, Courage - Superchick, Titanium - David Guetta, ft. Sia, Find A Way - Safetysuit, Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne, Because Of You - Kelly Clackson, Sound The Bugle - Bryan Adams, Holding On and Letting Go - Ross Copperman, My Immortal - Evanescence, Concrete Angel - Martina McBride, Breathe - Superchick, You Found Me - The Fray Bring Me To Life - Evanescene, Cosmic Love - Florence and The Machine, Don't Let Go - Bryan Adams, Hero - Superchick, Rolling In The Deep - Adele / Ariana Grande, E.T - Katy Perry (NO KANYE), Diry Talk - Wynter Gordon, Be Be Your Love - Rachael Yamagata, You Make Me Feel - Cobra Starship ft. Sabi, Mockingbird - Eminem, Because - Jessica Mauboy, Over My Head - The Fray, Your Guardian Angel -The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, You and Me - Lifehouse, Need You Now - Lady Antebellum, Jar Of Hearts - Christina Perri, Life Is A Highway - Rascal Flats, Young At Heart - Amy Meresith, California King Bed - Rihanna, Stand In The Rain - Superchick, Domino - Jessie J, Jungle - Emma Louise, Here With Me - Dido Beauty From Pain - Superchick...
WOW that's a lot of songs, and that isn't even all of them :) hahahahahahahahaha, I will list a few T.V show I love (No order):
Wild At Heart, Terra Nova, Desperate Housewives, How I met your mother, Family Guy, Scrubs Doctor who, New Girl, Masterchef, Gray's Anatomy, Friends, Packed To The Rafters (I will not believe that Mel died, and you can't make me. :'( it's to heart breaking), Beauty and The Geek, Doc. Martin, Monroe, Poirot, Midsomer Murders, Merlin, Big Bang Theory, Two and a half men (With Charlie Sheen), The mentalist, Peppa Pig (Come on, everyone has a favourite cartoon, young or old), The Middle, Bondi Rescue, Parenthood, Bondi Vet, The Zoo.
There are heaps more, but i won't list them all, it'll be as long as my music list haha.
1. Last Hug: Mum
HAVE YOU EVER :
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
YOUR FUTUR :
WHICH IS BETTER:
HAVE YOU EVER:
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
THAT AWKWARD MOMENT... + THAT FAIL MOMENT...
That failed moment when... The power is out yet you still flick the light switch. (I do that every time the power goes out)
That awkward moment when... Your epileptic friend has a seizure during ‘Moves Like Jagger.’
That fail moment when... Someone says “Happy Birthday!” to you, and you respond “thanks you too”
That awkward moment when... Your mum’s telling you how much she likes your new boyfriend, and then ends the conversation with ” I’m gonna be sad when he breaks up with you.”
That fail moment when... You fall up the stairs. (done it so many times, hehe)
That awkward moment when... You say goodbye to someone and both walk the same way.
That fail moment when... You push a pull door. (I do it every day)
That awkward when you read... 'moment' yet it wasn’t even there. (did it)
That fail moment when... Your straw falls into your juice box.
That awkward moment when... You look fine in front of the mirror then as soon as you take a picture you look like a troll.
That fail moment while... Texting you forget to change the function back to ‘abc’ from ‘123’ and dont realize until you’ve sent…#$% 3322 5488 ^&%!
That awkward moment when... You run over your own banana in Mario Kart.
That fail moment when... You need to turn the toilet paper roll a billion times before you find where the beginning is.
That awkward moment when... You burp and you realize it sounds exactly like Skrillex.
That fail moment when... You try to save the women you love by turning to the dark side to gain more power but she ends up dying anyways because you were getting robo-suited up while she was giving birth.
That awkward moment when... You have a go at someone and try and make a dramatic exit when someone is in your way and you have to wait for them to move.
That fail moment when... You go up the wrong escalator at the coconut mall in mario cart.
