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Author has written 15 stories for Mass Effect, Terminator, Kill Bill, Portal, Wing Commander, Dragon Age, Destiny, and No Man's Sky.

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Hello everyone! I am not gone, though my writer's block is still persisting and I'm working on taking steps trying to break through it and get back to writing both my original work, and my fanfics.

I am removing the link to the MA version of DE that I have included in here. The site where those pages were hosted is no longer available, and I don't even have copies of those scenes any more (not sure what happened to them). DE as it is here, (with all it's flaws), is all there is.

Unless, of course, it's an AU that I've started and haven't finished yet. Hope to get those done, as well as my other half finished fics on here like the Dragon Age one, and Human Heart.

I do now have one book self-published, LoRaca, that can be found on the Amazon site. It's a short novella, one I started writing when I was about fourteen and finally polished up and got out there. I still have several original fics, listed below, that I am working on as well as the fanfic stuff.

Or, will be working on, once I can bash through the last of this block.



Unless we're good friends, please do not send me materials to read or edit. Please do not send me a premise for a story and ask me to write it for you. It's not that I'm not willing to do these things or trying to be a jerk, it's that my time is finite. I can either spend it writing my own work or I can spend it beta reading and editing other people's work. If I do that, I'm no longer a writer, I'm an editor.

If you have a fabulous idea for a all means, write it! No one can write your story but you.

I try to avoid reading fanfic on the subject or genre I'm currently working on. I don't want to be accused of taking anyone's ideas, and I definitely don't want to unconsciously call upon something I read and incorporate it thinking its mine without conscious realization that it came from elsewhere. That's not fair to me nor to the people whose writing I unwittingly stole.

Also, I usually do not take suggestions unless A) you're a very good friend of mine and B) I've asked for a suggestion because I'm stuck. If you make a suggestion in a review or a PM and it appears in the story then it's because you just suggested to me what I was already going to do: you did, in fact, just guess where the story was going anyway. IF you make a fabulous suggestion and I DO decide to use it, I will not only tell you so before I do it, I will put you in the A/N as having made the suggestion. I strive to give credit where credit is due, and everyone deserves to know where a great idea came from. If I don't tell you and I don't include it in the A/N, then you pretty much just had a good guess on where I was going with the story regardless, and its coincidence that you happened to be right.

About me and my writing:

I am still here, I am not gone. I have been going through a patch of severe writer's block or burnout for quite some time but hopefully I'll be able to get back on track.*

I am the very model of a hyperactive literist. I write very quickly. Contrary to popular belief...I am not a machine :) On that note, my posting on this site has unfortunately slowed a great deal. Strike that, it's stopped completely as I was struck with the monster of all writer's blocks. I am still trying to work on that block and get writing again, and I will still finish the stories I have going and even do new ones, but I'm in a new job function and happily married now (five years in December...holy cow!), so my time is not as abundant as it used to be. Please be patient with me.

I have been writing stories since I was five years old. I am a writer, it’s what I am, what I do, and what I can’t live without.

My specialized genres tend to be horror, fantasy, sci-fi, adventure, and thorough blendings of all four. I rarely have more than a basic premise in mind when I write and I tend to let the characters and tale tell me where it wants to go. I’m a huge believer in the fact that stories already exist, it’s simply up to the writer to bring them to life. You will find that I write a lot of strong female characters.

None of the above is absolute, it’s just what I lean towards. I often write in partnership with the very talented Carissa Starr and have written in partnership with others.

I’m not out to make money at this (though it would be nice if I could make a living). I write because I must, and writing is never complete unless there is a reader to take the story in.

I am also a lucid and repetitive dreamer. A lot of the ideas from my original fic come from recurring dreams I've had since I was very small.

Planned fanfic:

Some folk will be extremely excited to learn about some of the following. Note: Sequels do NOT necessarily mean anyone is safe. I am, as most have said...evil. :)

Terminator: On hold

Dark Energy's last AU, Citadel: Currently in progress

Dragon Age: Origins

Dragon Age 2

Dragon Age 3

Wing Commander, the Human Heart: Currently in progress

Portal: On hold

Kill Bill: On hold

Destiny Fanfic: Currently in progress

Original Fic published:

Lulu bookstore stuff is no longer available. I have a self-published book, LoRaca, available under Amazon on Kindle or paperback format. I am working to get my other stuff done and published as well.

Already published books are:

Dragon Saint (first book in the Dragon Saint Series) This is one of my oldest works that I still possess, and was originally written when I was a teenager gentle. (This is no longer available on the Lulu site and not high on my priority list to make available through my self-publishing).

