Most of the stories I write are OC centric but a few are AU. Many of the stories I post are also pretty old, I wrote most of them in middle school, early high school. I am currently in college. I think the only one right now that is recent and posted is my Naruto story Bonds Forged Early On, but that's it. I've written way more stories than just the ones posted, but I usually don't think they're good enough to go up or I'm too lazy to transfer the story from paper to word document...

(2/12/14)

I would like to say, first, that I sincerely apologize to anyone that has favorited or followed me and/or any of my stories. NONE OF THEM ARE ABANDONED. This is not a letter to apologize for leaving fanfiction or anything like that, it's just an apology for the kind of writer I am and I am apologizing by explaining if anyone has the patience to read beyond the sentence in caps.

I, like many authors or artists I know, most of the time get hit with the inspiration to write a fanfiction or draw something specific(mostly writing.) Sometimes I write the idea down to see if I still feel like writing it later, other times I decide it's not worth writing down or I think I'll remember it and end up forgetting the next day(I mourn for them), and yet other times I begin writing them immediately and end up writing anywhere between one chapter to twelve in the course of one day to one week.

The last example is what happens most often with me. I was rather amazed at myself for having continued my more popular Naruto fanfiction, Bonds Forged Early on, for so long and in an almost scheduled fashion, but alas my motivation and inspiration for that one just like many others before it sputtered out. Again, I'm not saying that I'm abandoning any of my stories, I love all of them dearly as they are my babies(don't laugh I'm serious) and I still intend to continue them.

Ever since I stopped updating my most popular story, however, I have been debating with myself whether or not to post the pile of other stories I had started typing like mad, or whether to remain inactive if I wasn't going to at least update the ones I already have published that are incomplete. Only recently have I finally decided and come to a decision that I plan to carry out today.

I decided that it wouldn't entirely matter were I to post the fanfiction I'm struggling to keep alive in my fanfiction documents as whether they're posted or not, I will update when the inspiration strikes me or let writing sit in the back-burner as I focus on other things in my life. Not only would I be at ease knowing that my unpublished writing won't disappear overnight just because I haven't edit it in a while, it would also just take the stress of the decision off me entirely as I've been agonizing over this same decision since October of last year so I've just decided to publish most of the things in my doc manager. It would certainly help as I want to reduce it from the 44 I have on there to at least twenty or less.

Just a warning now, most if not all of the fanfiction I write really IS OC-centric. Bonds Forged Early on is, I believe, one of the few if the only exception to my OC fanfiction writing. I doubt any of the stories I write will be anywhere near as popular as the aforementioned one, and I understand that. I'm not really in it for the popularity. I just enjoy writing, these stories are really for myself and I'm happy if other people like it too. In fact, I believe one of the main reasons I could keep going with my only non-OC story for so long was because of all the nice reviews I got, they made me so happy and I still smile when I look at them. Part of the reason I even post my stories is because my very good friend wanted me to as she is a very big fan of most of them and she has personally read at least half of what I have yet to publish and has texted me at midnight or three in the morning to tell me how amazing each chapter I sent was. While her enthusiasm creeps me out, it also makes me pretty happy that my story could make her so happy, even if I don't really think my stories are that great, I'm also not going to say that they're the worst I've read or really that bad, but it really depends on who reads it. I have to admit that most of my stories tend to cater to what she would like to read, it would certainly explain why she loves them so much, but it doesn't bother me. I just really like writing.

I would once more like to apologize for my abrupt stop in updates and for not having the decency to tell you I would not update for a while, I don't like to post a 'new chapter' only for it to end up being a short author's note saying that they won't write soon. I personally hate when that happens and prefer waiting months and seeing a real new chapter in my email, so I will do the same. I would also like to apologize for the repetitiveness of the scenario of my OC's. Most, if not all, of them tend to be people from this world somehow taken to a world of my choosing, one which they tend to know a lot about, and I've been told that some of them have Mary Sue characteristics. I don't really know what that means as I don't really try to learn fanfiction lingo beyond RP, OC, and lemons, but I don't really care as I didn't write it for them and if they don't like it then they don't have to read it so it's not really my problem.

Anyways, I went off topic. I would like to finish of by apologizing for apologizing so much(I do that a lot) and I'm only doing so because I really do like my...fans(it's weird to think I have any amount of them) and I feel an obligation to them. I would also like to thank anyone that had the patience to read my long apology and explanation and suffered through my ramblings. Hopefully you're not pissed at me for my lack of updates, but if you are I get it. I'm going to start publishing only the first chapter of the stories I have on my account today and just observe the receptions they get if any before posting more chapters if the stories have any, some only have one while others have nine, but none are over ten chapters I believe. I'm not really concerned whether or not people find and read this, this was more for my own peace of mind anyways, but I felt the need to in case someone did for some reason check my profile for updates or something similar.

On a partially separate note, I have a few ideas of fanfictions, some of them crossovers, that I know I will not be writing out as I know the limitations of my patience and these stories exceed them. Though I doubt it, I would be happy to offer them to anyone interested, all you need to do is pm me. I will be expecting empty inboxes when I log onto fanfiction.net. Thank you for putting up with my horribly long message.(I honestly would not have the patience to read this myself if I was the 'reader' in this case.)

Twilight: Maddy Remix * links-:

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Chapter 10 notes:

(*.*): Full Shakespeare Sonnet 75.

So are you to my thoughts as food to life,
Or as sweet-season'd showers are to the ground;
And for the peace of you I hold such strife
As 'twixt a miser and his wealth is found;
Now proud as an enjoyer, and anon
Doubting the filching age will steal his treasure;
Now counting best to be with you alone,
Then better'd that the world may see my pleasure:
Sometimes all full with feasting on your sight,
And by and by clean starved for a look;
Possessing or pursuing no delight,
Save what is had or must from you be took.
Thus do I pine and surfeit day by day,
Or gluttoning on all, or all away.

(*.*.*): Full Shakespeare Sonnet 115.

Those lines that I before have writ do lie,
Even those that said I could not love you dearer:
Yet then my judgement knew no reason why
My most full flame should afterwards burn clearer.
But reckoning Time, whose million'd accidents
Creep in 'twixt vows, and change decrees of kings,
Tan sacred beauty, blunt the sharp'st intents,
Divert strong minds to the course of alt'ring things;
Alas, why, fearing of Time's tyranny,
Might I not then say, 'Now I love you best,'
When I was certain o'er incertainty,
Crowning the present, doubting of the rest?
Love is a babe; then might I not say so,
To give full growth to that which still doth grow.

Chapter 14 poem:

Love

-George Herbert (1593-1633)

Love bade me welcome: yet my soul drew back,

Guilty of dust and sin.

But quick-eyed Love, observing me grow slack

From my first entrance in,

Drew nearer to me, sweetly questioning,

If I lacked anything.

A guest, I answered, worthy to be here:

Love said, You shall be he.

I the unkind, ungrateful? Ah my dear,

I cannot look on thee.

Love took my hand, and smiling did reply,

Who made the eyes but I?

Truth, Lord, but I have marred them: let my shame

Go where it doth deserve.

And know you not, says Love, who bore the blame?

My dear, then I will serve.

You must sit down, says Love, and taste my meat:

So I did sit and eat.