Author has written 73 stories for Gundam Wing/AC, Disney, Tad Williams, Harry Potter, Gatekeepers 21, Tears of Artamon, Princess Mononoke, X-Men: The Movie, StarTrek: The Next Generation, Silmarillion, Lord of the Rings, Star Wars, Touched by an Angel, Adventure Quest, StarTrek: Voyager, DragonFable, Tinkerbell, Kingdom Hearts, Watershed Trilogy, Dragonlance, Guardians of Ga'Hoole, Queen's Thief series, Inkheart, Bible, Hook, Twilight Zone, Jurassic Park, Kushiel's Legacy series, Toy Story, Misc. Movies, Hunger Games, Dr. Seuss series, Big Bang Theory, and Legend of Zelda.
My profile has just gotten a huge makeover.
If ever fanfiction was a power that can shape the world, let it do so now.
For the past year and a half, I have been dealing with massive personal issues. I have learned that I have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder from violent, and sadly legal, cruelty that was inflicted on me as a small child. Needless to say, this unseen damage has been the driving force behind a lot of my writing, especially my tendency to keep writing stories about people being horrifically tortured.
It has also been why I've shut down as a writer for all this recent time. I have simply been too urgently focused on healing myself to find any of the time and energy I would need for fanfiction. Also, the unanswered questions in myself made it impossible for me to tell what I believed about the characters and worlds of my stories, and thus what I wanted to write for them.
Now I have answered my questions. I know that all the violence that was done to me was wrong, no matter how much of the world may still approve of it. And so, I know that similar acts by and against the characters in my stories are also wrong. My writing, as it resumes, will quickly start to reflect that knowledge.
It may still be some time before I write much. My life is still caught up in caring for myself, and I am now also a college student. Calculus is very time consuming, but essential for a fangirl now committed to becoming a research physicist.
For now, I invite you to visit my new website:
There, you will find a bit of my writing and artwork about the violent torture I survived as a child: torture in the name of medical treatment, where I was forcibly strapped down to a board for a procedure I didn't want done to my body.
This experience is why, in my novel length in-progress Hunger Games fanfic Into My Work, I knew without knowing why that Cinna the heroic rebel stylist would be strapped down motionless on his back for his torture and interrogation by President Snow's men. Somehow I knew that was how a political rebel would be treated in Panem. I felt it in my bones without question.
Now I know why: it is because, in my life, that is how a three-year-old was treated for putting a leaf in my nose while playing outside.
Cinna's story, which so many people have been loyally waiting for throughout its extended hiatus, will certainly be completed. So will at least most of my other in-progress stories. Only I don't know when. Please keep being patient... and thank you, my dear loyal readers and friends.
I'm also starting work on a novel-length Legend of Zelda story called 'Lion.' Having learned from my current disappearing act, I will not post 'Lion' until it is completed. Then I'll post one chapter every three days (I'm a Clock Town soldier!) until it is all updated. Expect to see that story in 2016 or 2017.
'Lion' is also, through no fault of my own except possibly in the kinds of canon stories that draw my attention to focus on, a story of someone who is imprisoned and -- as I see it, given the painful, degrading conditions of his captivity -- physically and emotionally tortured. Sigh. But at least now I know why I keep feeling drawn to write and explore these stories where I find, or sense, such flagrant human rights violations going on.
I mean, honestly. But spoilers. If you haven't yet seen the book Hyrule Historia, do yourself a gorgeous if sometimes painful favor and go find a copy at your library or bookstore. There's a manga at the end (read it right to left, from just inside the back cover, FIRST, or you'll shock yourself with a sample page full of SPOILERS like I did) that you really need to read if you want to understand 'Lion' when I post it.
Also, you need to read it because Link is incredibly beautiful in it, and so is his world. I've never seen him with such a fierce, sharp, lovely young wild face, or his beloved land so heartbreakingly beautiful.
Go read about Link. Read about him in Hyrule Historia, in his breathtaking manga 'The Legend Is Born!!' And read about him too in a short story and set of poems I've just posted, 'Lifter' and 'Destinies Intertwined.'
