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Author has written 4 stories for Mass Effect.

(Feb 25th, 2014) - Hello. Well, when I started this story, I think you should know a few things.

a) I'd never written fiction before.

b) I didn't know how to write, what to write, or the mechanics of writing. It's debatable as to how much I've learned, but it is a certainty that I knew nothing at all in the beginning.

c) I didn't have a story or a plot. The experiment I conducted was "I wonder how long I can fake this." I really thought it would be five or six chapters, and I'd just kind of chalk it up to experience and move on to just reading the fics I love.

Eventually, this story became a thing. And thank you, readers, for that. A lot of lovely reviews (and a few not-so-lovely, but some of those made good points) fueled me to keep going, and really kept me inspired to go forward. Until very, very suddenly, that completely went away. I hit a roadblock, mentally, that was so abrupt that as I submitted chapter 52 I was completely confident things were going well. I've never written before, as I said, so I've also never encountered...whatever this was.

Coincidentally, I had a health issue arise, the kind that makes one's mortality a Real Thing as opposed to an Other People thing. It was for the best. I took better care of myself, took up a new activity, lost about 60 lbs, and I'm pleased with myself for that. But, still, the writing. Dead and abandoned.

Over the next ten (!!!) months, I've written chapter 53 about ten times. I must have 30 to 40k of material that I created and discarded. It's a bit like writing a hundred songs and being absolutely unable to put together an album that doesn't suck. I was profoundly unhappy with everything I'd done, and I eventually wandered away from it, entirely disheartened.

Over the last two months, or so, it started crawling back - perhaps it was because it was the dead of winter and my working out tapered off, a bit. Also, I'll give some credit to fellow author and pal JacksAreWild for reviewing what I had and encouraging me that it might not be the beyond-hope slop that I thought it was. Slowly, with lots of additional editing and tweaking, we shaped it into something. Perhaps it'll be a launching point for chapters that go forth. I now know I can't be sure. But I'm still around, and hopefully most of my regular readers and reviewers are, as well.