That awkward moment when... You can’t stop laughing while telling a joke and when you are finally done, your friends doesn’t even get it.
That fail moment when... You get a paper cut opening a bandaid.
That awkward moment when... Edward and Santa are watching you sleep at the same time.
That fail moment when... You are with a group of friends singing a song and you get the words wrong.
That awkward moment when... The guy who discovered milk realizes he has to explain how he found it.
That fail moment when... You’re talking to an american guy on the internet and you say that you’re going to go put on your thongs and go outside.
That awkward moment when... A white van drives past and you suddenly feel a deep sense of rejection.
That fail moment when... You say seduce instead of sedate infront of your mum.
That awkward moment when... You think you’re doing really well at Mario Kart, and then you realize you’re looking at your friends screen.
That fail moment when... You roll your ankle and fall down the stairs.
That awkward moment when... You look both ways down a one way street.
That awkward moment when... You’re typing without looking at the screen, then you look up and find out you haven’t typed a thing.
That awkward moment when... Rapunzel tries to whip her hair back and forth.
That awkward moment when... You try to Eskimo kiss Voldemort.
That awkward moment when... You talk behind someone’s back and they are literally right in front of you.
That awkward moment when... Someone yells at you for clicking a pen but you have to click it one more time to use it.
That awkward moment when... You sleep over at a friend’s and wake up before they do and all you can do is stare at the ceiling.
That awkward moment when... The poilce ask Wally's mum why she never filed a missing persons report.
That awkward moment when... Emma Watson answers a question correctly in class and someone stands up and shouts, “10 points to Gryffindor”
That awkward moment when... You’ve already said “what?” three times and still have no idea what the person said, so you just agree.
That awkward moment when... You finish a medium popcorn by the opening credits at the movie theater.
That awkward moment when... You spell a common word correctly, but it just looks so wrong so you stare at it forever, questioning it’s existence.
That awkward moment when... Bin Laden was hanging out with Wally the whole time.
That awkward moment when... You’re singing alone in your car and you make eye contact with a stranger.
That awkward memont when... Clark Kent and Lois Lane get their tights mixed up in the dryer.
That awkward moment when... Bella Swan jumps off a cliff because all her friends are doing it.
That awkward moment when... You play hide and seek with a gay man and you ask him to stop hiding in the closet.
That awkward moment when... You accidentally type your password in the username slot.
That awkward moment when... You finish watching a TV series and you don’t know what to do with your life any more.
Warriors is my life, they are the best books I've ever read, and I'll never find anything like them again, Without Warriors I don't know who I'd be alive, they were my sanctuary when I was hurting and, my life line until I met Hayley, they are still always there for me to read when I'm sad or lonely, or feel I'm not worth the effort, they seem to make me laugh and cry for all different reason (Bluestar’s death), Erin hunter (s) are genius and need more credit for the work they do. I own almost all the books and can’t wait till I have the full collection, My Favourite book so far is Darkest hour my favourite chapter is chapter 20, it’s only a few pages long, but Firestar asks Sandstorm if she would sleep in his den with him, it was so Romanic I’m not joking when I say I’ve read it 16 times, I have a grid and write in it every time I read it, lol, I’ve read the whole book of Darkest hour about three times, and won’t stop any time soon :) Warriors are amazing and they are my world. There are many cat that are amazing and:
these cats are the ones I hold closest to me and the ones that warm my heart reading about!
SANDSTORM! (Of course, you are beautiful / my hero)
Firestar (Best leader EVER you’re so nice... and love Sandstorm)
It isn't in order now because I can't split them!
