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Joined 04-26-12, id: 3960068, Profile Updated: 04-03-14
Author has written 8 stories for Mass Effect, and Dragon Age.

I try to ignore them, but sometimes the voices in my head just won't go away.

Usually, when it comes to avoiding writing, the writing I'm avoiding is original or collaborative (or scholarly). However, like the neighbor's cat, sometimes I just can't help climbing into someone else's sandbox and leaving a little something behind...


Work In Progress

April 3rd

Okay, so a couple of things have really, REALLY messed up my updating. The first was a computer glitch. The second has been a life glitch.

The computer glitch, though costly in terms of lost writing, was over quickly. Recovery from it has been slow, not least because of the life glitch making it impossible for me to work, write, read anything longer than a few paragraphs, and really do much of anything.

I'm still dealing with the life glitch. It's better, but not completely worked out.

So. Details:

Stars Fade: After weeks of agonizing over Chapter 52, and within a paragraph of finishing it, my computer had a meltdown and I lost all work on it. Although I tried like hell to recreate it, the replacement chapter is a total loss, so I've just decided to call it and press on. Hopefully Chapter 53 will be better for everyone.

Sleep Without Dreams: Stupidly, I decided to work on the chapter after next, because I was having trouble figuring out how I wanted 12 to go. I've finally made headway on 12, and once it's done (hopefully by the end of next week) I'll be posting both 12 and 13. Two chapters for the price of one.

I'll Follow You: this has been the chapter from hell, people. From. Hell. I have written and edited and rewritten and am so close to finishing it... I even made myself move on to the following chapter to see if I could break the curse of Chapter Three, but no luck. It has not been abandoned by any means. It's just been a very hard chapter to write the way I want it.

The other two WIP haven't changed status at all. Back burners, when inspiration strikes, yadda-yadda...

The ME3 oneshot Worth Fighting For has been updated and will now be an ongoing ficlet WIP. Updates will happen as they happen - no promises. Really no promises, given my recalcitrant brain.

Eight Strangers. Good god, why I even started this when I had so many other WIP, I will never understand. I have no idea how often this one will update, although I hope to get to it now and again. The summary is crap for a reason, although it should offer a hint of where this parody fic is going.