Upline (first book of the Radisson Series) (This is no longer available on the Lulu site and ranked about three or four on my priority list to make available through my self-publishing).

Incarnations: Aslau (co-written with Carissa Starr and included in the Incarnations series) (This is no longer available).

Projects on the table:

These are my original fic projects I have cooking on various burners. Some you may find very shortly on 's sister site, . It is my hope to post them in progress there (gaining feedback and gauging interest) until the rough draft at least is completed. They will then be edited, some scenes possibly rewritten, and pulled off the site to be included for sale. (Right now I am not working on my original fiction through That may change in the future, and I will update this if it does). Thus, you will be able to read the story as it evolves and will be able to buy a hard copy or digital version of the finished product if you so desire. As I said, I'm not doing this for money (though t'would be nice). I don't care if you copy the stories and make them into .pdfs to read on your kindle or nook. Just be aware that you won't get the final, polished, edited version of the story unless you purchase (eBook versions are usually under 5 dollars)

However, taking any of my material and attempting to publish or claim it as your own WILL be met with force. I may be a bit forgiving but outright copywrite infringment against my intellectual material will not be tolerated.

/tangent. Anyway, As you can see, there are quite a lot of them (note...this does not generally include my collaborative work with other writers! One or two titles here are, however, collaborative...most notably the Oakfallow Series and Heart of the World). Below I have included a quick snip about what the series/story is about and it's genre.

Minutes Series:

Sci-fi fantasy, aliens. Isel is a Rescuun, an herbivorous alien race that lives on a peaceful planet. Having learned that conventional space travel is unrealistic, a brilliant scientist has developed technology that allows a candidate -Isel- to leave their body and explore the universe unbound by physics. Time becomes pure perspective -no matter how long Isel is out exploring from their perspective, to the perspective of the rest of Rescuu, they are only gone for eleven minutes. On Isel's initial jaunt they discover a distant planet named Earth, and decide to learn their ways...however it seems they're not the only one doing so, and the other seems more intent to learn humanity's methods of war and cruelty above all else.

Book one: 11 Minutes (undergoing final proofing)

Book two: Unnamed sequel (in progress)

Two additional titles planned, currently unnamed

Dragon Saint Series (this is not even close to the top of my to do list, held indefinitely):

Fantasy, sword and sorcery. A peaceful kingdom undergoes an invasion, and Princess Bethany Duncan goes to fight it to protect her family and her people. From the battlefield to realms unknown, Bethany tries to get back home and along the journey, learns of ways once long lost...the way of the Dragon.

Dragon Saint (the first book, told from the perspective of Bethany's journal the night before battle)

A Tale of Bethany

The Immortal War

Pale Hand (possible) Series:

Fantasy, sword and sorcery meets old west. 'Zombies', werewolves, gunslingers, dragons, trolls, magic. An orphan boy named Willem is the only survivor of an attack at the fishing camp where he has worked since he was old enough to lift a net. He is rescued by a mysterious woman who is trying to get to the palace to warn the royal family and their Champion of a threat that is spreading across the land, a threat that may indicate the return of long dead Gods and a long dormant evil that will spell the end of everything if it's not stopped.

Willem (working title, fantasy novel)

Kaloran Series:

Fantasy, sword and sorcery, elemental magic, clockwork technology, multiverse, epic series. On the world of Kaloran, the mortal elements of Fire, Water, Earth, and Air can be wielded by mages, with no mage able to control more than two of these elements. The immortal elements of Life, Spirit, Light, and Darkness can be controlled by no one. A vile and inhuman creature of Darkness has risen to plague the land, and the hushed whispers around campfires try to name it: the Fool King, the Colored Knife, the Grin, the Bright Huntsman -but none know it's true name. Also whispered is the name of the Rose of Fire, the only mortal who has ever been able to wield all four of the mortal Elements, and the prophecy that only aleepha can destroy this monster. Problem is, the Fool King has slaughtered all the aleepha, and the Rose of Fire died an Age past. Is hope truly gone? Or will it take something greater, something that has heretofore been impossible in the world of Kaloran...a harnessing the power of the Immortal Elements and finally forging the Prism of Ages?

Book One: Vhantalya (going through final edits) This is top of my priority list, along with Reboot, noted below.