Graystripe (you were also one of my favourites Gray x Silver NOT Millie x Gray) Ravenpaw (you SHOULD of got your warrior name) Bluestar (you lost your mum and your sister not many moons later, you saved a clan by making the hardest decision you gave up your kits you’re so strong) Silverstream (you were a loyal Riverclan cat but you love Graystripe Silver x Gray forever) Oakheart (at the start you were a really stuck up fur-ball but u love Bluestar so I love you) Cinderpelt (the cat that should of been a warrior... you died how you lived, helping! you gave your life to save the kits in the nursery I LOVE YOU) Runningwind (you shouldn't of died) Feathertail (as above... you saved Crowfeather’s life you are a noble warrior) Sunstar (a mentor a deputy a leader you always liked Bluestar best so I love you for that) Whitestorm (as a kit you lost your mother and made it through Bluestar always loved you even if she couldn't handle your mother's death...)Brook -where small fish swim- (I love you and you will always be an outside cat I will love) Stormfur (You lost so much... a mother a sister and a father in another clan you did so well to survive and I'm glad you found Brook) Snowfur (Bluestar was right about Thistleclaw... you are so loyal and I love you, you were so strong when moonflower died you were there for Bluestar) Moonflower (You were a lovely mother and you shouldn't of died I love you) Thrushpelt (You always loved Bluestar but she didn't love you back you were a great friend and help pretend to be the father of your true love kits I love you...) Sweetpaw (THAT MOUSE... you were so strong and that mouse defeated you.. but I still love you) Rosetail (You were a great friend and I love you) Honeyfern (OH poor Honeyfern you should not of died that snake is Stupid...) Onewhisker (NOT Onestar! I love you OneWHISKER your beautiful and nice)
These are cats I hate:
Tigerstar (I HATE YOU YOUR A MONSTER that all I can say...) Thistleclaw (as above you are so mean training so your son to KILL) Crowfeather (I use to think you were ok but do you have any loyalty... first Feathertail she DIED for you! Leafpool you won't even admit that you father her kits. and Nightcloud do you even love her or is she your back-up plan?? ) Breezepelt (you just like your father... I HATE YOU) Hollyleaf (at the start I liked you but that soon changed you tried to kill your own MOTHER you deserve to DIE!!) Ashfur (I felt sorry for you at the start you always loved Squirrelflight. Then you tried to kill "her kits"...) Brambleclaw (you're OK but I still hate you!!) Hawkfrost (you tried to kill Firestar!! like father like son...) Brokenstar (training kits before they are even 6 moons... you’re heartless...) Blackstar (I don't know why I just don't like you...) Mudfur (your just a power-hungry mouse-brain) Darkstripe (do you have any loyalty, just like Crowfeather? lets list some "loyalties" Thunderclan, Tigerstar, Bloodclan...) Bone (You killed WHITESTORM! I HATE YOU) most of them are Shadowclan (lol) OneSTAR (not Onewhisker, Onestar I HATE you be nice Firestar he did SOOO much for you and your clan show some compassion)
Cat I don't mind
These cat are the ones I don't mind to read about but i don't Hate them but i don't Love them either this isn't in order.
Scourge (I like you I feel so sorry for you, you bottled up your emotions that's what made you strong... thannks for killing Tigerstar) Leafpool (your OK) Squirrelflight (I used to love you but now I don't...) Redtail (You shouldn't have died!) Lionheart (your nice and all there was just something there I didn't like) Goldenflower (you are nice and a loving mother to ALL kits) Mistystar (YOU ROCK) Stonefur (you died saving you sister and both your apprentices... you’re a noble Warrior) Crookedstar (I used to like you heaps but then you became deputy...) Dustpelt (as an apprentice I hated you but ten you found true love and I'm happy to have you on my list) Sorreltail (I can't imagine how it would feel to lose 2 kits you’re so strong) Brackenfur (You are a beautiful cat and I love you) Poppyfrost (your ok but you took your Sisters mate...) Cinderheart (I like you... both sides) Berrynose (you were a real fur-ball but then you found Honeyfern and I liked you but then you became her SISTER'S mate how dear you) Brightheart (some say your ugly but I think you are more beautiful after the dog pack hurt you! You’re awesome) Cloudtail (a kittypet always a kittypet in this case you soon realised that you should live by the Warrior code your cool now) Daisy (Do some god for saken WORK but your good with kits) Millie (you’re a great mother but Silver X Gray forever) Princess (a sister a mate a mother you were so strong when you gave up your kit it must of been hard) Tawnypelt (Thunderclan at heart but you live with Shadowclan you belong with your birth Clan and your brother )Mousefur (you’re as cranky as a kitting queen but your still awesome) Purdy (Kittypet, Loner, Elder I always thought you belonged in a clan good-on-ya)
In case you needed further proof that the human race is doomed through stupidity, here are some actual labels on consumer goods:
On a Sears hairdryer: Do not use while sleeping. (Maybe I shouldn't have told Tigerstar to do that...-Tigerstar is running around on fire-)
On a bag of Fritos! ..You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside. (Okay! -steals bag- -gets sent to juvi-)
On a bar of Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (No! I thought you were supposed to eat it!)
