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Joined 11-18-11, id: 3440353, Profile Updated: 09-22-18
Author has written 3 stories for Dragon Age, and Mass Effect.

Hmmm... stuff about me.

Well, I'm Australian. I'm a girl. I like girls. And games.

I've always played video games, from when I first was introduced to the Gameboy, and playstation. My tastes have since migrated to PC games, because of the stunning improvement in graphics and near-total immersion into these wonderful virtual worlds, and also mostly because one of my friends sold me his copy of Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic for 5 dollars because his family computer wasn't good enough to play it (he was going to give it to me free, but I felt bad. And I had five dollars on me, so...) My favourite games now include the Dragon Age and Mass Effect series (which I only bought because I found out Jennifer Hale was the voice for Female Shepard, and she is such an amazing voice actress. And she's also really easy on the eyes. But anyway. My point is, I am happy I bought Mass Effect, because it is awesome and full of awesomeness). I have only been relatively newly introduced to these incredible games, since I only got a computer that could actually manage to play them the year before last. They need a lot more love and money and RAM and such than the good old KotOR's. But they are so worth it! I've spent a lot of time absorbed in the amazing stories and lost in the wonderful worlds inside these games (sometimes literally... until I learned better map-reading skills, anyway. See, games can be educational, as well as teaching other skills like hand-eye co-ordination, strategic ability and spacial intelligence!), and I'm sure I'll never grow out of it. Haven't so far. One day, I shall teach my children (should I be so lucky to have some, someday...) about Reapers and Asari, Darkspawn and Dalish, dragons and Dragonborn, Jedi and Sith, and shall regale them with the legends of Commander Shepard, of the Dragonborn, of the Warden, the Inquisitor, of Revan and of Hawke. And so we shall be; a family content in our computer game-related nerdiness. Huzzah!

Having said that, I also know how to be outside, and quite enjoy it when I am. Especially places where there are lots of trees to frolic amongst. I like trees. And frolicking.

I love music, my favourites include Tegan and Sara (LOVE THEM!!), and Missy Higgins, and also just bits of everything from rock to some musicals (not all, just the best ones). For instance, I especially like Les Miserables, Phantom of the Opera and Miss Saigon, because they are musical masterpieces. Just beautiful. And Avenue Q is amusing. As are all Team Starkid productions I've seen. Oh, and the Lion King musical! It's awesome! And Wicked. And I hear good things about Hamilton. Love the soundtrack. I hope it comes here.

It was super hard to post my first story chapters, even with the safety buffer of anonymity, for this reason... though I have since experienced a major confidence boost, thanks to this great site and the wonderful people who have taken the time to read what I wrote, and especially those who told me what they thought. You are all goddesses among women and gods among men and just fantastic people in general.

I believe that people are people, and love is love, and between consenting adults, nothing else matters. As far as I'm concerned, it's as simple as that, or it should be, and a person's sexuality shouldn't affect anyone else, nor is there reason for it to be perceived as threatening in any way. It's as natural as breathing. Has been for thousands of years, as evidenced by recorded human history, and probably for a hell of a lot longer than that. Hope all that makes sense. It does to me, anyway.

That's all I have to say, for now, unless I happen to think of something incredibly deep and/or profound, in which case the sun will probably explode or something, since both are equally unlikely. I hope so, anyway, at least as far as the latter is concerned. I like the sun. It makes me hopeful.

Happy reading/writing!

My Stories:

I love reading, and have never written anything creative since high school and then only for assignments (despite the fact that I studied Linguistics and how language works and all that at university, and also English - literary stuff, though, not creative writing sadly. I know my grammar isn't particularly convincing but I'm trying to write how I talk), so I am quite new to this. Please check this section for a list of my published stories, both complete and ongoing, and unpublished ideas I have been working on. Also please check here for updates on progress. I will state here if I don't expect to update a story, e.g. for personal reasons.

A World Without Shadows (WIP)

I have one WIP story, "A World Without Shadows", based on my two favourite Dragon Age characters, (female) Hawke and Merrill (who I'm pretty sure I'm in love with; she is just the most adorable little thing ever created. Seriously, I wish she was real).

Untitled (F!)Mahariel/Leliana story (mostly still idea stages)

I have also been very slowly working on the beginnings of a Dragon Age Origins short story to compliment this one, featuring (F!)Mahariel/Leliana and maybe set during the events of Witch Hunt, with flashbacks. It isn't published yet, or even particularly solid, but I hope that by putting it up here, I will be compelling myself to actually make good and finish it someday. However, "A World Without Shadows" is ultimately my priority and my passion.

