Apostate Rowan
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Joined 04-17-12, id: 3928463, Profile Updated: 04-06-14
Author has written 5 stories for Elder Scroll series, Harry Potter, Dragon Age, and Mass Effect.

-- Searching for An End is temporarily out of commission until I decide what to do with it (the original idea has changed).

And now on with Ye' Old Profile:

So let's start out with the obvious: I'm a nerd and I'm pretty proud of it.

Everything I do I get really focused on which means I'm awful at branching out. If it weren't for my friend I'd be the worst nerd ever.

My main interests in fanfiction and writing are Dragon Age, Elder Scrolls, and Harry Potter. Occasionally I might throw out a really ridiculous fic that is not at all "quality" writing and is meant to be parody. We'll see on that.

Also I would love to do requests, especially if they're challenging.

If you want to see something written or a story about something in the world of one of the three things listed above, shoot me a message. Why not?

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An Apostate's Abominable Guide to Kirkwall by Sparrow Nightrunner reviews
Kazar Surana had thought he'd escaped Templars, Warden duties, and all the drama that came with being a partial abomination when he'd fled Ferelden. He was even finding something close to peace among the Dalish. Then, Hawke happened. (A sequel to All Roads Lead to Denerim)
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Humor - Chapters: 25 - Words: 79,235 - Reviews: 287 - Favs: 300 - Follows: 366 - Updated: 9/30/2016 - Published: 1/25/2014 - Surana, unknown 1, Merrill
Once Again by Kimra reviews
Destiny isn't always clear, but some things are a given, and Merlins pretty sure that sleeping with the Once and Future King was never on the cards.
Merlin - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 29 - Words: 84,893 - Reviews: 269 - Favs: 176 - Follows: 251 - Updated: 5/28/2016 - Published: 1/4/2013 - Merlin, Arthur
I Should Go by Nevery reviews
Speeches, farewells, denials, howls of grief and of rage. Those that knew Shepard in life remember the Commander in death. Shepard's gender and any interpretations of romance are intentionally ambiguous and left up to you. Disclaimer: Reading these shorts whilst listening to "An End for Once and For All" carries with it a heavy risk of tears.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Sci-Fi/Friendship - Chapters: 57 - Words: 22,191 - Reviews: 338 - Favs: 261 - Follows: 233 - Updated: 3/13/2016 - Published: 3/1/2013 - Blasto, Oriana L.
Most Precious Things by haluan reviews
Realizing he cannot recapture Fenris because of his powerful friends, Danarius devises a plan to kidnap Hawke and use her as bait. However, things do not go as planned when Hawke offers him an unexpected deal.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 42 - Words: 77,129 - Reviews: 167 - Favs: 73 - Follows: 85 - Updated: 6/11/2015 - Published: 2/5/2015 - [unknown 1, Fenris] Anders, Danarius - Complete
A Letter of Remembrance by Deadly Haven reviews
The Inquisitor searched for Rhys and Evangeline against Cole's wishes but saved their lives in the process. Cole has now realized that Rhys remembers him, but he believes that their interactions have now ended and that he has lost his friend. However, the Inquisitor isn't willing to let the matter go so easily. [cover image by crocordile on tumblr]
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,734 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 3 - Published: 1/8/2015 - [Evangeline dB., Rhys] Cole, Trevelyan - Complete
Sound of the Unlocking by Lindira reviews
Lavellan has something to tell Dorian. Dorian just wants Lavellan's entrails to remain on the inside. (Dorian x M!Lavellan fluff, mild DAI spoilers. Set after "Settling In", but can be read alone.)
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,671 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 50 - Follows: 4 - Published: 12/29/2014 - Dorian, Lavellan - Complete
A Tale from Tevinter by Linlin23 reviews
A Dragon Age 2 AU: After his second mage child is born, Malcolm Hawke uproots his family and goes to the haven of Tevinter. The Hawke children grow up in the Imperium, and the results can be catastrophic. Can Marian save her family from the Magisters of Tevinter, or will they fall to their own demons? Female Hawke/Fenris eventually.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 29 - Words: 179,537 - Reviews: 134 - Favs: 73 - Follows: 109 - Updated: 9/30/2014 - Published: 11/8/2013 - [unknown 1, Fenris] Bethany H., Carver H.
