Author has written 16 stories for Vampire Hunter D, and Naruto.
Independent translator in her late thirties determined on keeping her faith in the power of narrative. A degree in Psychology and a partly finished Master’s in Literature could not deter my love for everything anime/manga. For many years I’ve been on here exclusively for the fun.
Although the site’s been deader than a cemetery for the longest time, my livejournal account still holds a number of old drabbles (mainly GaaSaku): celticoak . livejournal . com
You can also find me on Tumblr: keltoi-oak . tumblr . com
Bet you had given up on this. Well, I must confess a part of me had given up too. It’s been years.
Not lost years, though. You see, there was this gaping rabbit hole leading down to the depths of who-knows-where at my feet and life, being what it is, gave me an emphatic push. I did my best to cling to the edge but no… it was to no avail. The kicking and screaming on the way down did no good either. It took me a long time to realize in was in my best interest not to resist. Life would just keep on coming; it is in its nature to continue throwing things my way non-stop. So I might as well just flow with the fall. There was degenerative illness, mental breakdowns, financial straits, grave diagnoses, family disintegration, and extended hospital runs coupled with complete emotional and physical burn out. It wasn’t pleasant, to say the least, and there wasn’t much to do about it either. It was what it was. Did my best with what I had, which is all any of us can do at any given moment. Yet there was also resilience, team work, laughter, strengthened bonds when there seemed to be nothing left, travel, and healing. Just a tangle of events where paradoxes tend to stand side by side. In other words, I lived through what countless people in the world experience every single day. This particular rabbit hole is just my own version of human experience, that’s all. So now I fall willingly; try to turn it into something I enjoy and try my best to translate it into something creative. So no, it was not lost time.
There’s this card in the Tarot tradition called ‘The Tower’ that maybe you’ve heard about. It symbolizes the collapse of everything; a kind of apocalyptic ending where everything you thought you knew comes crashing down. It symbolizes great and sudden change that turns your life upside down. With such a downfall, you will never see things the same way ever again. It’s like the most common story trope there is. Well, there’s something to be said about standing among the Tower’s rubble; it gives you only one choice: look the loss in the eye and move on. There’s nothing for it but to take stock and fare forward. So what is the one thing that remains as the roller coaster ride continues? I realized the answer was easy: the words. If the words endure all through the mayhem, then I really ought to make something out of them.
So here you find me, determined to finish stories and experiment with writing some more. Manga and anime are something I keep enjoying no matter how much time passes, so I might as well accept they are here to stay.
Now, there’s no going around the fact that I fell out of love with Naruto ages ago. I couldn’t stomach the manga anymore long before I stopped writing fanfics. So yes, I will be finishing my fics but will not be returning to the fandom with anything new. The next obvious option on my list had been Bleach but then it also spiralled into something out of a nightmare and it lost me completely. So no hope of writing there either. Besides, these two feel like they belong to a past era; it’s best to look for new vistas.
Over time I tried to get into other manga with the same fervour but my faith in the shounen genre seemed to have trickled out… But then Boku no Hero Academia happened and All Might entered my life. While being aware of the flaws and clichés in it, I was still swept up and pulled into the series. It was something that had not happened in a very long time. So it might just prove to be the fuel for my fanfic muse. We shall see!
For now, I went back and revised the whole of Ambages. I could not allow it to remain as it was: my word use was appalling, not to mention my dreadful sentence structure! I swear it kept me up at night. So I did some serious editing but obviously did not change anything major. I hope it makes for better reading, although it’s not perfect (never will be!). I’m also publishing a new chapter, one that was a long time coming. The next two have already been written and I am currently working on the last one. Finally it will be done!
I just really want to thank everyone who still reads my stories; I am always amazed at how many of you still visit. I’m very very grateful for the support as well as the patience.
Also, a quick question: what are people using for fanfic blogs these days? Livejournal is, naturally, a fossilized dinosaur. Tumblr, Instagram? Although these are a lot more image oriented. I am so out of the loop it’s freaking ridiculous and a tad embarrassing. That’s what I get for being away for so many years. PM me with any suggestions!
Quote of the moment:
“No matter how many choices life might bring her way, it was novelist or nothing. Her resolve was a regular Rock of Gibraltar. Nothing could come between her and her faith in literature.” Sputnik Sweetheart, Haruki Murakami.