Where have I been?

Elsewhere...for too long.

Those who know me, well, you know my work...and if you're looking at this you know that I have a gift. Maybe not a big one, but I had one. But for some reason, I lost that gift. I don't know for how long...I don't know...I wish I did.

I left FanFiction.net, and I went to another site, thinking that I needed to go there to learn more about writing, to expand my skills. It worked, somewhat...and things happened. I learned a hell of a lot about life and relationships in a very short period of time. Fell in love, found wonderful friends...was cheated on, betrayed, lied too...had my writing and my abilities turned from an art to simple...mechanical...production. Did too much, burned myself out, now...I struggle, I struggle to get out the words, I struggle to think of things. The ideas are there, I know they are, inside my head...they churn around endlessly. Right now, I have the ideas for...five distinct books inside my head. Fantasy, Romance, Sci-Fi, alternate history, crime...all of them, in there, I know what I want them to be about, I know what they should be about, I know that they are THERE...but they won't come out. I have ideas for fanfics too...Mass Effect, have a few of that. I'm interested in writing a romance for that with Tali...I'm interested in writing an 'alternate start' style story for Mass Effect. I remember Yu Yu Hakusho, my first...romance...Botan, and I want to write in that. I've got Dragon Age ideas, I've got Resident Evil Ideas, I've got thoughts of how to continue my stories. I've got ideas for Crossovers, really fun ones...and ways to make them work out well and do them how only I can do them...how many people can make an NCIS, Eureka, Stargate SG-1 crossover?

It's all in there folks, I know a lot of you fell in love with Far Flung Hope...I know you miss it...and I miss it too...and I've still got ideas for it floating around, mulling around, but I just don't know why, but they won't come out. I guess it's come down to geting a shattered heart, getting a destroyed relationship, having a close friend betray you so that SHE can destroy your relationship...that tends to break a man's ability to write.

I don't know guys. I know I have fans out there...but you probably have moved on...but I wanna say I'm sorry for vanishing. I'm sorry my good stories died for things that were passing fancies in another site. I'm sorry that my life got so fucked up. I'm sorry I left here. In the end, ...you guys, you were more fun than anything I found elsewhere.

I'm Andy. I wrote Far Flung Hope. I wrote a lot of other things...but I want to come back.