Maker Bless Us, Everyone! (complete)

This is just a little Feastday/Christmas themed story for Dragon Age 2, a companion piece to A World Without Shadows, in which Merrill searches for the perfect gift for Hawke to give to her for Feastday. Just a little oneshot for fun, in the Christmas/Feastday spirit of giving.

Peace, and Happiness (complete)

I now also have one much shorter, completed Mass Effect story, entitled "Peace, and Happiness", based on the ending of Mass Effect 3 (and slightly after), which I wrote to provide myself with the emotional closure I felt I didn't really adequately get out of the original endings or the extended cut. Mostly this story deals with reuniting Shepard with Liara, and giving them a happy ending. Sometimes, you really just need a happy ending, and there's nothing wrong with that, damnit! (If you play PC and are familiar with modding, the Mass Effect Happy Endings Mod [and the variations of it] is awesome, by the way)

UPDATE: Leviathan DLC

I adjusted some of the dialogue between Shepard and the Catalyst to reflect changes that come from playing the Leviathan DLC, so if you haven't played it, be warned that there are a few spoilers in Chapter 3 for that particular DLC.

Thanks for reading,


(I know this name is from Gladiator, sort of, and it is spelled incorrectly, but that was on purpose. I just like the name, and I spelled it like this on another site so it would be unique, and now I just like to spell it like this. Aesthetically, I like the letter 'a' more than the letter 'u', anyways. Nothing personal to 'u'. )