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A Handful of Dust by tarysande reviews
Ten billion people over here die, so twenty billion over there can live. After the war, there are pieces to pick up, and lives to rebuild. And even with the Reapers gone, nothing is easy.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 53 - Words: 147,161 - Reviews: 832 - Favs: 392 - Follows: 581 - Updated: 4/17 - Published: 3/21/2013 - Shepard (F), Garrus V.
The Arrowhead by tinyfierce reviews
When Hawke is injured, the Arishok brings her to the dockside compound for the duration of her recovery, but how much can they come to understand one another on a time limit? References oneshot Penalty for Winning. Rating may change, 25 chapters total. F!Hawke/Arishok.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 24 - Words: 104,803 - Reviews: 368 - Favs: 503 - Follows: 515 - Updated: 12/16/2013 - Published: 10/31/2011 - Arishok, Hawke (F)
Cold Skies, Keen Perils by tarysande reviews
Heroes are made, not born. It's a lesson Shepard learns the hard way. "A hero is no braver than an ordinary man, but he is braver five minutes longer." Ralph Waldo Emerson
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Drama/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 8 - Words: 21,207 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 22 - Updated: 11/20/2013 - Published: 11/9/2013 - Complete
Sound the Clarion by Amber Penglass reviews
In the chaos of the ongoing First Contact War, the Alliance is contacted by a resistence cell comprised of captured humans on Palaven, and Shepard is drafted for a covert mission to make contact. Her cover lands her where? The Vakarian household, of course. Shepard/Garrus, AU.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 19 - Words: 147,357 - Reviews: 750 - Favs: 693 - Follows: 842 - Updated: 11/15/2013 - Published: 8/12/2011 - Shepard (F), Garrus V.
Lola, Polaris by LoquaciousQuark reviews
Vega knows two Lolas. He doesn't care that only one of them's actually named that; he's good enough to know what people are, no matter what they're called. Character study, background F!Shepard/Garrus.
Mass Effect - Rated: K - English - Friendship/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,941 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 6 - Published: 11/12/2013 - James V., Shepard (F), Garrus V. - Complete
Second Chances by servantofclio reviews
Twelve years after the end of the war, Shepard is living a quiet, retired life, having put her past behind her. An encounter with an old friend makes her reconsider some choices and just might give both of them another chance at happiness. A story about friendship, love, and blending families. FemShep/Garrus, references to past FemShep/Kaidan and Garrus/OC.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 28 - Words: 82,866 - Reviews: 243 - Favs: 184 - Follows: 256 - Updated: 10/13/2013 - Published: 3/23/2013 - Shepard (F), Garrus V. - Complete
Ask Shepard: An Advice Column by Shootingstar7123 reviews
A Galactic Enquirer online exclusive-Commander Shepard answers YOUR fanmail and questions in her very own advice column!
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 3 - Words: 6,417 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 44 - Follows: 33 - Updated: 9/22/2013 - Published: 6/4/2012 - Shepard (F) - Complete
Unshaken by the Darkness, Book One: The Teyrn's Lovely Daughter by Herebedragons66 reviews
As the daughter of a teyrn, Rhianna Cousland is no stranger to duty. But as she leaves childhood behind, she fears her duty - to family, king, and country - may come into conflict with the desires of her heart, and her friendship with Loghain Mac Tir. Cover artwork by Epsifawnshawn (please follow the Extras link on my profile for additional information).
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Fantasy - Chapters: 80 - Words: 518,738 - Reviews: 702 - Favs: 134 - Follows: 127 - Updated: 8/17/2013 - Published: 4/21/2012 - Cousland, Loghain M. - Complete
Heuristics by korinara reviews
Time is a luxury in the thick of war, and what is sown must always be reaped. As one of only two people alive who can speak the prothean language, Shepard is given the task to learn more about Javik's civilization while she is still able.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 13 - Words: 50,386 - Reviews: 126 - Favs: 206 - Follows: 250 - Updated: 6/10/2013 - Published: 5/27/2012 - Javik, Shepard (F)
Precipice by Minquette reviews
When James was given guard duty over Shepard, he learnt never to meet your heroes. When Shepard was taken into custody, she didn't believe it was for her own safety until someone threw a grenade into her room. Set between ME: Conviction and ME3. FShega.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Mystery - Chapters: 17 - Words: 34,611 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 6 - Published: 5/16/2013 - Shepard (F), James V. - Complete
The Ghost In the Machine by sparrowfalling reviews
He wears the armor she died in. One-shot Legion/FemShep friendship.
Mass Effect - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,813 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 49 - Follows: 12 - Published: 4/28/2013 - Shepard (F), Legion - Complete
Ever Rise by LoquaciousQuark reviews
Vampire AU. In 1902 London, Fenris's flight from his former master leads him straight to the city streets—and the night's creatures who walk them. After a chance meeting with one who calls herself Hawke, Fenris's escape is curtailed as he finds his fortunes entangled with her own, forcing them both to face old fears and old scars as he attempts to win his freedom at last.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 14 - Words: 100,823 - Reviews: 109 - Favs: 85 - Follows: 44 - Updated: 3/26/2013 - Published: 2/9/2013 - Hawke (F), Fenris - Complete
Crucible by LoquaciousQuark reviews
