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Update 22/07/13: I'm taking a break from fanfiction and just this part of my life in general. It's been amazing meeting everyone I have and getting to know everyone. The love I feel for some of you is a bit insane to think about, considering I've never met any of you in real life. But I feel that I need to sort out my personal life first, as it's my actual life that makes me who I am. Currently it's a shambles, but hopefully it'll get better with all of my time dedicated to it.
If it inconviencies you, I frankly don't give two shits. It's my life to do with as I please, so go shove your thoughts and idea regarding me where the sun doesn't shine, because I don't care for it.
What I hope to achieve in the time is to mainly stabilize my life, to get a solid job, perhaps actually fucking apply for Uni since it's been a year since I graduated high school, marry the woman I'm dating, the woman I love. Just sort out my head completely, so I don't have to pretend to be happy every time I talk to someone, whilst having thoughts of literally hanging myself when I stop talking. I don't like the word depressed. I'm not depressed, just massively confused and going through a very change-filled period which I'm struggling to cope with.
If you want to contact me, don't bother with Skype, Facebook or Twitter, I won't be using that much if at all. Just PM me on here, it's easier and I check my emails frequently so I'll know if you sent something. You may see me post in forums from time to time just to say I'm alive.
I hope to come back in a couple of months, I don't know. It all depends really, on how far I progress.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, hope I didn't waste it(I don't really care if I did really), hope you have an enjoyable day(unless you're on my blocked list in which case have a terrible, shitty day).
If you're gonna lie to me, don't make it so blatantly fucking obvious. It makes you look like a pretentious little shit who has nothing better to do than befriend people and stab them in their back.
Edit* Eventually I'll be adding some quotes from these mentioned people, as soon as I get back to talking to them regularly.
People I care for a great deal and have all helped me deal with the complete clusterfuck that is my life:
Nina: Oh Nina, my darling Nina, how you've been with me since the start of my journey, how you've put up with me for a year and a half, and how you've helped with my many addictions, put up with my many queries, and my endless fangirling of your story Phoenix: The Burning Day. You're someone I can rely on to always be there, with your infinite wisdom, and awesome bluntness and all that jazz.
McKala: McKala, you never fail to make me laugh, whether it be from something you've said, or done, everything about you just makes me smile and fills me with joy. I've probably known you the longest, you and Nina equally I think, but in the early days I think we were quite close. You share my obsession with Finnick(who in their right mind doesn't like him?), and you love my country and I love your accent and ugh you're just awesome to me.
Meeegan: For those of you who are wondering, when I first met Meeegan and spoke to her on Skype, Bells(another friend)once called her adorable, and then the way I say her names just 'caps it off' apparently. With my strange, monotonous New Zealand accent, I say the 'e' like a British person, but with Meeegan, instead of pronouncing it 'Meh-Gan', I say it 'Me-Gan', like I'm saying 'me' instead of 'meh' at the start. It weird. Anyway, Meeegan and I used to converse a lot during the early days of Skype last year, and she was always helping me with my personal problems and vice versa, and I was fangirling over her adorable voice and yeah. We have a strange relationship.
Rose: Rose on Rose. What's not to like about this woman? She's always there when you need her, and just there to comfort you and talk to you and cheer you up and it's great. Her spelling however...my God, it can be downright attrocious at times. She's really loud and talkative when we're just typing to each other in the main chat, and the during a Skype call all you is her laughing and you're like 'wait, Rose? You're still here? TALK DAMNIT'. We love you though, Rose!
And last but not least, the person with whom I'm the closest to, and who I hold a special place in my heart for, and who I have a lost of history with, my beautiful baby sister,
You are perhaps the most amazing woman I've ever met. I was one of the first people you really spoke to on Skype, and ever since then we've hit it right off. Every time something terrible happens to you, it feels like it's happening to me too. Sometimes you don't really realise how much I love you, or how lost I would be without you around to support me, because quite frankly, you're perhaps here for me more than my RL friends, and that's kinda sad because we live in different countries.
There are countless words I constantly use to describe you in my head, but you never believe them, so I'll settle for two words. Fuckin' amazing. You truly are. Every single time I've had a rough patch in my life, you're always there to support and pull me through, telling me that it'll get better and everything in-between. You've never yelled at me, but I've done so to you. Sometimes I feel that you're too good for me, which you probably are.
Fact is, I probably wouldn't even be around to write this without you. You helped me through my many suicidal moments and continue to do so after everything we've each individually been through, and because of that, I'm always going to be around for you, even if you have a paper cut, I'll be here to help, I promise.
I love you baby, and I really do think of you as my sister. If I had the chance to, I would totally fly you out to America to adopt you, and we'd live together in a big house, me with my girlfriend, you with a boyfriend and everything would be perfect, it truly would. Know why? Because you would be there with me.
"Forget what your wise old men have taught you, for they are lies twisted to become truth. Forget what is expected of you, for they are nothing but the demented thoughts of those too weak to defend themselves. Only through blood and pain can you reforge yourself to become stronger, better." - Deprived, Chapter 11
A little about moi(I'm rubbish at putting things in order so I'm sorry if it's all messed up):
So for those that don't know me, my name is Alex and I'm 19, and one of the few people on FFN that is a guy, so hi.
I was born in New Zealand, moved to Singapore when I was 3 because of my parents jobs, and then came back here to live with friends and family after the original reason for me being in NZ kinda went south. I have a sister called Ruby, who's about 14, and for about 13 years of her life I hated her, until circumstances outside my control bought us closer together.
I also have a girlfriend called Katie, who I've been with for 5 months and I love with all my heart. We live in a town-house-converted-into-a-flat with a friend of mine, and my sister because out parents still live in Singapore and I have full custody of her
For those that don't know, I loathe my parents with a burning passion, and my father ended up disowning me as his son, and demanded I hand over custody of my sister to him, which I of course refused.
I've played cricket for about 13 years of my life, and like to think I'm quite good at it, considering I made our domestic teams 'Youth Development Squad', which is a big deal. I used to play rugby, which I did for a number of years(I lost count), but I stopped because I kept getting injured. I'm obviously not very academic, I adore quotes of death and of just anything philosophical, and I have no writing skills what-so-ever, so I pour my soul into quotes, which is my creative outlet.
I love red pandas, which despite what Meeegan says, are still pandas, and way cuter. I'm apparently really sarcastic, which can annoy lots of people, and I don't care what most people think of me(except those I'm close to), because they honesty don't matter to me and I'm not going to see most of them again, so judge away my pretties, judge away.
I'm pretty sure I wan an alcoholic, because I got drunk about every weekend for about 6 months, but I've now been sober for just over 3 and a half months or something like that. Drugs are bad kiddies, it makes you need a new liver like I did. And self-harm is also bad, because no matter how dark the place you are in is, there will always be someone else going through the exact same as what you are, so don't give up and never, ever become be. I'm an ass.
My Skype is 'zxskunkmuffinxzff', add me and tell me you're from FFN and I'll add you.
Yeah I'll keep adding to this when I think of more things to add. Ciao.
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