Endless Love by FenZev reviews
Setting: Post DA2. Cullen has been given the position of Knight-Commander after the templars defeated the mages. He was settling into his new title quite nicely until someone from his past walked into his office. What she asks of him will test his loyalty to the Order and force him to question everything he once stood proudly for. It will also test his heart. F!Amell/Cullen.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 18 - Words: 49,642 - Reviews: 249 - Favs: 130 - Follows: 118 - Updated: 8/6/2014 - Published: 10/13/2012 - [Amell, Cullen] [Anders, unknown 1] - Complete
Like any other by lethian reviews
Fenris story - about freedom, revenge and redemption, after Hawke sells him to Danarius. AU.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 33 - Words: 42,423 - Reviews: 38 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 14 - Updated: 7/28/2014 - Published: 5/17/2014 - [Fenris, OC] Varric T., Aveline V. - Complete
Returns A King by JayRain reviews
AU. Whether it was fate or chance, Cailan survived Ostagar: barely. But very few people know that, and he will use that to his advantage on his quest to reclaim his throne from Loghain, see the Blight ended, his relationship with Anora mended, and Ferelden restored. Second chances aren't for wasting. (Utilizes my "Sneaking" and "This is War" headcanons).
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Drama - Chapters: 23 - Words: 80,882 - Reviews: 120 - Favs: 80 - Follows: 64 - Updated: 5/2/2014 - Published: 4/7/2013 - Alistair, Anora, Cailan T., Fergus C. - Complete
RISE NOW by ruined-tail
"Ten years, a hundred years from now, someone like me will love someone like you, and there will be no templars to tear them apart." But there are templars.
Dragon Age - Rated: K - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 384 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/10/2014 - Anders - Complete
sound the bells by mswyrr reviews
F!Hawke/Anders. My interpretation of what happens after the "take it out on me" line in Act 2. Content warning for themes touching on domestic abuse, mental health issues, and death.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,251 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 3 - Published: 3/9/2014 - Anders, unknown 1 - Complete
Certus by sinvraal reviews
In the end, there's only one thing that really matters. Explorations, variations and off-camera moments from the Mass Effect 3 storyline. Multiple character POVs.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 60 - Words: 273,738 - Reviews: 552 - Favs: 228 - Follows: 201 - Updated: 2/20/2014 - Published: 7/26/2012 - [J. Garson, Kaidan A.] - Complete
For the Hierarchy by Tuffet37 reviews
AU -First Contact War ended with humans becoming a client race of the turians. Shepard joins the turian military hoping for a better life for herself and her family. Life among the turians is not easy but the unexpected friendship of a fellow recruit, Garrus Vakarian, is more than she could have imagined. M for canon style violence, language and mature situations.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 35 - Words: 83,306 - Reviews: 311 - Favs: 480 - Follows: 392 - Updated: 2/3/2014 - Published: 3/30/2013 - Garrus V., Shepard - Complete
Letters to Amaranthine by Sparrow Nightrunner reviews
A collection of letters found on the desk of Warden-Commander Percival Cousland after his abrupt, mysterious disappearance. (a sequel to All Roads Lead to Denerim)
Dragon Age - Rated: K+ - English - Humor - Chapters: 10 - Words: 6,959 - Reviews: 67 - Favs: 126 - Follows: 50 - Updated: 1/9/2014 - Published: 12/30/2013 - Cousland, Nathaniel H., Anders, Oghren - Complete
Conspiracy by Tuffet37 reviews
AU where the turians are kept as pets and considered little more than smart animals. Spectre agent Shepard, by chance, uncovers the dark truth hidden by those in power and struggles to bring the truth to light. M for violence, language and mature situations.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Drama - Chapters: 24 - Words: 56,577 - Reviews: 212 - Favs: 304 - Follows: 210 - Updated: 10/12/2013 - Published: 4/2/2013 - Garrus V., Saren A., Nihlus K., Shepard - Complete
Horizon by PandaPez reviews
Shepard and Garrus both reflect back on the mission on Horizon, each coming to an important realization. Shakarian
Mass Effect - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,520 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 4 - Published: 8/24/2013 - J. Garson, Garrus V., Kaidan A., Jacob T. - Complete