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A World of Neither Light or Dark by Wolf123678 reviews
With nothing else to lose, Lieutenant Commander Lara Barrett signs on to a mission that could potentially save the galaxy in the hope of either finding a purpose in life or ending her life on the battlefield, the only home that she knows. The only thing that she didn't expect was to find some sort of connection between herself and the famous Bastila Shan.
Star Wars - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 20,363 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 24 - Updated: 1/30 - Published: 9/14/2017 - [Revan, Bastila S.]
ME3 Dream within a dream by birthofthecool reviews
Basically an attempt at a satisfying ending to ME3, staying in canon as much possible. ME3 Ending spoilers. Commander Rain Shepard has just killed all synthetic live, she is dying or might die. What happens now? Femshep/Liara. Slight Tali/Garrus (they are in it, they are a couple, but the story is centered on FemShep and Liara). Continues my earlier story "Stars may Fade."
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 3 - Words: 30,070 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 35 - Updated: 7/25/2017 - Published: 3/17/2012 - [Shepard (F), Liara T'Soni] [Garrus V., Tali'Zorah]
Oblivious by Dalish Pariah reviews
Love triangles are difficult at the best of times. But when one person is blissfully unaware of everything and another would do almost anything to get his way, it can get a lot worse. MerrillxLyna, one-sided TamlenxLyna. Rated T 'cause I'm overly paranoid. Please review! :D
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 4 - Words: 8,458 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 20 - Updated: 10/3/2014 - Published: 8/16/2012 - Merrill, Mahariel
The Hope for Freedom by Maknesium reviews
Freedom is a right for everyone, but there are still those who suffer through the cruelty of slavery. This is the story of how two slaves fell in love and kept their hope even when all else seemed lost. AU with Fenris and Hawke
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 19 - Words: 93,692 - Reviews: 178 - Favs: 95 - Follows: 134 - Updated: 7/30/2014 - Published: 10/17/2011 - Fenris, Hawke (F)
Vallaslin and Lyrium by shadowsilv3r reviews
Fenris and Merrill have both been captured by slavers bound for Tevinter, and escaping is only the first of many deadly obstacles they will have to overcome, including their own clashing personalities, and perhaps something even worse, an attraction that turns into something more. one of the chapters have been replaced with a plea to the community to help change the site policy.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 26 - Words: 71,272 - Reviews: 143 - Favs: 45 - Follows: 59 - Updated: 11/23/2013 - Published: 12/29/2011 - Merrill, Fenris - Complete
The Tale of Jaiden Tabris by Genjutsu-Dragon reviews
How the Hero of the Fifth Blight rose from nothing to become a legend - and found unexpected companions, and love, on the way. Fem!Tabris/Leliana. Update: A curse is broken.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 26 - Words: 126,034 - Reviews: 173 - Favs: 153 - Follows: 184 - Updated: 7/9/2013 - Published: 9/14/2010 - Leliana, Tabris
Hawke's Quiet Day by The Phoenix King reviews
After defeating the Arishok, all Hawke wanted was a quiet day to share with her lover. Unfortunately for her, Kirkwall waits for nothing, including love. F!Hawke/Merrill, with spoilers for Act II of Dragon Age II present!
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,993 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 5 - Published: 4/28/2013 - Merrill, Hawke (F) - Complete
Memories by SinnX reviews
Set in the Mass Effect universe this is my take on Aethyta & Benezia's relationship, I absolutely love these two as a couple, I have researched all about them,they are an amazing couple. Please R&R No flames plz? M for language.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 3,615 - Reviews: 25 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 12/18/2012 - Published: 4/1/2012 - Aethyta, Benezia
Thorns by MountainGoats reviews
A story that follows Kallian Tabris through the events of Origins. Blinded by her hatred of humans and haunted by the curse in her blood, she struggles to be the hero that the Wardens need her to be. Rated for violence and adult content. F!Tabris/Leliana *COMPLETE*
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 48 - Words: 426,115 - Reviews: 747 - Favs: 535 - Follows: 283 - Updated: 12/18/2012 - Published: 12/15/2010 - Tabris, Leliana - Complete
Beating The Heat by Snafu1000 reviews
It's a scorching summer day in Kirkwall, and Hawke and Isabela decide to show Merrill that three is not a crowd. FemHawke/Isabela/Merrill
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,692 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 86 - Follows: 18 - Published: 11/4/2012 - Isabela, Merrill - Complete
Etro's Mercy by TSLi reviews
As Lightning helps rebuild following the fall of Cocoon, she finds her thoughts distracted by those she lost. FLight. Ignores XIII-2.
Final Fantasy XIII - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,080 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 25 - Updated: 9/21/2012 - Published: 9/14/2012 - Lightning, Fang
Shattered Dreams by Imrryr reviews
They say that the Taint destroys everything it touches. FemMahariel/Merrill.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 18,104 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 33 - Updated: 9/18/2012 - Published: 6/19/2012 - Mahariel, Merrill
Chapter 1: Broken Bonds by diply reviews
Hawke is disappointed in the mages of Kirkwall, but fights for their freedom. Fenris cannot bring himself to hate this apostate who leads him to freedom and shows him not all mages are alike. Eventual Fenris F!Hawke romance. Rated M sex, angst, tragedy.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 25 - Words: 137,283 - Reviews: 114 - Favs: 138 - Follows: 155 - Updated: 7/5/2012 - Published: 4/25/2011 - Hawke (F), Fenris
An Anticipated Arrival by Dr. Jekyl reviews
Shepard has panicked exactly twice in her life. On the first occasion, she'd been spaced and starved of oxygen, the Normandy breaking up around her. On the second, her first daughter was born.
Mass Effect - Rated: K+ - English - Humor - Chapters: 3 - Words: 9,739 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 133 - Follows: 53 - Published: 5/14/2012 - Liara T'Soni, Shepard (F)
The First's Sister by lycanthrope232 reviews
Years after quelling the blight, the hero of Ferelden finds herself at the docks of the City of Chains, with her partner Leliana. Femslash Leliana/FWarden - Merrill/FHawke
