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Author has written 54 stories for Dragon Age, Mass Effect, and Torchwood.

Life. It's ever changing, ever growing, forever developing, and with that comes saying goodbye to previous chapters. This is what I am doing today.

Fanfiction brought me a comfort, a peace, a place to call home when I needed it most. And I loved it then; the friendships I made, the kindred spirits out there in the world that held me with their words as much as I held them with mine. But there's always been the struggle with these words, and I found more and more they were just too difficult to form.

The last story I've posted here was several years ago. To go back and finish those incomplete, or attempt something new... it's a daunting task now to me. The joy writing once provided me is now nothing more than a burden; I've lost the love I once had for these stories.

My apologies to those who have left reviews that I have not responded to. Each email notification was like a stab to my heart; I wanted to respond, to thank and appreciate anyone who took the time to read these stories, but it was like revisiting an ex repeatedly: too painful, because I did once love this place more than life itself. And now it's time to let it go for good.

I will leave these stories here for anyone who still wishes to read them, or new readers who may find their way here. Thank you to those who always supported me. Thank you to those who encouraged me. Thank you even to those who hated me, because you motivated me further into proving you wrong. Most of all, thank you to the friendships and bonds that were created from this place; though they too are in the past, know that you all still have a very special place in my heart forever.


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Unrequited reviews
Alyse struggles with her feelings for Riordan, knowing his heart belongs to Duncan. A tribute to The Narrow Path written by Olivegbg and Gaspode5. Rated M for language.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,060 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 4 - Published: 8/4/2015 - Duncan, Riordan, OC - Complete
Dearest Father reviews
Hawke struggles to discover herself, her strength, and her place in Kirkwall through letters she writes to her father Malcolm. Conflicted with being a mage while believing in the Maker, she finds comfort in the company of Sebastian, a brother of the Chantry with his own inner turmoil. A playthrough story of DA2 with some AU elements. Currently in Act 3.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 92 - Words: 146,243 - Reviews: 746 - Favs: 85 - Follows: 135 - Updated: 7/24/2015 - Published: 7/26/2012 - [Sebastian V., Hawke (F)] Malcolm H.
When Time Stood Still reviews
My AU version surrounding the events of Season 3 episode 4. Apologies for the lame summary, but as I spread my love for this show, I know there are still those out there that haven't seen it. SPOILER ALERT! Read at your own risk.
Torchwood - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,732 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/4/2015 - [Jack H., Ianto J.] Gwen C. - Complete
Heavy Hearts reviews
Cole tries to help a hurting Lavellan.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 310 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 5 - Published: 1/19/2015 - [Solas, Lavellan] Cole - Complete
Redemption reviews
DAI AU: Dorian has been working with an apprentice for nearly a decade, and wishes to bring the man to Skyhold. Some are more happier at his arrival than others. A gift fic for Of Quirky Excellence.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,040 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 4 - Published: 12/24/2014 - [Amell, Jowan] Dorian, Trevelyan - Complete
Beyond reviews
Strength from within and beyond help Shepard get through those final moments on the Citadel. Spoiler for Mass Effect 3 ending.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 688 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/28/2014 - [Shepard (F), Thane K.] - Complete
Endless Love reviews
Setting: Post DA2. Cullen has been given the position of Knight-Commander after the templars defeated the mages. He was settling into his new title quite nicely until someone from his past walked into his office. What she asks of him will test his loyalty to the Order and force him to question everything he once stood proudly for. It will also test his heart. F!Amell/Cullen.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 18 - Words: 49,642 - Reviews: 249 - Favs: 123 - Follows: 113 - Updated: 8/6/2014 - Published: 10/13/2012 - [Amell, Cullen] [Anders, Hawke (F)] - Complete
Confrontation at Ostagar reviews
Loghain and Alistair both return to Ostagar to face the demons of their past. Will these two finally be able to move on from the events of that dark day? Or will coming face to face with the reality of what happened be too much, and end in their final confrontation? A short story AU re-telling of Return to Ostagar.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 8 - Words: 11,809 - Reviews: 89 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 27 - Updated: 6/14/2014 - Published: 9/5/2013 - Alistair, Loghain M. T. - Complete
Shadows of the Heart reviews
The truth about Anders' past threatens his relationship with Hawke when a former lover goes missing. Slight AU telling of the Finding Nathaniel quest from DA2 Act 3 with flashbacks of Awakening. F!Hawke/Anders/Nathaniel. Cover image credit and spark for the story idea goes to Ekocentric.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 8 - Words: 13,411 - Reviews: 47 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 17 - Updated: 6/12/2014 - Published: 7/16/2013 - Anders, Nathaniel H., Hawke (F) - Complete
Invisible reviews