Book Two: The Scryer and the Scribe

Book Three: The Rose of Fire

Book Four: The Cauldron of the World

Book Five: The Blood de Valint

Book Six: The Fool King

Book Seven: The Light of Souls

Book Eight: The Court of Hubris

Book Nine: The Prism of Ages

Radisson Series:

Modern day fantasy, surrealistic, multiverse. Ellen Scarben's across the street neighbor is...strange. Nellie's a recluse and seems a bit touched in the head, keeping herself and her dog behind a fence and enduring the neighborhood kids vandalizing her property. None of that stops Ellen from befriending her, it her sympathetic nature. Then one day, Ellen walks in on a home invasion. Poor, odd Nellie Teal is now dead and it seems she's left Ellen her house. She plans to sell it...until she walks into the backyard and a river appears out of nowhere. Where does the river lead? What were the invaders looking for when they tortured and killed poor Nellie? Whatever the answers, Ellen is sure she's not going to like them...

Book one: Upline (published) This will be re-edited and put up for self-publish but it is also not top of my priority list atm.

Book Two: Downline (in progress)

Book Three: Throughline

Book Four: Midline

Book Five: Outline

Book Six: Endline

Oakfallow Series:

Modern day horror, 'haunted house'. The castle of Oakfallow was once home to Regina Winternight, a sadistic woman who delighted in torturing her staff and was not averse to the most cruel forms of murder. When she finally goes on a full massacre the local constabulary rush in only to find all living things within dead at Regina's hand. One spots Regina stepping behind a door to the castle's famed 'maze floor' but when he opens the door she's nowhere to be found, vanished completely as if she had never existed. Many, many years later a paranormal research team lead by Dr. Kaelyn Maynard are asked to study the castle and film a documentary about its haunted past, in light of an unfortunate tragedy and a rising rash of activity in the castle itself. Kaelyn is only interested in the phenomenon but soon realizes she and her team may be playing with more than they bargained for as it seems that Regina Winternight may never have left at all.

The Legend of Oakfallow (undergoing extensive rewrite)

The Haunting of Dark Abbey Hall

Non-Series books planned:


Scarlett is a modern day superhero story. Laura Walken has a problem: she can hear people screaming in her head. It only happens just before tragedy strikes- a murder, a flood, an earthquake, an act of terrorism- and its driving her insane. The voices are the people that die in those tragedies...or *will* die, if Laura doesn't intervene. If she saves them, the screaming stops. If she doesn't...

Ferry Tails and Witches

Ferry Tails and Witches is a storybook fantasy, and firmly tongue in cheek. In a rickety and somewhat unimpressive castle, on the edge of a swamp that would be better termed 'the epitome of false advertising' than anything approaching 'dire', a girl ran. Her name is Lysette, and she has a problem. Her problem being that there is a witches' convention that's being called, they expect Eugenia to attend and prove certain skills...and the witch she's supposed to be enslaved by can't even turn herself green and has more a beauty mark than a wart on her nose. What's a girl to do, when her best friend is supposed to be her slave master and the evil beast that guards the castle is a tatty little dog? If the other witches found out, it'd be their necks, but Eugenia is utterly useless as a witch. Isn't she?

Reboot (right now this is the top of my list and the only one I've been able to write on here and there during my block. By here and there, I mean a sentence or two a month, but it is where my mind is invested right now)

Reboot is a modern day suspense story with shades of horror and post apocalyptic tones. David Rusk is the only one left in the world, so far as he knows. It's been that way for years now, after whatever it was that happened...happened. On one perfectly normal morning every living thing in the world beside David disappeared. What's more, every day appears to be the same day and at the exact same time everything around him...well, the best word he has for it is 'reboots'. He doesn't know what caused this, or what will happen next, he's just trying to survive. You see, he's the only one left in the world...except for the monsters.

The Dreamer

The Dreamer is a modern day surreal 'thriller'. One day, out of nowhere, a new website appears. No one seems to host it, no one can explain where it came from or what it actually is, but it quickly becomes a world wide viral phenomenon. The only thing that appears on the website is a constant stream feed. For most of the hours of the day, this feed only says 'stand by', but for a few hours each day the feed is full of surreal images and sounds, all seeming recorded from a 'first person' point of view. But what do the images mean? What are they? Some think they're just AI generated randomness, a kind of deep fake project. Others think they're religious in nature, or contain secret coded government messages. But is the website's biggest fan, eccentric rich-boy Thomas Dayner, actually right? Are the images actually dreams? And if they are...who is the Dreamer?

I will of course add to these lists as new ideas come to me or as things are finished/reworked/I dig out some of my old projects and go 'oh yeah, forgot about this one'.

Thank you for reading, and enjoy!

