Author has written 9 stories for Avatar: Last Airbender, Legend of Korra, Fullmetal Alchemist, Doctor Who, and Supernatural.
"Hello, Lett here. But I guess, um, you probably already know me... sort of. Uh... so, the thing is, I don't have a lot of experience in writing, and I consider myself to pretty much suck at it. Well, you've seen me... you know, when I was writing The Other Waterbender From The Southern Tribe? Uh, yeah... I guess I should apologize for leaving it on hiatus. But anyway, I'm writing some stuff now. I mean, I thought I was bad before, but now I realize I really sucked (and still do). Ugh, but anyway... I think it's time I upload my profile and publish some more crap.
Well, what's your answer?!"
So, yeah, I'm just your twenty-something average college student who likes to write as a hobby in her free time. The thing is, I'm from Argentina, so English is not my native language. I try to improve and get better all the time, but I still make tons of mistakes, so if you see something wrongly spelled, or bad grammar please do write to me. It helps a lot.
My most beloved fandoms are Supernatural, Avatar: The Last Airbender, The Legend of Korra, Doctor Who and Fullmetal Alchemist. I have also watched (and loved) Sherlock, Sense8, Soul Eater, Ouran High School Host Club, Shingeki no Kyojin (or Attack on Titan) and Death Note.
I am not much of a regular writer. I get writer's block more often than not, and I get very frustrated when I can't get a scene right. That leads to my stories being left on a sort of hiatus for a while. I have tried writing anything to get past the block but it only ends up being more frustrating. Besides, since I am in college and also working, I can't devote all the time to writing that I would like. But it is not all dark my friends: It's only that there are so many ideas and stories that I want to tell that sometimes I feel an entire life is not enough to do all I want to do. Anyhow, if there's one thing I am is persistent, so my stories will not be abandoned, even if I don't update for a loooong time.
I also have a Tumblr, where I procrastinate a lot. You can come talk to me there, too. It is deanandsam-sexchester.tumblr.com
I hate myself. I hate myself and my lack of time and I hate my fics and I hate the world. I don't have much else to say. I'm so done trying to save the remains of my fics here. I'm done trying SO HARD to like them again. Especially TOAST. Because I've changed so much since I started writing it, I don't even like it anymore. I mean, I want to like it so bad but every time I read it I flinch. That's the honest truth. I'm done trying to save it. (for now though, never say never). I don't know if I should delete the whole thing, post what little chapters more I still have lying around, or wait some more time to see if I EVER find the time to try and fix it again. I think I should spend whatever writing time I find trying to write new and exciting stories where I can tell all the stuff that pops into my head. But creating a whole new story takes an enormous effort I honestly don't have the strength to face right now. I just don't fucking know anymore. I love writing, but it's so hard, and I can't, I just can't assign it any time now. I've a fuckload of stuff to do before I graduate and my house is a complete mess because we're moving (long story) and next year I have to find a job and everything is stressing enough that I have absolutely no time nor space to sit down in the quiet and put into words all the stuff in my head. I can almost say I don't even have a bedroom anymore because it's crammed with a lot of stuff we have nowhere else to put and God I can barely fight for some time and space to even study for finals. I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. I should have finished this whole thing when I could. Now only god knows when I'll get to the end of it.
All I have to offer is this: if someone has time and space and writes well, I can pass off the story to them. I know what I want to tell (in detail), I just don't know HOW to express it. So that's that. I'm open to PMs. I'm so terribly sorry.
Late February 2016:
I started working and my whole life is a mess right now, between work and college I'm barely sleeping, my social life is dead and I've had more nervous breakdowns in a fortnight than I've had in years, so the fic is probably not going to move forward anytime soon. I didn't just come here to give you bad news though, (i might as well have shut the fuck up and leave room for hope) but to answer a question from an anonymous guest in my fic TOAST. They asked why Zuko takes Kira with him on the first place when he arrives at the South Pole in chapter 1, if what Zuko's really interested in is Aang.
To be honest, it sounds really pretentious when you think about it, like who the fuck does this chick think she is anyway. It's probably a flaw in my writing (and let me tell you I started this fic four years ago when I was a completely different person, had never written anything before, and it's been hard to adapt the character and the fic to something I may remotely enjoy now), but nevertheless I can guess a few reasons why Zuko may want to take Kira with him. Actually it's not that he wants to take her with him, what he wants is Aang, but he's pissed because both Kira and Sokka confront him, knock him down and make him look like an idiot, and Zuko is a resentful little prick at this stage. Besides, he knows about the Southern Raiders and their mission to extinguish all bending life in the South Pole, and that they were supposed to have succeeded. Kya indeed died to protect Katara's life and her secret. So finding that there was actually one bender left is kind of a bonus to Zuko. He doesn't give a shit about the Water Tribe or its members, he wants the Avatar, but since waterbenders were supposed to be extinct in that place and he finds one who escaped and said person humiliates him by flushing fucking water into his face, well, then he might as well use his soldiers to teach these stupid peasants a lesson. Hence Kira gets taken away, as a bonus to his capture of the Avatar. Again, it sounds pretentious and it probably is, just a ploy to get my fic going, but still I wanted to try my hand at a decently reasonable answer.
Jesus fucking Christ, I can't believe it's been five years since I stopped updating TOAST and I still have not managed to make a decent thing out of it. Every now and then I go back to it and kind of side-eye it and I'm like, "meh, maybe I could rework it here and there and it would sort of look slightly decent?" And then I try, I start writing, but down the middle of it there's always something in life that draws me away and everything is left half-assed. But I have this file, called "TOAST Consistency Issues", where I've been writing about the structure of the story and doing analysis of my character (OMG am I not the most pretentious asshole on the face of this Earth?) and trying to figure out smarter ways to get the story where I originally wanted it to go. Sadly, most of this is about the first Book, but I swear, I've written so much that today I had to put hyperlinks to guide myself as to where I'd written about Ch 6, where about Ch 2 and so. The file is now 23 pages long, but not one word is what actually ends on the chapters, but mostly stuff about where Kira is mentally on every chapter and why she does what she does. Sample:
"The self sacrifice all throughout this book is also because it is the only way she can justify her reactions, her thoughts and her decisions to herself. Obviously she wants to survive, and that is why she humiliates herself to be friends with Iroh and the crew, but if she tells herself it is “to help the Avatar”, it’s more believable. She can then believe herself brave and not a coward. She can transform survivalism into sacrifice. Self-interest (to be more comfortable) for selflessness. Also it is part of the theme of “change”"
Yeah. Most pretentious asshole ever.
More even when you consider I am going to include bits like those at the end of the chapters to show that I am attempting to put layers in my writing and that the "linearity" (is that even a word?) of the story is not all I'm writing. Jesus I hate myself. But by the spirits, all the shit in my brain about this story is going to get fucking poured in here. It will. Someday.
Anyway. On a personal update, I graduated from law school a year ago and as from last week I am barred and can practice law. I am now sending resumes to law firms to get a job in this goddamn industry. Still studying translation though. I still suck at it, as you can plainly see.
Someday you're going to find out about the ending of TOAST, whether it is because I finally get down to fucking write it even if it reads like shit, or because I post a final "chapter" with the summary of the story and where it was meant to go. I promise. And if I die first, I'll get my sister or someone to promise to post it for your benefit. Someday this ugly corner of ff dot net will see completion, one way or another. You'll see.