Orana's perspective of the nights Fenris comes to visit Hawke. DAFFW challenge for June to choose a well-known, popular scene in DA and tell it from the perspective of a character who is present, but not the main character.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,020 - Reviews: 28 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 2 - Published: 6/1/2014 - [Fenris, Hawke (F)] Orana - Complete
We Have Now reviews
As Shepard prepares for the suicide mission through the Omega 4 relay, an unexpected visitor reminds her that there are some things worth living for. A short two chapter story containing spoilers for ME1 and ME2.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,447 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 11 - Updated: 4/4/2014 - Published: 3/31/2014 - [Kaidan A., Shepard (F)] - Complete
Without You reviews
The end.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 585 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 10/28/2013 - Anders, Hawke (F) - Complete
Hero of Redcliffe reviews
I never quite imagined I'd be able to tell a tale such as this, but it's true what they say about knights in shining armor and happy endings. A look into how one man came to a small village and changed my life, and the lives of others. One-shot, as told by Bella, about Aedan Cousland.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,147 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 3 - Published: 8/31/2013 - [Cousland, Bella] - Complete
Basalit-an reviews
The Story of Hawke and the Arishok: The Unexpected Demands of the Qun. Hawke, a fierce warrior, and the Arishok, the leader of the Qun: two very different personalities work together to uncover the corruption within Kirkwall. As they learn about each other, a mutual respect turns into something more. Rated M for language and adult content. Co-writers Wintryone & LucienGrey.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 16 - Words: 67,984 - Reviews: 211 - Favs: 170 - Follows: 102 - Updated: 7/17/2013 - Published: 2/15/2013 - [Arishok, Hawke (F)] Fenris, Tallis - Complete
Tortured Soul reviews
A series of vignettes surrounding Shepard as she struggles with life, death, and the pressures of being in command...and in love. These are the scenes I needed to create to move on in the game. F!Shepard/Kaidan/Garrus. ME2 only. Completed, as new ideas will be posted as their own stories.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,575 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 6/30/2013 - Published: 3/29/2013 - Shepard (F), Garrus V., Kaidan A. - Complete
Unbound reviews
The internal struggle of one lost within his own mind.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 760 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 8 - Published: 6/27/2013 - Corypheus - Complete
Three Wishes reviews
This is a one-shot based on a writing challenge: In Dragon Age, there's a cutscene where a meteor crashes, and a child is found in the crater, referencing Superman. For this challenge, you're going to take this cutscene into your own hands! Take a recognizable object from a different franchise, set it in Thedas, and have your character react accordingly.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,334 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/17/2013 - Anders, Fenris, Hawke (F) - Complete
Dark Refuge reviews
A glimpse into Fenris' mind, as told by Fenris; expect brooding. One-shot.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,534 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 14 - Published: 5/16/2013 - Fenris, Hawke (F) - Complete
Return To Me reviews
They shared one night together in the Circle Tower. Fate reunited them in Amaranthine, and eventually destiny led them to Kirkwall. An intimate story surrounding the idea that love can survive anything. F!Amell/Anders.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 16 - Words: 61,850 - Reviews: 118 - Favs: 64 - Follows: 66 - Updated: 5/7/2013 - Published: 3/17/2012 - [Amell, Anders] Alistair - Complete
Lost Defenders of Thedas reviews
The Hero of Ferelden, the Champion of Kirkwall, and the Right Hand of the Divine have all gone missing, and it is up to their lovers to discover the truth behind their disappearances. Includes F!Hawke/Fenris, Surana/Zevran, Cassandra/Regalyan, and others.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 20 - Words: 44,216 - Reviews: 289 - Favs: 68 - Follows: 85 - Updated: 3/29/2013 - Published: 8/11/2012 - [Alistair, Morrigan] Zevran A., Fenris - Complete
Unbroken reviews
After coming so close to death, Hawke needs to feel alive. One-shot creative writing challenge.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,151 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 3 - Published: 3/7/2013 - [Anders, Hawke (F)] - Complete
First and Only reviews
DA2 End Act 2: F!Hawke and Isabela had spent the evening finally giving into their desire for each other. But when Isabela leaves Kirkwall as the Qunari attack, Hawke is left wondering what she had done wrong to deserve such betrayal. One-shot, rated M for femslash.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,610 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 4 - Published: 2/8/2013 - Isabela, Hawke (F) - Complete
A Time to Grieve reviews
Elissa Cousland searches for a reason to live after everyone she loves has died. One-shot set after the escape from Castle Cousland in Highever.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,175 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 10 - Published: 1/29/2013 - Cousland, Duncan - Complete
A Mage's Kiss reviews
A story exploring the often downplayed chemistry and unresolved sexual tension between Alistair and Morrigan. Past scene describing the dark ritual and present day scene when they are forced to meet again. Can be enjoyed as a one-shot, but if you follow Lost Defenders of Thedas then enjoy this extended M-rated scene from chapter 14. Cover art and title credit to EkoCentric!