On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (Yay! Frozen food!)
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down." (Well that already happened)
On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot after heating." (No! Really!)
On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (Okay. I'll iron them on Hawkfrost)
On Boot's Children Cough Medicine: "Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication." (They don't even drive cars!!)
On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (Maybe that's why... -passes out-)
On most brands of Christmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only." (No! Really!)
On a Japanese food processor: "Not to be used for the other use." (Awwwww... Then Russetfur can't chase a mouse in there)
On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (No kidding)
On an American Airlines packet of nuts: "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts." (No! I thought you were supposed to throw them at Sandstorm!!)
On a child's superman costume: "Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly." (...)
On a Swedish chainsaw: "Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands." (Okay. BLACKSTAR!! GET OVER HERE!! Hehehe!)
Now that you've smiled at least once, it's your turn to spread the stupidity and paste this onto your profile! XD
Now for some of my favourite quotes / saying, and things I've made up, some are funny, some are true and some are sad. (Most of these I got from wesites, but the ones I say I wrote I did.):
Don't tell me the sky is the limit because there are footprints on the moon
If All my friends jumped off a cliff I wouldn't jump with them I'd be at the bottom ready to catch. (I changed around some words to another quote to get that.)
I would give up chocolate but I'm no quitter
What do you call dog with no legs? Don't matter what you call him, he ain't gonna come
Always remember you're unique, just like everyone else
Man invented language to satisfy his deep need to complain
If first you don't succeed, GIVE UP!
What are the three words guaranteed to humiliate men everywhere? 'Hold my purse.'
You have my heart...I just don't know how to tell you
You love her, but I love you, I feel empty because you hold my heart in your hand, no one knows how I feel but I wish you would look at me like you do to her, your eyes are like stars, your smile like pearls, you keep me in this trance with just one glance. (I wrote this one and the next 2 about how I feel for a certin guy.)
I Know I shouldn’t like you, I know that it’s just wrong, but the way I feel for you it’s worse to keep inside I wish you weren’t hers and we're all mine.
With every passing moment my love for you grows stronger, my heart aches as I see you with her, and everything else is a blur. I look at you for ages it’s a wonder no one notices. You consider us friends but you don’t have a clue how much you mean to me, wake up and figure out my world revolves around you.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.
In a perfect world, when he's with her, he would be wishing he was with me; when he looked at her, he would be looking at me; when he smiled at her, his smile would be for me; when he thought about someone, he would be thinking about me. In a perfect world, he would realize that she wasn't the one he was supposed to be with and I would still be standing here waiting for him still when he finally knows this. But this isn't a perfect world and people do get hurt, you smile when you feel like crying, you act like you're okay when you're falling apart inside and you let it go. You move on, because there's nothing else you can do.
How can you simply be friends with someone when every time you look at them, you're thinking about how much more you really want.
The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned.
The hardest things to let go of are the things you never really had.
How can you understand me when I can't understand myself?