Glory of the Darkest Winds by theherocomplex reviews
ME3 AU: With the galaxy ending all around him, Garrus finally decides to go after what he wants. Too bad Shepard's too dense to realize that's her.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 8 - Words: 18,051 - Reviews: 51 - Favs: 161 - Follows: 68 - Updated: 8/14/2013 - Published: 7/1/2013 - J. Garson, Garrus V. - Complete
A Matter of Race and Character: A Quick Checkup by Xeno Sapian reviews
2185: On the Normandy SR-2, Gabby volunteers to help the new krogan squad-member with a technical hiccup, while Kenneth is called to a private meeting with Professor Solus who reveals some startling news.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Humor/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,921 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 12 - Published: 7/29/2013 - U. Grunt, Mordin S., Gabby D., Ken D. - Complete
All Roads Lead to Denerim by Sparrow Nightrunner reviews
All Origins may be true, but that doesn't mean it'll be easy to take out that pesky archdemon. Between a xenophobic Dalish, a reformed playboy, a mage prodigy with a bad temper, and others, getting through the Blight without strangling one another (or Alistair, for that matter) will be hard enough.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Humor - Chapters: 156 - Words: 398,192 - Reviews: 1261 - Favs: 705 - Follows: 367 - Updated: 5/23/2013 - Published: 12/21/2012 - Complete
Fragile by Tuffet37 reviews
For a prompt on the kinkmeme -Shepard, Legion and Mordin are stuck on a planet after an ambush. Shepard gets hurt, and while Mordin takes care of her a bond develops between them, which later turns into something more. Rated M for language, canon style violence and future mature situations.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 13 - Words: 31,936 - Reviews: 51 - Favs: 132 - Follows: 44 - Updated: 3/29/2013 - Published: 3/18/2013 - Mordin S., Shepard - Complete
A Time to Grieve by FenZev reviews
Elissa Cousland searches for a reason to live after everyone she loves has died. One-shot set after the escape from Castle Cousland in Highever.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,175 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 10 - Published: 1/29/2013 - Cousland, Duncan - Complete
Recovery by wade bram wilson reviews
We find Anders 9 months into his 1 year stint in solitary confinement in the Circle Tower of Ferelden, and follow him through to his release, his stay in infirmary, his return to Circle life and his final escape. This story is all to do with Anders' journey to recovery, and whether he makes it at all. Very dark. Anders/Karl T is implied. Trigger warnings for almost everything.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,746 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/8/2012 - Anders, Karl T. - Complete
Jowan's Heart by ParisWriter reviews
Jowan's thoughts on how he's always been in love with his best friend, and on the men she has chosen to give her heart to. Written for a contest held by the BioWare Couples group on deviantART.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,325 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 11 - Published: 6/14/2012 - Jowan, Surana - Complete
Rumor Has It by Ryuuko1 reviews
There was a rumor, amidst both Templars and Mages, that in the days just after the Circle had been formed and the Templars given their sacred duty, Knight-Commander Greagoir and the First Enchanter Irving had been lovers.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,584 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 2 - Published: 4/3/2012 - Greagoir, Irving - Complete
Not Even A Fair Fight by LunaCangiante reviews
What would happen if Anders and Edward got into a fight you may ask. I imagine it would be something like this.
Crossover - Twilight & Dragon Age - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 542 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 6 - Published: 11/8/2011 - Edward, Anders - Complete
The fall of Umbridge by Gamma Cavy reviews
What happened to Umbridge between order of the phoenix and deathly hallows? Lets find out.
Crossover - Harry Potter & Monty Python - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 661 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 9 - Published: 8/31/2011 - Dolores U.
Heavy In Your Arms by Mighty Crouton reviews