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,182 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 2 - Published: 12/29/2012 - [Alistair, Morrigan] - Complete
Gifts Across Kirkwall reviews
A mysterious gift giver is delivering presents all around Kirkwall. Wishing you all the best during this holiday season and a wonderful and happy new year!
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Friendship/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,700 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 2 - Published: 12/24/2012 - Hawke (F) - Complete
Living Nightmare reviews
Hawke wakes to find that things aren't exactly as they should be. Hint of Hawke/Anders. Complete.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Angst/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,075 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 4 - Published: 12/7/2012 - Anders, Hawke (F), Malcolm H. - Complete
Break for Freedom reviews
Hawke betrays Isabela's trust and turns her over to the Arishok for stealing the Tome of Koslun. This is what happens after. One-shot, mild nudity and violence.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Suspense - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,854 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 9 - Published: 11/17/2012 - Isabela, Arishok - Complete
A Test of Strength reviews
Aveline begins to question herself and her past decisions when a desire demon offers her the chance to be reunited with her husband Wesley. These are her thoughts after the quest Night Terrors in Act 2.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,230 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 2 - Published: 11/8/2012 - Aveline V., Wesley V. - Complete
The Lioness and the Wolf reviews
Hawke and Fenris travel to Tevinter in search of Danarius, but instead they find another lyrium branded slave. In time they will discover she is much more than Danarius' latest pet. Can her and Fenris find peace with their past? And who is really responsible for the troubles in Kirkwall? A very alternate DA2 Act 3. F!Hawke/Fenris/OC/Anders. Origin/Awakening/Legacy cameos. Complete.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Suspense/Romance - Chapters: 50 - Words: 153,810 - Reviews: 760 - Favs: 121 - Follows: 83 - Updated: 10/27/2012 - Published: 3/27/2012 - [Anders, OC] [Fenris, Hawke (F)] - Complete
Porcelain Dolls reviews
She's so beautiful. The way her porcelain skin glistens in the sunlight. What wonderful shades of purple it will change under my grasp. My name is Kelder, and I am an artist. Rated M for graphic violence and death.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Horror/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,916 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 10/9/2012 - Kelder, Lia - Complete
Torn reviews
Torn between Anders and Sebastian in those final moments of Act 3, Hawke makes the final decision that will haunt them forever.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 521 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 6 - Published: 9/7/2012 - Anders, Sebastian V., Hawke (F) - Complete
Never Again reviews
Hawke decides to take her future into her own hands.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,102 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 2 - Published: 8/26/2012 - Sebastian V., Hawke (F) - Complete
Madness reviews
Bartrand's mind in Act 3.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/23/2012 - Bartrand T. - Complete
In the Arms of a Crow reviews
The King must do what is best for Ferelden, even if that means breaking the heart of his one true love. Who will be there to pick up the pieces?