Danarius's efforts to tame his recaptured slave include a salve laced with a powerful aphrodisiac. After days of denial and solitary confinement, Fenris is close to breaking. Hawke gets there first.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,708 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 83 - Follows: 6 - Published: 3/10/2013 - Hawke (F), Fenris - Complete
No Reason at All by tarysande reviews
She knows what she is. She's a weapon. Point her and shoot. She kills the asari first.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,294 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 5 - Published: 3/2/2013 - Shepard (F) - Complete
Just Like Old Times by tarysande reviews
Garrus Vakarian's past and present, told through interconnected short stories one letter of the alphabet at a time.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 26 - Words: 54,228 - Reviews: 305 - Favs: 173 - Follows: 146 - Updated: 2/20/2013 - Published: 10/17/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
To Find The Sea by Dr Girlfriend reviews
Part I The Cruelest Month: Two years after the destruction of the SR1 Commander Shepard has been reborn. But so has her old squad. Featuring multiple character perspectives, minor OC's, dark themes, violence, and Shakarian! Cross posted from KMeme. Cover photo: taztothesky.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 23 - Words: 17,749 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 43 - Updated: 1/6/2013 - Published: 5/16/2012 - Shepard (F), Garrus V.
Shakedown by anonymous moose reviews
Peacetime is anything but ordinary as Shepard and Garrus return to duty after a long and interminable medical leave. Now, she must build another crew, a mixture of new and old, to prepare for a shakedown cruise that only she and Hackett know the truth about, and face a threat that only the crew of the starship Normandy could be trusted to handle. Shepard/Vakarian.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 39,500 - Reviews: 75 - Favs: 76 - Follows: 87 - Updated: 11/14/2012 - Published: 5/7/2012 - Shepard (F), Garrus V. - Complete
Something Like Home by tarysande reviews
Shepard's in lock-up, the Reapers are coming, and Garrus isn't going to sit idly by while the galaxy is lost. Garnering turian support means returning to Palaven, but returning to Palaven will involve answering questions—and facing stark realities—he's been avoiding for years. Written for the 2012 Mass Effect Big Bang.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 4 - Words: 38,672 - Reviews: 44 - Favs: 97 - Follows: 30 - Published: 11/5/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
Why Don't You and I? by JacksAreWild reviews
The public persona of Commander Shepard is a myth: unbreakable, undeniable, unstoppable. In truth, she's a human being who needs someone, just as much as the galaxy needs her. Jeff "Joker" Moreau has confidence in his flying skills, and little else. Can these two emotionally-impaired soldiers find happiness with one another? *Cover art used with permission of blackdragon21*
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 40 - Words: 143,142 - Reviews: 224 - Favs: 199 - Follows: 174 - Updated: 9/17/2012 - Published: 5/26/2011 - Shepard (F), Joker - Complete
Translations by vermouthhh reviews
A collection of James Vega drabbles, circa Mass Effect 3. Vega/Femshep pairing. Dancing, sparring, swearing, blood, sweat, kisses and Spanish galore.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 30 - Words: 58,361 - Reviews: 210 - Favs: 121 - Follows: 89 - Updated: 7/23/2012 - Published: 6/20/2012 - James V., Shepard (F) - Complete
Commander Shepard is Easily Distracted by Knightfall1138 reviews
Earth is burning, and Commander Shepard is the galaxy's only hope for repelling the Reaper invasion. Perfect time to catch a movie.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Parody/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 16 - Words: 31,837 - Reviews: 69 - Favs: 62 - Follows: 43 - Updated: 6/29/2012 - Published: 4/2/2012 - Shepard (M), Marauder Shields - Complete
Unfortunate Liminality by orchidcactus reviews
Shepard and Garrus deal with the implications and consequences of fraternization. Angst with a healthy dose of schmoop and gunfire.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Angst/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 5 - Words: 14,994 - Reviews: 61 - Favs: 71 - Follows: 29 - Updated: 6/3/2012 - Published: 5/31/2012 - Shepard (F), Garrus V. - Complete
Rescue by Dr. Jekyl reviews
The Shadow Broker's supposed to shed no tears, have no friends, and, certainly, take no lovers.
Mass Effect - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,979 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/29/2012 - Liara T'Soni, Feron
Blackwork by PestoMonkey reviews
An erotic love story that follows the progression of behind-the-scenes events after James Vega makes good on his flirtations with Commander Shepard. Plot gets moving around Ch10. Includes alternate *happy* ME3 ending. Rated M for tasteful but intimate love scenes.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 20 - Words: 101,861 - Reviews: 222 - Favs: 255 - Follows: 132 - Updated: 5/22/2012 - Published: 3/15/2012 - Shepard (F), James V. - Complete
Both a Little Broken by tarysande reviews
She could scrape away the Cerberus paint and tear away the Cerberus symbols, but she couldn't change the Cerberus science that had raised her from the dead, or the Cerberus cybernetics under her skin. Shepard deals with hard truths after Omega 4.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,890 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 104 - Follows: 6 - Published: 5/13/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
Beating Like A Hammer by skybound2 reviews
Garrus doesn't know if she is real, or a hallucination, but when Shepard storms back into his life on Omega, he finds that he doesn't much care. He just knows that he's not letting her go again, not if he can help it. -Another kinkmeme fill.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 4 - Words: 17,457 - Reviews: 48 - Favs: 244 - Follows: 65 - Updated: 5/3/2012 - Published: 4/30/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