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 26,916 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 64 - Follows: 81 - Updated: 1/27/2012 - Published: 11/2/2011 - [Hawke (F), Merrill] [Leliana, Mahariel]
Light from Shadows by Jayden Scott reviews
Love is complicated. It often does not fit into the neat boxes or within the tidy boundaries we imagine. Will Isabela ever return to Kirkwall? F!Hawke/Merrill/Isabela.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 14 - Words: 59,215 - Reviews: 144 - Favs: 120 - Follows: 116 - Updated: 1/18/2012 - Published: 6/14/2011 - Isabela, Merrill
I love Hawke! by birthofthecool reviews
Hawke and Merrill after the end of DA II. Merrill has been captured by the templars and is put to torture. Will Hawke be able to rescue her before she is killed or turned into a tranquil. FemHawke/ Merrill
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 4 - Words: 12,245 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 1/8/2012 - Published: 12/19/2011 - Hawke (F), Merrill - Complete
Stars may fade by birthofthecool reviews
Shepard is back from the dead and wants nothing more than to be reunited with Liara. How will she deal with Liara's cold reaction? In short my take on Liara in ME II prior to LOTSB and my FemShep's way of dealing with it. Paragon FemShep/ Liara
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 23,308 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 1/5/2012 - Published: 12/19/2011 - Shepard (F), Liara T'Soni - Complete
Forgive and Forget by Fyrefly12 reviews
This is my fanfiction about my female Hawke, Nasaraelia and her rivalmance with Fenris. It follows the story and quests of Dragon Age 2, but I add my own twists and turns. It starts in Act 2 outside the Hanged Man. Enjoy! *Mature Content
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 16 - Words: 85,449 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 9/21/2011 - Published: 6/27/2011 - [Fenris, Hawke (F)] - Complete
The Last Dance: The Lost Scrolls by KalenCaelli reviews
A collection of one-shots from Leliana's private collection. A companion piece to The Last Dance, but designed to stand alone on its own merits. Updated: Our Warden and her bard say their final goodbyes.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 5 - Words: 25,274 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 47 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 9/9/2011 - Published: 5/22/2011 - Tabris, Leliana - Complete
Mahariel by snippetcentric reviews
A companion to 'Sapphire'. How the Dalish Warden simply became known as Mahariel. f!Mahariel x Merrill
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 5 - Words: 14,108 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 18 - Updated: 9/5/2011 - Published: 7/18/2011 - Mahariel, Merrill - Complete
The Last Dance by KalenCaelli reviews
A story of Leliana's final days in Denerim, and of how letting go is sometimes the hardest thing to do. Finished.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 18 - Words: 57,353 - Reviews: 75 - Favs: 108 - Follows: 47 - Updated: 6/8/2011 - Published: 7/5/2010 - Tabris, Leliana - Complete
Spark by astalavista reviews
A cold-hearted apostate Hawke seeks to defend herself the best way possible, learning blood magic from the Dalish pariah. Eventually F!Hawke x Merrill
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 23,788 - Reviews: 38 - Favs: 48 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 5/14/2011 - Published: 5/6/2011 - Hawke (M), Merrill - Complete
Safe with me by astalavista reviews
A story of unrequited love and misunderstandings, spanning all three acts. F!Hawke & Merrill
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 5 - Words: 12,386 - Reviews: 29 - Favs: 56 - Follows: 17 - Updated: 5/2/2011 - Published: 4/28/2011 - Hawke (M), Merrill - Complete
Six Things by astalavista reviews
A bonus chapter to my previous story Fragments. Set between chapters 5 and 6. Merrill wants to learn how to sail the sea of Hawke, and Isabela is only happy to teach.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,465 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 2 - Published: 4/21/2011 - Merrill, Isabela - Complete
Fragments by astalavista reviews
Feeling betrayed by Lady Hawke, Merrill seeks to remove her from her life. Or does she? A Lady Hawke/Merrill rivalry romance.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 10,595 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 4/19/2011 - Published: 4/14/2011 - Merrill, Hawke (M) - Complete
Forbidden Fruit by Genjutsu-Dragon reviews
F!Marariel flusters Leliana with a rather personal question - and suggestively eating strawberries. Not smut exactly, I'm afraid : V. short one-shot.
Dragon Age - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,832 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 4 - Published: 9/9/2010 - Mahariel, Leliana - Complete
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A World Without Shadows reviews
Lowtown is a dangerous place at night. When Merrill is attackeded by thugs, Hawke comes to save her, but Merrill is shaken by her ordeal. Can Hawke make everything better with a smile, and save the day twice in one night? What will come of it? A story of love spanning three acts. Hurt/comfort, and romance. Mage F!Hawke/Merrill #TRIGGER WARNING - Violence, Attempted sexual assault
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 30 - Words: 434,596 - Reviews: 354 - Favs: 478 - Follows: 488 - Updated: 9/23 - Published: 12/5/2011 - Merrill, Hawke (F)
Maker Bless Us, Everyone! reviews
Winter falls on Kirkwall as Feastday approaches, Thedas's most anticipated holiday, and Merrill realises she has to get Hawke a present. But what could she possibly get that would be special enough? At a loss, Merrill visits each of the companions in turn for advice on her search for the perfect gift. Act 2, Merrill/F!Hawke, Oneshot. A companion piece to A World Without Shadows.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 22,215 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 60 - Follows: 16 - Published: 12/27/2012 - Merrill, Hawke (F) - Complete
Peace, and Happiness reviews
To save the galaxy, Shepard chose to destroy the Reapers... but the Citadel was all but destroyed. Everyone believes she must be dead. Everyone but Liara. Shepard promised she was always coming back... A Shepard F!/Liara fanfiction story, set at the end of ME3, and a little bit after. My own attempt at closure, and a bright, happy ending. Rated M to be safe; violence/adult themes
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 4 - Words: 31,577 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 62 - Follows: 12 - Published: 8/15/2012 - Shepard (F), Liara T'Soni - Complete