You really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means that you are not a part of it.
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea what so ever.
Behind my smile is everything you’ll never understand
People can see when you’re happy, but it takes someone special to know when you’re depressed (Just thought of it, and it is so true.)
I didn’t want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry
I don’t know if I’m getting better or just used to the pain
You have a heart of pure gold, a smile of diamonds, eyes that shine brighter than stars and a hug that can squeeze away every drop of insecurity. You’re the life line that saved me while everyone turned their backs (I wrote that to my friend in a letter)
I tell myself all the reasons why I shouldn't like you because it's easier than thinking about all the reasons you're completely perfect
Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will follow you
I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying
Just because I'm smiling doesn't mean I'm happy
Death is God's way of saying you're fired. Suicide is a humans way of saying you can't fire me, I quit
Did it surprise you that I am not who you thought I was? Did it surprise you to find that I don't exactly stand for what you thought I stood for all along? Did it surprise you to find that I'm not exactly how I played myself out to be? That the person you thought I was is actually nothing to what I am.
It hurts when you're in a box marked 'fragile' and everyone just kicks you around. (I wrote that one.)
I'm happy occasionally but when I'm alone, all I see is darkness, no light at the end of the tunnel, I search for a way out but all I find is blackness no sun or candle to light my path. (I wrote that to Theodora, about how I feel.)
This is me... I'm the type of girl who loves a joke, but finds it hard to tell one. I'm the type of girl who needs love but never gets it. I’m the type of girl who needs a shoulder to cry on but can never find one. I'm the type of girl who wants the perfect man but is too ugly to get him. I’m the type of girl who frowns because it’s too hard to smile. I'm the type of girl who is crying inside but no one notices… This is me and now you know I’m not as happy as I seem. (I wrote it, sotry of my life)
Most of these are sad / depressing, that is becuase that's how I feel.
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Try Not to Cry:
Mommy...Johnny brought a gun to school,
He told his friends that it was cool,
And when he pulled the trigger back,
It shot with a great, huge crack.
Mommy, I was a good girl, I did what I was told,
I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold!
When I went to school that day,
I never said good-bye.
I'm sorry that I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry.
When Johnny shot the gun, he hit me and another,
And all because Johnny, got the gun from his brother.
Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,
And please tell Zack, my boyfriend, that it wasn't just a crush.
And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now,
And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now
And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best
Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest
Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,
And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass
Mommy, why'd it have to be me? No one, though. deserves this.
But mommy, it's not fair, I left without a kiss.
And Mommy tell the doctors; I know that they really did try
I think I even saw one doctor, trying not to cry.
Mommy, I'm slowly dying, with a bullet in my chest,
But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with the rest
When I heard that great, big crack, I ran as fast as I could
please listen to me if you would,
I wanted to go to college, I wanted to try things that were new
I guess I'm not going with Daddy, On that trip to the new zoo
I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid,
I wanted to be an actress, I really wanted to live.
But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,
Mommy, tell my Zack, I'm sorry I to cancel the date.
I love you Mommy, I always have, I know you know its true
And Mommy all I need to say is, "Mommy, I love you"
In Memory of The Columbine & Virginia Tech
Please if you would,
If you pass this on,
Maybe people will cry,
Just keep this in your heart,
For the people who didn't get to say "Good-bye".
Now you have 2 choices,
1) Pass this on, and show people you care, repost as
THIS IS A TRUE STORY. Many students have died this way.
-/\_/\ If you love Warriors,
|...| Put this on your
read this ! >>-->[0* paste this on ur profile if u luv sports
this is this cat
This is is cat
This is how cat
This is to cat
This is keep cat
This is an cat
This is idiot cat
This is busy cat
This is for cat
This is forty cat
This is seconds cat
Now read the THIRD word of every line
So that's me, through and through, I could go on for hours about random stuff, but I won't bore you, have fun and Love, Live and Enjoy