For a long time, Marian Hawke was my intellectual and personal enemy. She was no inspiration, but the catalyst behind my need to start this revolution. Rival!Anders x MageHawke, DAII, Spoilers.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 11,290 - Reviews: 40 - Favs: 65 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 3/21/2011 - Published: 3/16/2011 - Anders, unknown 1 - Complete
What Do Golems Dream Of? by bamftastik reviews
*NSFW/MA* An experiment with the Swamp Witch's newest spell sends Shale into the Fade. But what do golems dream of? ...many, many birds were harmed in the making of this fic.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,479 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/20/2010 - Shale, Sten - Complete
Because She Loved Him by Sparkles of Youthfulness reviews
He was her life. The one thing she treasured within the tower. She would never - could never - have him as she wanted. But she would still do all she could for him. Because she loved him. F!Amell/Jowan
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,823 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 18 - Published: 12/8/2009 - Amell, Jowan - Complete
The Knights Have a Thousand Eyes by Stakeaclaim reviews
In which Arthur is out of sorts. His manservant leaves a lot to be desired, Morgana is scary, Merlin's 'luck' is becoming too noticeable, his knights need to learn some lessons, and they're beginning to act very strangely. Arthur blames Merlin. COMPLETE
Merlin - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 10 - Words: 74,232 - Reviews: 574 - Favs: 2,306 - Follows: 549 - Updated: 10/20/2009 - Published: 6/7/2009 - Arthur, Merlin - Complete
The Dragon's Bride by Rizzle reviews
7th year. Draco & Hermione awaken in a Muggle hotel room, naked, hung-over and tattooed. They also happen to be married. Thus begin a desperate search for a solution to their sticky situation.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 61 - Words: 225,164 - Reviews: 1509 - Favs: 7,748 - Follows: 2,168 - Updated: 6/17/2009 - Published: 5/28/2009 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete
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The Choices Made reviews
She came to Skyrim when a mysterious letter beckoned her to Riften to find out more about the father she never knew. This quest quickly becomes complicated as she is drawn into three guilds that soon complicate her loyalties. When the guilds begin to feud, Everlee is torn with the choices she must make. In the end, she fears these choices may just destroy her.
Elder Scroll series - Rated: T - English - Drama/Adventure - Chapters: 67 - Words: 134,095 - Reviews: 173 - Favs: 57 - Follows: 86 - Updated: 12/22/2020 - Published: 6/18/2012 - Dragonborn/Dovahkiin, Farkas, Vilkas, Brynjolf
A Mortal Failing: The True Story of Ebony reviews
Mistakes lead to disaster as Tara (aka Ebony Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way) begins to tip Hogwarts (and the world) upside down. It's up to Raven and Draco to try to set things right but can she reverse the mistake or will Hogwarts be lost forever? *This is a story attempting to make the events of the infamous My Immortal realistic*
Harry Potter - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Adventure - Chapters: 16 - Words: 28,320 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 2/9/2016 - Published: 7/11/2012 - Harry P., Draco M., OC
Plan B reviews
Going into a standoff with Kaidan Alenko required a Plan B that may just have cost Shepard her life. Semi-AU scenario as Kaidan shoots Shepard. Prior Alenko/Shepard and Vakarian/Shepard *one-shot, complete*
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,939 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 15 - Published: 7/10/2013 - [J. Garson, Garrus V.] Kaidan A. - Complete
Searching For An End reviews
Lily Cousland had everything in her life torn to shreds and replaced with violence and goals largely not her own. As she struggles to do her duty she searches for an end: for Arl Howe, for the blight, and maybe, just maybe, for everything. *Original plot (not just a retelling of the game) and non-Grey Warden crossing into this* Cousland/Dairren
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,934 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 1/30/2013 - Alistair, Cousland
For Amell reviews
*complete, one-shot* The blood of one mage would follow Cullen no matter where he went.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,048 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 2 - Published: 1/26/2013 - [Amell, Cullen] - Complete