Jay

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Of Sheep and Battle Chicken by LogicalPremise reviews
My AU retelling of ME1 in a darker, sinister universe. Much darker and more realistic views of the SA and the Citadel Council, a more dangerous, involved Cerberus, and a more conflicted Saren and Benezia. Changes much of the ME1 dynamic to remove plot holes with more focus on politics, military strategy, and space combat. Pairing is FShep/Liara. Rewritten through Chapter 12 so far.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Angst - Chapters: 123 - Words: 731,628 - Reviews: 1261 - Favs: 659 - Follows: 603 - Updated: 9/22/2014 - Published: 4/13/2012 - [Shepard (F), Liara T'Soni] Garrus V., Illusive Man - Complete
Ante Up by GreenMamba5 reviews
With his family aboard the Normandy, Garrus finds it difficult to keep his relationship with Shepard a secret. Currently undergoing for editing. Expect changes in chapters and content!
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 39 - Words: 195,026 - Reviews: 768 - Favs: 921 - Follows: 1,161 - Updated: 8/3/2014 - Published: 1/30/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F)
Memoirs by Sharrukin reviews
Centuries after the end of the Reaper War, a respected asari scientist and political leader tells the story of her youthful adventures with the legendary Shepard. Fighting to save the galaxy is one thing, but figuring out human motivations can be much harder. Science fiction, action-adventure, and a romance on slow burn.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 50 - Words: 165,179 - Reviews: 478 - Favs: 325 - Follows: 187 - Updated: 1/12/2014 - Published: 8/14/2012 - [Liara T'Soni, Shepard (M)] - Complete
Bleeding Honesty by Eleneri reviews
She was born for pain and power, but sometime before the end of the Reaper War, Jack discovers that someone views her differently, and that he won't let her hide forever. A James Vega/Jack story set in the Commander Rose Athena Shepard continuity.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,217 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 2 - Published: 9/1/2013 - Jack, James V. - Complete
A Very Long Engagement by cellostargalactica reviews
"It was easier when I hated everyone with no exceptions, you know?" While Shepard and Kaidan contend with trouble in the Terminus, their new child, and an upcoming wedding, Jack struggles to come to terms with change, especially change in the shape of a certain Lieutenant. Jack/James, Shenko. Part 2 of a Mass Effect Epilogue.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 18 - Words: 90,228 - Reviews: 337 - Favs: 124 - Follows: 207 - Updated: 6/27/2013 - Published: 7/12/2012 - Jack, James V.
Taetrus Trash by anonymous moose reviews
Thirty years after the war, an old turian returns to a home that isn't home on a planet he always hated. He doesn't know why. Post-ME3, original cast.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 15 - Words: 42,555 - Reviews: 61 - Favs: 38 - Follows: 27 - Updated: 4/28/2013 - Published: 11/12/2012 - Complete
Weightless by RaptorAssassin reviews
A wise Krogan once said that the only stories worth telling are those of love, sex, and war. This has all three. A story of provocateurs, confidants, and unhealthy attraction. Mass Effect Noir. Rated MA. Original content and a touch of AU pre & post ME1-3 concerning the secrets, origins, and lives of Jane Shepard and Garrus Vakarian.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 35 - Words: 152,021 - Reviews: 312 - Favs: 197 - Follows: 244 - Updated: 4/10/2013 - Published: 5/27/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F)
Reminiscence by anonymous moose reviews
"Primarch Vakarian? Uh, sir? I'm here to ask you about Commander Shepard." Shepard/Vakarian.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Angst/Humor - Chapters: 46 - Words: 104,927 - Reviews: 418 - Favs: 550 - Follows: 660 - Updated: 4/6/2013 - Published: 4/6/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F)
Unity by Awska reviews
Victory is only the beginning. Shepard and Liara, their friends, families, allies, enemies, and the fate of the united galaxy after the end of the Reaper War. Gritty, sciency, often funny or teary, sometimes sexy. …And always hopeful.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 73 - Words: 225,583 - Reviews: 372 - Favs: 222 - Follows: 326 - Updated: 2/21/2013 - Published: 5/1/2012 - Liara T'Soni, Shepard (F), Kasumi G., Jack
Something Like Home by tarysande reviews
Shepard's in lock-up, the Reapers are coming, and Garrus isn't going to sit idly by while the galaxy is lost. Garnering turian support means returning to Palaven, but returning to Palaven will involve answering questions—and facing stark realities—he's been avoiding for years. Written for the 2012 Mass Effect Big Bang.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 4 - Words: 38,672 - Reviews: 47 - Favs: 120 - Follows: 34 - Published: 11/5/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
Hello, Time Bomb by Mussimm reviews
The success of an undertaking is not determined by its necessity. The Lazarus Project was never likely to succeed.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 56 - Words: 145,183 - Reviews: 445 - Favs: 230 - Follows: 140 - Updated: 10/24/2012 - Published: 3/31/2012 - Shepard (F), Kaidan A. - Complete
Medicinal Violence by RedHammer reviews
The worst part about waking up after a snarling bare-knuckle fight with your best friend is waking up in the same medbay.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Drama/Friendship - Chapters: 5 - Words: 36,527 - Reviews: 107 - Favs: 133 - Follows: 195 - Updated: 10/8/2012 - Published: 3/19/2012 - Shepard (F), Garrus V.
