Author has written 17 stories for Danny Phantom, Harry Potter, and Ben 10.
I'm uploading again.
It's been a greasy shit of a year. But it finally looks like everything's going to be okay.
I was unable to upload for a very long time, with no end to my hiatus in sight. I faced a sudden situation in which suddenly there was nothing else that mattered except seeing the crisis through. If it hadn't turned out okay, I don't know if I ever would have felt comfortable coming back and I may have just had to upload a chapter outline of what I intended to happen, or let Andy or someone else I trusted write the ending. As it is, I'm still writing slow, but I'm writing, and I'm happy to be writing.
Some of you know I have a very close relationship with my mother. I almost lost her. I will not be going into detail on her specific circumstances--I don't want any identifying personal information out there. But I can tell you that it was a protracted health issue that we just conquered together. My family is broken due to my sexual orientation; it's just been me and my mom for a while, and I don't know what I'd do without her. The rest of the family tried to glue themselves back on when the health issue occurred so that they could help care for her, which was extra painful for all involved. As much as we would love the family back together, they broke our trust. If they weren't there in our health, they do not deserve to be there in our sickness. We were in need, but we decided to get those needs from friends who were there for us all the time, not just taking advantage of desperation. My mother said that she didn't want them coming back and pretending they were our family again after what they did to us. As right as she and I both know that she was, it killed her to shut them out after we've been hoping so long for us to be a whole family again. I suspect it may have even prolonged her recovery, being so upset all the time about repeatedly turning away from them when they kept trying to reach out. But she was firm, and we came through it all right.
So that was my situation. I was spending all of my time with my mom, I had to take time out of school and work and was already financially strapped (because I don't have support from most of my family). I had no time to work on anything personal.
Why I completely disappeared without explaining.
When everything first blew up, I had to check out completely. Not checking my reviews, not checking my fanfiction email. Everything else very quickly faded away for me. Before I knew it, it had been a month, and then months plural, since I had last checked in here.
I didn't want to remind people that I existed. I didn't want to field sympathies and constant messages of concern. I just wanted everything to completely go away so that I would have to deal with as little as possible; I wasn't in the mood to keep giving updates about when I was going to be back when I really had no idea. And maybe that wasn't great, but I think going back I would have done the same thing. My thought process focused on the difference between completely vanishing and telling people "I have no idea when I'll be back". The difference is, in the second situation, I have to keep reminding people that I don't know when I'll be back, and people will keep getting reminded that I'm not uploading, keep getting hopes up and keep having the hopes come down. I decided I didn't want your hopes, or honestly my own hopes, to be on that roller coaster ride. After I suddenly realized it had already been months since I last had a peep on this site, I didn't want to remind people I was around just for them to be reminded that I wasn't uploading and had no idea when I'd be coming back. I figured it was best to only come back when I actually knew what was happening, and not to come back just to say I'm still unsure and have a flurry of messages sent at me in response that I could not handle answering, whether good or bad. I just didn't have the capacity to deal with anything at all outside of my mom's care, not uploading chapters and not even keeping up with updates about how I was doing.
What happens now.
So I said I was only returning once I knew where everything stood for me. Here's where it stands.
After I decided to start writing again, I still didn't know how much or how often I'd be able to write, so I still didn't say anything. I didn't want another situation where it would be a whole "yeah, but is he REALLY coming back? He's made promises before that he didn't keep." So after a long while of writing very small snippets at a time, about as quickly as I realized I hadn't checked in for a while here, I realized in the same way that... whoa, I've got ten more chapters than I've actually uploaded. And I realized I'd be able to finish this soon.
Right now I'm working on Chapter 25 of Book 7. I'm only just uploading Chapter 11 now. I'm very close to the end and I figured now was a good time to finally say I know where I'm standing and I can come back soon. So here's my expectation: In all likelihood, this month of July will be the month that you get the end of the series. If not, then definitely August. Definitely before school starts again because I don't want to have to still be writing it while I'm headed back to school! And that right there, is 100%. I purposefully avoided coming back until I was 100% sure because I know I've broken those due dates too many times. So know that this is a 100%, and I wouldn't be writing this if I didn't know it. You will get the end of this series by the end of the summer.
When will the regular uploads restart? Not totally sure yet--I want to make sure I can finish writing so that you don't have to wait extra long for the final chapters; I want to put all the last chapters out pretty close together because that would suck to have multiple weekly uploads and then suddenly you have to wait weeks in between right as we get to the end. So this chapter I'm uploading today, Chapter 11, is the promise. I'll start them again when I have a good schedule in mind, but there will definitely be multiple weekly uploads when I start that regular uploading schedule, whatever it ends up being.
Thanks to those who are reading this, for being with me all this way, through my ups and downs. I'm sorry I didn't reach out to this community before. As much as words are helpful, I needed to focus on the things that were in the life that was happening in front of me. I love all of you here, and I know you want what's best for me... And separating myself so I could entirely focus on my home life was what was best for me. I needed to step away; words of support and encouragement are great, but I couldn't deal with checking them regularly or giving you updates on my status regularly, I just had to direct all energy to my mom. So that's what I did. I'm sorry if you worried, or if you were angry or annoyed. Honestly, I would have been peeved at someone who built me up and then disappeared without a word. So I apologize if you felt that way, but I won't apologize for doing what I felt I had to do to keep my life and emotions in order. I couldn't worry about anything else.
I hope you enjoy what's to come of the rest of the Albus series; it's been so great for me to return to that now that everything's in order in my personal life, and I really think some of what I've written is going to be some of the best of the series. And I hope you enjoy what's to come after the series ends. ;)
And a big thank you to Andy and my friends at home for keeping me company, keeping me sane, and never pressuring me to do anything except to keep going.