Subscribe to my account, if you aren't already, for updates when I post 'Lion,' when I continue 'Into My Work,' and for all of my other stories. I've already posted more than 300,000 words, and I aim to pass a million within my lifetime on Fanfiction.Net alone.
Most of all, go to my website at www.babyandramona.com. Open your heart to the unheeded agony that so many children go through because unknowing adults think it's "best for them..." the kind of agony that can lead to writing tens of thousands of words, without even knowing why, about a fangirl's beautiful, beloved characters terrified and restrained in heartbreaking pain.
If ever fanfiction was a power that can shape the world, let it do so now.
You are honoring me with your attention to my fictional words; turn that attention to the human reality behind my fanfics, and help me stop more kids from being tied down screaming as if they'd defied President Snow.
And yes, my real name is Ramona.
Updates and clarifications are scattered throughout my profile in bold text. Much that was outdated has also been removed. Much else is unchanged. Happy hunting!
FANFICTION- UNITED NATIONS!!
I am proud and delighted to say I have actually made a friend through this! The wonderful and talented iAndromeda, hailing all the way from India(!), saw this on my profile and messaged me. We've exchanged several PMs since. Take that, world! :-D
"That's the wonderful thing about crayons. They can take you to more places than a starship." -Guinan, Star Trek: The Next Generation (Episode: Rascals)
A cool quote I once heard on the kids' TV cartoon Martha Speaks: "You can't let a little thing like total public humiliation stop you from having a good time."
FF.N has eaten ALL my scene breaks! I think it has eaten EVERYONE'S scene breaks (in it's infinite wisdom). So I will be RE-UPLOADING all my fics ASAP to repair that - I've done some already, more still to go. Until then, please don't think I lack the ability to create separate scenes in my writing! O_O
Please note: despite the years that have elapsed since I first promised to restore my scene breaks, I still intend to do so eventually.
Proud supporter of Mary Sue, Gary Stu, and OC!
This tribute to Professor Tolkien's Orcs will stand unchanged on my profile. I've loved them for years. I will love them forever.
The adorable, smiling musician in my author bio picture is an Orc from the Warner Brothers / Rankin-Bass cartoon version of The Return of the King. He doesn't have any lines in the movie and appears only in the one brief clip I took this screenshot from. I have decided that he is Tough-hide, one of my original Orc characters from my fanfic "Sundered Kindreds." Out of all the possible pictures I could have chosen (or drawn) to represent me as my author bio picture, this is the one that makes me feel the most proud and delighted.
I love Orcs. (Professor J.R.R. Tolkien's Lord of the Rings, The Hobbit, and The Silmarillion). They are -- to me -- beautiful, tragic, and very strong people. I go with the interpretation that was suggested by The Silmarillion, that they were once Elves who were captured, tortured, and transformed against their wills by Morgoth, the old master of Sauron.
I would not be able to keep my own goodness and freedom in the face of such torment and fear. I would try, I hope -- probably less valiantly than those ancient Elves. And I would fail. So I can never blame any of the Orcs for anything that their evil -- which they did not choose -- makes them do.
The Orcs still sing, as Elves do. They still heal (remember Merry Brandybuck's nasty head wound that they treated while he was their prisoner?), as Elves do. They may not do these things the same way or for the same reasons as Elves, but they do them. To me, this is a sign of their incredible strength.
The Orcs are featured especially in my fanfics "Sundered Kindreds" (LoTR) and "The Last Note" (Silmarillion).
"Sundered Kindreds" is a romance between the Elf-lord Glorfindel and an Orc-maiden, happening 20 years after LoTR. It is (or was when I first wrote this into my profile years ago) by far my most popular story, counting by how often people read and review it and by the number of story alerts (over twice as many alerts as on any of my other fics). It is also the ONLY one of my fanfics that I have ever had people review to tell me I should take it down because they disagree so strongly with the ideas (love, equality, freedom of an individual soul to choose between good and evil, open-mindedness, etc) that I am presenting in it. Go figure.