Why Don't You and I? by JacksAreWild reviews
The public persona of Commander Shepard is a myth: unbreakable, undeniable, unstoppable. In truth, she's a human being who needs someone, just as much as the galaxy needs her. Jeff "Joker" Moreau has confidence in his flying skills, and little else. Can these two emotionally-impaired soldiers find happiness with one another? *Cover art used with permission of blackdragon21*
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 40 - Words: 143,142 - Reviews: 226 - Favs: 205 - Follows: 176 - Updated: 9/17/2012 - Published: 5/26/2011 - Shepard (F), Joker - Complete
Manipulations by akg.writes reviews
There was a line in one of her many psych evals about an impressive ability to compartmentalize. She supposed the psychologist hadn't been talking about her ability to dress an amputation in the field in under thirty seconds. Mass Effect 2
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 87 - Words: 372,788 - Reviews: 1035 - Favs: 586 - Follows: 593 - Updated: 9/12/2012 - Published: 2/22/2011 - Shepard (F), Kaidan A.
Ashes of Life by winter156 reviews
Liara mourns a future that will never be.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,949 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 8 - Published: 9/2/2012 - Liara T'Soni, Shepard (F) - Complete
Deathless by OMhypothesis reviews
Garrus Vakarian experiences the final battle against the Reapers, and faces the potential destruction of the woman he loves. Heavy imagery. M for blood, sex, and language.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 13 - Words: 22,992 - Reviews: 72 - Favs: 119 - Follows: 99 - Updated: 8/15/2012 - Published: 3/22/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
Silence by TinyElephant reviews
ME3 SPOILERS. Post-Destroy. There's no room for war heroes in peace time. A shattered, exhausted Shepard expected to die. Vega and Cortez, the only ones left of her old crew, won't let her.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Drama - Chapters: 11 - Words: 29,617 - Reviews: 66 - Favs: 113 - Follows: 111 - Updated: 7/21/2012 - Published: 4/16/2012 - Shepard (F), Kaidan A. - Complete
Life Signs by tarysande reviews
When a routine reconnaissance mission goes awry, Shepard and Garrus are pushed to the bounds of their endurance.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 22 - Words: 49,523 - Reviews: 366 - Favs: 381 - Follows: 180 - Updated: 7/19/2012 - Published: 5/20/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
version 1 by cellostargalactica reviews
version 1.0 - draft
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 64,315 - Reviews: 375 - Favs: 177 - Follows: 150 - Updated: 7/11/2012 - Published: 6/26/2012 - Complete
Things Worth Keeping by Urdaniel reviews
Rated M for language and mild innuendo; no sex. Week-long post-ME2 Jack/MShep story set on Intai'sei and Pinnacle Station during repairs to the Normandy. *CONTENT UPDATE - Day 6 complete; Parts 1 & 2 of 2 posted*
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 8 - Words: 52,839 - Reviews: 56 - Favs: 56 - Follows: 72 - Updated: 4/28/2012 - Published: 5/9/2010 - Jack, Shepard (M)
The ThirtySix Stratagems of Wáng Jìngzé by Mussimm reviews
"They want us gone now, before we get too powerful for them to kill. I say they've waited too long. I say we have that power now." The war has begun. ME3!Spec!fic. Shrios.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 29 - Words: 92,588 - Reviews: 323 - Favs: 438 - Follows: 153 - Updated: 6/13/2011 - Published: 12/26/2010 - Shepard (F), Thane K. - Complete
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Control That Which You Cannot Destroy reviews
Cerberus' goal was simple in concept: resurrect Shepard to be precisely the same. They failed. Pushing forward, the result was a powerful, untested cybernetic soldier who doubts his own humanity. Now, he will need to lean on his new crew of unknowns, old friends, a past love, and a new one even more fragile than he. [Many thanks to my fellow authors 'JacksAreWild' and 'Bebus']
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 53 - Words: 226,627 - Reviews: 520 - Favs: 295 - Follows: 298 - Updated: 2/25/2014 - Published: 4/20/2012 - Liara T'Soni, Jack, Shepard (M)
I'll Have the Biotic Convict Special reviews
Post-war, Jack has left her teaching position and moved on to her second "real job", and let me say that odd things come out of headcanon conversations with other authors - thanks Caracal22 :D Rated M for Jack-level swearing, of course.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,125 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 54 - Follows: 19 - Published: 6/25/2013 - Jack, Shepard (M) - Complete
Two Spanks for Sam Shepard reviews
Smut, pure and simple - ok, with a dash of humor and such. Fairly vanilla smut, but still. If this isn't your thing, move on and we both won't embarrass ourselves. Wrote this as a little gift for a friend, and she ships Shoker exclusively. Writing practice for me, as well, as this isn't my usual writing thing. Rated 'M Plus' if that was possible.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,541 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 35 - Published: 12/12/2012 - Shepard (F), Joker - Complete
Down by the Water reviews
To save entire civilizations, how far will Liara descend into darkness? If she had known the answer on the beginning of this journey, perhaps she would never have started. - A standalone excerpt from my larger story, Control That Which You Cannot Destroy.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Drama/Suspense - Chapters: 4 - Words: 12,978 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 14 - Updated: 11/22/2012 - Published: 7/27/2012 - Liara T'Soni - Complete