I'll be back very soon with the rest of Book 7!
My old bio from when I first made the profile
Current works include a completed ten episodes of Danny Phantom, with which I am beyond happy, and five chapters of a Ben 10/Danny Phantom crossover, which I may or may not continue. (Feedback will have an effect on this.) I also have several one-shots on my series and more will be coming.
Future projects may include a situation in the Avatar: The Last Airbender universe where Aang is actually killed in Ba Sing Se in the end of the second season, and his friends must carry on without him. I've had a fair few ideas for that, so it may happen sometime soon (but it will not interrupt my current project, it would come between books if at all.) I also love the Legend of Korra, as you may or may not have gathered from my profile picture, so there may be some stuff about that soon. Other things that might start appearing when I'm done with the Albus Potter series, or may become one-shots in my free time: Naruto, Fullmetal Alchemist, Percy Jackson, Wheel of Time.
I named my profile after an original character I introduced into the Danny Phantom world, with "Phantom" after it, but my actual name isn't Noah. It's Cody.
Also, I read everything that anyone writes in the comments, at least three times each, and I take it all to heart. I really appreciate the constructive criticism. That's why I'm here--to practice my writing while I have a little fun and share it. So if you have anything you think I could improve on, please speak up! Don't let any advice go unsaid. It can only help.
I've had some questions regarding my beliefs, so here are my personal "higher power" beliefs: I don't care what anyone else believes, as long as those beliefs aren't harmful to others.
When I first wrote this profile, I said that I'd be happy to receive ideas or suggestions on collaborations. I still would, but I probably won't be able to budget much time, considering my Albus project. You can still PM me though and I'd see what I could do!
So... Hope everyone enjoys my stuff!
In Andy's and my Albus Potter universe, we decided to introduce the concepts of two wands (Diwandology). We also decided to further the concepts of wandless magic that JK sometimes hinted at. There were inherent problems in this, though. The first was that if using two wands made you a more powerful duelist, why doesn't everyone learn to use two wands? That could possibly be explained by "it's hard to concentrate on two wands at once," but no matter how difficult it was, you still would see it more often, because there are a lot of people willing to try difficult things and there are a lot of people who SUCCEED at difficult things. The next problem was that if there was someone who mastered two wands, they would appear to be unbeatable. How could we give a weakness to the use of two wands? And the last problem was that wandless magic appears to be possible, but it's extremely difficult and thus not usually taught. Why?
Andy came up with something he had always imagined was in the works of the original series, but never explicitly explained--just accepted that, like physical combat, magical combat could tire you out. This concept was given the name "Kinesis," meaning in a sense "energy."
Kinesis is, in the dictionary definition we constructed, "the potency factor of the manifestation of a spell." What this means is that Kinesis is the name given to the energy jets you see blasting out of people's wands when they use Expelliarmus or Stupefy or Avada Kedavra. It is the energy of the spell made physical. You have in your body a natural "Kinesis level," which is the source of the magical energy--AND the normal energy--in your body. You can use this energy to use magic, just like you can use it to exercise or think or fight off sickness. But if you do too much magic, your Kinesis level decreases. You get tired. Just like you can't run too much without getting tired. And if you ran too much, you would probably also be too tired to use magic a bunch. However, it is a different muscle, so you may still be able to do some magic: like doing a bunch of push-ups may tire you out of being able to do too many push-ups, but you might still be able to do some sit-ups because it uses different muscles. This is also why the seventh years' Wizarding Tests are "Nastily Exhausting." Practicing magic increases your Kinesis level, though, just like you can run a little farther every day.
Wands come in because it is extremely difficult to channel your Kinesis outside of your body without help from some sort of magical instrument. There is a factor called Resistance. Just like going through water will slow you down, you can't send the magic outside of your body so easily. Wands are used because they provide a channel through which we can more easily send our magic; it's like how wearing fins in water eases your movement more. It decreases Resistance, because the wand chooses a wizard and they share an emotional bond. Without that bond, it will be much harder to perform simple spells, which is why Harry's usage of the blackthorn wand was less than successful. Sharing two wands means you share the bond, so it is actually more difficult to perform spells when you are using two wands, but these effects usually do not occur unless you are using them concurrently--holding both and using both, as you might do during a duel. Now, wands are matured--that is, put through a final stage of development which has been proven to decrease Resistance even further--making modern wandlore better. The extra decrease of Resistance has become extraordinarily important, because it is all that was needed to give double wands a more widespread usage. Before this point, it was difficult to use two wands because Resistance actually increases when you own two wands. Now, though, that increase in Resistance has been somewhat diminished because wands are better, and so owning two wands has become more commonplace.
Wandless magic, on the other hand, does not have the benefit of decreased Resistance, and so it takes a lot more energy to manifest the spell, which drains your Kinesis level faster. That is why wandless magic is so difficult. The way to minimize Resistance to its lowest possible effects is to use a single wand, and that is why the most common method of using magic is by only using one wand and people don't just always go around using multiple wands.
Hope that cleared up the ambiguous concept of Kinesis. It took a while to develop this concept fully, and so I doubt it will automatically click for you guys. But if anything else becomes important, or something I've already said becomes crucial, I will restate it in a chapter and try to make it as clear as possible so that you don't miss any important details. Thanks for reading!
Q&A: The Dark Revival
Here is where you will find the questions and answers from the most recent few chapters of The Dark Revival. If it's too much of a spoiler, I won't answer it, of course. If you think I've missed your question, PM me and I'll post it (if I can answer it). If a question is asked and I take down the response before you get a chance to see it, PM me and I'll tell you what the answer was.
-Dark Revival is temporarily on hiatus. Uploads (and Q&A) will definitely resume by the end of 2016.