You know, I've been looking at the reviews on some other people's sympathetic Orc fics and I discovered a pair of interesting facts:
1. They're not romances, just adventures, friendship, redemption, and/or tragedy fics.
2. NONE of the ones I've looked at so far has gotten even a single anti-Orc flame.
I think people believe they aren't prejudiced but the concept of romance touches something really deep that shows the hesitation they actually feel about considering someone to be "good" and/or truly "equal".
You know what else? I've seen some romance fics about Sauron himself, and also a few about Morgoth a.k.a Melkor, his old master from the Silmarillion... and THEY do not have flames on them either! Weird, huh? No one says "Sauron is BAD! He can't fall in love! Good characters are too good for the likes of him!" But just let me suggest that one of his slaves could be freed and then deserve to fall in love with a good guy, and it's "YUCK YUCK! Take down this fic!"
Oh well. -grin- I actually like seeing the flames. It proves to me that I presented my ideas to someone who didn't already agree with me.
Amazing: much of the information here is still true! Please note my updates, though.
And now, since you all seem to thrive on such things, the long-awaited "About Me" section!
Age: 30 (yes, thirty! Just three more years before I Come of Age, hobbit-style! And I hope to be this same silly yet deeply-caring fangirl when I reach eleventy-one!)
Update: I'm 35 now! And so far I show no signs of "settling down."
Appearance: Unimportant -- but check my profile picture around Halloween for a photograph of me as my dear Link, in real chainmail! I am making it out of steel keyrings right now. Michael's is already scandalized by my requests to make a very large bulk purchase! "We'll have to... request enough inventory... to accommodate your purchase... We sold a very small quantity last year..." LOL. The poor dears. They're being very, very nice about it, though. I will need to give them more of my crafting business. :)
Location: Just check your Marauders' Map. When you see the name "Lysana" in sparkly blue letters, you'll know that's where I am.
Quote that defines who I am: "Good or bad, you're still a person... or whatever you are." -Kristy, Care Bears Movie II, to Dark Heart
I didn't know how to express what this quote means to me when I wrote it, and I'm still not sure now. But it was central in teaching me to be the writer, fangirl, and human being I am. I can't honestly guess how much of my sympathy and love for villains, the unappreciated, Sues, and the like was inspired by Kristy's words and her beautiful actions. That goes for the real world as well as my life in reading, video gaming, anime and film watching, and fanfiction.
PMs and emails: I love getting them and sending them! Write to me at any time, for any reason or no reason at all. :)
For a lot more about me as a person, a writer, and an editor, see my Beta-reader profile. It has lots of info about what kinds of fanfics I do and don't like, some of the settings I'm a fan of, a few of my ideas on writing and editing, and so forth.
Be warned. I haven't updated my beta profile in years. Who even knows what it says? Do not assume anything on it is current... except that I don't like wanton cruelty by fan-writers toward their characters. That is a permanent given.
Also be warned: My beta profile, like one or two of my fanfic summaries, still contains actual homophobia! Ugh. This in spite of the fact that I've realized this year I am bisexual. I probably better change all my "No slash!" comments. >.
(Although... I still don't approve of romance between Pan and Rufio. Not when my fic is titled 'Rufio's Dad.' I mean, ew, regardless of gender.)
But why should I assume people are thinking that anyway?
And if I can make just one life better
-Song lyrics from Kiki's Delivery Service by Hayao Miyazaki-sama. Watch the movie! :)
I am SO glad I found FanFiction dot Net!
Still beautiful. Still breathtaking. I still love Kiki's Delivery Service. And FF.N is still my new island town. :) I love you all! Kawaii!
I, Lysana, do solemnly swear to review all the fics I enjoy, regardless of the number of reviews, its age, or anything else. I have joined the Review Revolution. Post this same thing in your profile and spread the love!
Oh, and if you've read this far:
I'm also an atheist now. Any personal expressions of religious faith you find in my stories, summaries, author's notes, etc. should be taken as part of my personal history, not as my current beliefs.
In the case of "Touched by an Angel" fanfiction especially, religion is also clearly a part of the story.
Signing off now! If you want to talk to me, send me a PM. I answer them!
Thanks for reading! Long live ALL my beloved fictional worlds! :)
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