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After by N.Q. Wilder reviews
Set post-ME3 and sequel to "All Things Pass," "Sub Specie Aeternitatis" and "Never Again." A story of the possible future for Commander Shepard and Liara T'soni.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 12 - Words: 72,173 - Reviews: 141 - Favs: 208 - Follows: 235 - Updated: 7/24/2015 - Published: 8/24/2011 - Liara T'Soni, J. Garson
Of Sheep and Battle Chicken by LogicalPremise reviews
My AU retelling of ME1 in a darker, sinister universe. Much darker and more realistic views of the SA and the Citadel Council, a more dangerous, involved Cerberus, and a more conflicted Saren and Benezia. Changes much of the ME1 dynamic to remove plot holes with more focus on politics, military strategy, and space combat. Pairing is FShep/Liara. Rewritten through Chapter 65 so far.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Angst - Chapters: 123 - Words: 745,723 - Reviews: 1541 - Favs: 1,353 - Follows: 1,001 - Updated: 9/22/2014 - Published: 4/13/2012 - [Shepard, Liara T'Soni] Garrus V., Illusive Man - Complete
Catalyst of Fate by OriginalAlcy reviews
Commander Evangeline Shepard never asked to be brought back from the dead and she sure as hell didn't ask for the job of taking on the Reapers. The one thing she has asked for, she can't have. Mass Effect 3 redux with reflections on ME2. FemShep/Liara
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 36 - Words: 268,535 - Reviews: 316 - Favs: 401 - Follows: 330 - Updated: 7/11/2013 - Published: 3/18/2012 - [Liara T'Soni, Shepard] - Complete
Caduceus by Bladhaire reviews
Set several centuries after the events of ME3, Caduceus will follow the adventures of Liara through life, love and all things Prothean. More details in the A/N. Rated M for safety, will contain some violence and a bit of mild romance too.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 13 - Words: 38,795 - Reviews: 58 - Favs: 71 - Follows: 105 - Updated: 3/9/2013 - Published: 1/29/2012 - Liara T'Soni
Blind Hope by Bladhaire reviews
Short one-shot for fans of Melaradark's Dark Energy series to tide us over while Melara gets back to fighting strength. Occurs about the same time as events from the end of DE2, chapter 54. Love knows no bounds...
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,214 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 5 - Published: 3/25/2012 - Liara T'Soni - Complete
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The Human Heart reviews
The Kilrathi Empire is in a bitter war with the Human Confederation...and slowly but surely, they are winning. The Human Heart follows two pilots from their first meeting to the deepest and most desperate battles of the war, and humanity's last stand against annihilation. Solidly left-of-canon.
Wing Commander - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 42 - Words: 154,059 - Reviews: 121 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 42 - Updated: 10/18 - Published: 6/19/2014
Blood Sacrifices: The Sins We Suffer reviews
The tale of the Warden Nike Cousland and her journey through the events of the first Dragon Age game, to become the Hero of Ferelden. Told slightly left-of-canon. The first in a series of at least three planned DA stories under the collection Blood Sacrifices. DLCs and Awakenings expansion included. FWarden/Morrigan romance.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Fantasy/Romance - Chapters: 18 - Words: 60,593 - Reviews: 114 - Favs: 130 - Follows: 188 - Updated: 10/17 - Published: 4/22/2015
Destiny: A Song of Three reviews
A left-of-canon fic following the storyline and events of the MMO Destiny. A new Guardian has just been revived from the remains of the Ancients. She's been awoken to a world she doesn't know, a war that seems doomed to be lost, with no memory of her past or self. Possible future romance included, possible F/F.
Destiny - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Drama - Chapters: 12 - Words: 39,447 - Reviews: 55 - Favs: 101 - Follows: 142 - Updated: 4/14/2017 - Published: 7/16/2015
Dark Energy: Dark Skies reviews
Over a thousand years since the events of the last Dark Energy story, a T'Soni working on a classified project that studies and monitors the Intergalactic Fold Network that connects the Milky Way to the rest of the Multiverse stumbles upon a secret: two missing years in the lives of Del Shepard and Liara T'soni. This is the record of those two missing years. Collaborative.
Crossover - Mass Effect & No Man's Sky - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Adventure - Chapters: 11 - Words: 31,021 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 40 - Follows: 40 - Updated: 10/23/2016 - Published: 8/20/2016 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni
Dark Energy 5: Inheritance reviews
The last and final chapter of the Dark Energy Saga. It is 100 years from the time of Del Shepard's passing, and the truth of a very old enemy that once threatened the entirety of the galaxy is now coming to light. Who created the Reapers and why...and what happens when those creators realize that their creations have been defeated?