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,640 - Reviews: 30 - Favs: 36 - Follows: 6 - Published: 8/17/2012 - Alistair, Zevran A., Mahariel - Complete
Bow Envy reviews
Sebastian vs Varric. Both are in it for a common goal, yet they constantly feel the need to compete.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Friendship/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,400 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/14/2012 - Varric T., Sebastian V. - Complete
Confession reviews
Sebastian hears a confession from a woman who claims sins of lust for a friend. That woman is Hawke, that friend is him. One-shot only, rated M for hopefully obvious reasons.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,119 - Reviews: 30 - Favs: 55 - Follows: 8 - Published: 8/9/2012 - [Sebastian V., Hawke (F)] - Complete
Denied reviews
The inner turmoil of Merrill.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 224 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 5 - Published: 8/9/2012 - Merrill - Complete
The Journey reviews
The journey of a relationship between F!Hawke and Fenris, complicated by an assassin named Zevran, and hindered by a magister named Danarius. Set immediately after DA2 Act I and twisting the rest as you know it. Origin cameos! Complete.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 22 - Words: 55,648 - Reviews: 103 - Favs: 79 - Follows: 41 - Updated: 7/29/2012 - Published: 11/16/2011 - [Fenris, Hawke (F)] Zevran A. - Complete
Edge of the Sea and Sky reviews
The contract that began their friendship. Isabela and Zevran; two rogues collide. Short story. Complete. Rated M for the final chapter.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Friendship/Adventure - Chapters: 5 - Words: 7,158 - Reviews: 45 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 7/26/2012 - Published: 7/8/2012 - [Zevran A., Isabela] - Complete
Into the West reviews
The end of the line for all Wardens; the Calling. Warning: major character death.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,041 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 3 - Published: 7/22/2012 - Alistair - Complete
Dark Ritual reviews
Morrigan and Alistair: their private thoughts in the moment before the dark ritual is performed.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 729 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 2 - Published: 7/16/2012 - [Alistair, Morrigan] - Complete
A New Path reviews
The repercussions of Merrill's final quest in Act 3. How Hawke handles more blood on his hands, how Fenris supports him in his decision, and what happens to Merrill as a result of her actions. Rated M for brief m/m.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,959 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 2 - Published: 7/4/2012 - Fenris, Hawke (M), Merrill - Complete
A Seekers Love reviews
The night before Cassandra heads to Kirkwall to interrogate Varric. What drives a Seeker to search for the truth? Cassandra/Galyan. *SPOILER ALERT*: Dawn of the Seeker.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,111 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 3 - Published: 6/30/2012 - [Cassandra P., Regalyan D.] - Complete
Alone reviews
Hawke's struggle of feeling alone when surrounded by her friends.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 878 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 2 - Published: 6/21/2012 - Hawke (F) - Complete
The Order Dictates reviews
Cullen's internal struggle.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 300 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 7 - Published: 6/21/2012 - Amell, Cullen - Complete
The Journey Revisited: Holding Caves reviews
Whatever will two elves do while trapped within the holding caves? Fenris dares to ask Zevran about his powers of seduction. One-shot. Complete.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,129 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/25/2012 - Fenris, Zevran A. - Complete
The Last Mission reviews
Zevran tells the Warden of his last mission as a Crow.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 898 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 7 - Published: 5/12/2012 - Zevran A., Rinna - Complete
The Journey Aftermath: Zevran reviews
While this little snippet can be read on it's own, it's more of a one shot epilogue of sorts to my story The Journey; Zevran struggles with the knowledge that Hawke loves Fenris and not him.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 492 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/27/2012 - Zevran A., Hawke (F) - Complete
Hoarders comes to Kirkwall reviews
Crossover: Hoarders Matt Paxton and Dr Robin Zasio come to visit Hawke in her estate. Just for fun.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 740 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/22/2012 - Complete
The Vow reviews
Why Ser Alrik is the way he is.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 344 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 1 - Published: 4/6/2012 - S. Alrik - Complete
Sacrifice reviews
Dragon Age Origins endgame.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 260 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/31/2012 - Alistair - Complete
Codex entry: Letter to Alistair reviews
Found attached to the back of Duncan's Shield in the Grey Warden Vault in Denerim.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 350 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 18 - Published: 3/25/2012 - Alistair, Duncan - Complete
I Need reviews
Fenris yearns for Hawke.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 285 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/19/2012 - Fenris, Hawke (F) - Complete
I Want reviews
Hawke yearns for Fenris.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 188 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 4 - Published: 2/11/2012 - Fenris, Hawke (F) - Complete