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Adventure - Chapters: 70 - Words: 254,891 - Reviews: 683 - Favs: 227 - Follows: 204 - Updated: 4/17/2015 - Published: 10/26/2013 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni - Complete
Dark Energy: Citadel reviews
The events of the Citadel DLC- mission and party- set in the Dark Energy version of the Mass Effect universe. Del Shepard returns once again in this left-of-canon, untold chapter of her story, and the war she gave everything of herself to win.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 10 - Words: 36,386 - Reviews: 97 - Favs: 120 - Follows: 149 - Updated: 7/5/2014 - Published: 4/4/2014 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni
Dark Energy AU: Best Left Said reviews
An AU based on my DE series. What if Del Shepard's past had been different? What if she were the one who was the shy scientist...and Liara was the hardened commando? How would it change them, and would the love that so defined them in DE blossom once again? Old characters and new ones follow a story that is *NOT* ME or DE canon. Enjoy!
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 49 - Words: 188,796 - Reviews: 506 - Favs: 479 - Follows: 409 - Updated: 10/20/2013 - Published: 3/13/2013 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni - Complete
Portal: One Last Test reviews
My left-of-canon take on the Portal Games. Follows the first Portal game without just regurgitating game play. Who is Chell and where does she really come from? Some harsh language, some violence. Exploring the reality of Chell and GLaDOS, their origins and what REALLY happened in the bowels of Aperture Science Laboratories.
Portal - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Friendship - Chapters: 2 - Words: 6,358 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 37 - Updated: 7/23/2013 - Published: 7/9/2013 - Chell, GLaDOS
Dark Energy 4: Aftermath reviews
Covering my version of events for roughly two centuries following the War. The Reapers have been defeated, and a wounded galaxy rebuilds.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Family - Chapters: 29 - Words: 112,831 - Reviews: 484 - Favs: 368 - Follows: 218 - Updated: 3/9/2013 - Published: 12/4/2012 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni - Complete
Dark Energy 3: End of Days reviews
The third in the Dark Energy Series. Covering the events of ME3 w/alternate 'fix-it' ending, follow renegade Del Shepard as she struggles to unite a galaxy...and stop a threat greater than anyone has ever before known. Rated M for language, violence.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 85 - Words: 393,423 - Reviews: 1561 - Favs: 563 - Follows: 336 - Updated: 12/1/2012 - Published: 5/7/2012 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni - Complete
In Space, no one can hear the Snoo-Snoo! reviews
Follow the dramatic adventures of Commander Sybil Shepard! known by most of her friends as Snoo-Snoo, this wealthy tagalog speaking rebel saves the galaxy and woos her love by playing romantic banjo music outside their quarters late...LATE at night. She's part eskimo, speaks tagalog fluently, wears a Stetson, drinks gin, and listens to old Jewish rap songs.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,012 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 36 - Published: 10/6/2012 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni
After Bill reviews
Twelve years after Beatrix Kiddo gets her revenge on Bill, she and her daughter BB finally have their normal life. But what happens if there were more DiVAS than just those at the Texas massacre? What if some of them have their own bones to pick with Ms. Kiddo? And what can watching a parent die right in front of you do to a four year old little girl...?
Kill Bill - Rated: M - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,121 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 7 - Published: 9/22/2012 - Beatrix Kiddo, BB K.
Terminator: Fall of Man reviews
AU fic taking place immediately after Terminator 3 and going on from there. Left-of-Canon, completely ignores Salvation and the TV series. My version of what happened after Judgement Day. Blood, violence, language, some shmexy.
Terminator - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Suspense - Chapters: 3 - Words: 21,830 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 5/18/2012 - Published: 5/8/2012 - John Connor
Dark Energy 2: Trail of Shadows reviews
The second installment of the Dark Energy trilogy. Follow the continuing tale of renegade Del Shepard through the events of the second game as she comes to grips with dying, living, and saving the galaxy, all over again.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 72 - Words: 398,417 - Reviews: 881 - Favs: 604 - Follows: 277 - Updated: 5/6/2012 - Published: 12/22/2011 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni - Complete
Dark Energy reviews
Following a unique Renegade Shepard's story through all three games.Shepard is a real person, with real traumas...this is a side of her you have never seen. Will feature a Liara/FemShep romance.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 21 - Words: 178,559 - Reviews: 277 - Favs: 812 - Follows: 317 - Updated: 12/21/2011 - Published: 10/28/2011 - J. Garson, Liara T'Soni - Complete