One Step at a Time by tarysande reviews
Before she died, Shepard loved the stars. Not so much, anymore.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,220 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 77 - Follows: 5 - Published: 5/2/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
Talking Too Much by tarysande reviews
It was going to be a joke. At least, that's what she told herself as she opened her mouth and the words, "We could test your reach… and my flexibility," fell out.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,465 - Reviews: 38 - Favs: 152 - Follows: 10 - Published: 4/26/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
A Good Day by tarysande reviews
It's been a good day. Maybe not quite saving the galaxy at Shepard's side good, but good. And then it isn't.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,250 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 67 - Follows: 2 - Published: 4/20/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F) - Complete
Commander Shepard, You've Got Mail by Chi Kyoku reviews
Every day, starting when Garrus rejoins C-Sec up until the destruction of the Normandy, Shepard and Garrus exchange emails. After all, good friends stay in touch.
Mass Effect - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Humor - Chapters: 27 - Words: 42,626 - Reviews: 522 - Favs: 435 - Follows: 378 - Updated: 4/10/2012 - Published: 2/26/2012 - [Garrus V., Shepard (F)]
On Waking by LoquaciousQuark reviews
Years after the events of Act III, Hawke and Fenris's six-year-old daughter tries to figure out her mother's past, her place in the tiny town of Wilhaven, and why her father never wakes up.
Dragon Age - Rated: K - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 11,717 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 95 - Follows: 7 - Published: 3/23/2012 - Hawke (F), Fenris - Complete
Eyes by beckaliz reviews
Kaidan's words on Horizon hurt. With his rejection, Shepard feels a bit lost, but she has Garrus.
Mass Effect - Rated: K - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,695 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/15/2012 - Shepard (F), Garrus V. - Complete
White Blank Page by LoquaciousQuark reviews
Anders stumbles across Hawke and Fenris in a private moment and confronts some unwelcome truths. Justice is no help at all. Hawke/Fenris, complete.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,421 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 69 - Published: 2/13/2012 - Anders - Complete
Eye of the Storm by MsBarrows reviews
Sebastian arrives in Starkhaven to find two things waiting for him - a letter from Grand Cleric Elthina, and a certain apostate mage.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Drama/Adventure - Chapters: 135 - Words: 295,584 - Reviews: 853 - Favs: 131 - Follows: 76 - Updated: 1/26/2012 - Published: 10/26/2011 - Sebastian V., Anders - Complete
Penalty for Winning by tinyfierce reviews
Hawke stayed away from Varric's card games for a reason. Neither likes to back down, and when it comes time to put her money where her mouth is, he doesn't show any mercy. Especially when it could lead to a fantastic story. F!Hawke/Arishok.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 6,560 - Reviews: 46 - Favs: 176 - Follows: 36 - Published: 10/18/2011 - Hawke (F), Arishok - Complete
Galactic Apocalypse: Asari Porn Edition by mandrakefunnyjuice reviews
A correspondency regarding the Reapers and their misguided efforts to lead a certain cripple to the their side of the war.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 888 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 8 - Published: 7/18/2011 - Joker - Complete
Galactic Apocalypse: A Message to Shepard by mandrakefunnyjuice reviews
A short message from the Reapers to their worst enemy, and their worst enemy's keen reply.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 720 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/17/2011 - Shepard (M) - Complete
Shepard Loves Aliens by Ms Morpheus reviews
Oneshots. Kink. Shepard has sexy encounters with various Mass Effect characters: Nihlus, Tali, Wrex, every turian I can get my claws into... you get the idea. Final chapter: Garrus, darkly.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Sci-Fi/Romance - Chapters: 11 - Words: 32,997 - Reviews: 105 - Favs: 159 - Follows: 68 - Updated: 5/23/2011 - Published: 1/5/2011 - Garrus V., Nihlus K. - Complete
Happily Ever After With Goats by estuesday reviews
The tale Varric told the Seekers wasn't the end of their story. From Orlais to Antiva, the high seas to an isolated farm, Hawke has a long way left to go. One can only hope the goats survive her passage. Hawke/Varric, past Hawke/Anders and Hawke/Fenris.
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,745 - Reviews: 36 - Favs: 95 - Follows: 11 - Published: 3/17/2011 - Hawke (M), Varric T. - Complete
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Stars Fade reviews
Shepard knows that destroying the Reapers will kill her. Except she's never been good at dying. The explosion of dark energy from the Crucible thrusts Shepard into a totally different universe. Post ME3 ending, DA2 Act 2 beginning. Please note that this is not a FemShep/F!Hawke fic.
Crossover - Mass Effect & Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 53 - Words: 287,503 - Reviews: 1106 - Favs: 1,041 - Follows: 1,217 - Updated: 4/3 - Published: 5/16/2012 - Shepard (F), Hawke (F)
Sleep Without Dreams reviews
Katy Shepard is the leader of an Earth street gang called the Tenth Street Reds. Thane Krios is an assassin with a deadly reputation. They're both living the sleep without dreams. Mass Effect AU, containing characters and events from all three games but not to canon. Rated for adult situations and language.
Mass Effect - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 12 - Words: 38,470 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 36 - Follows: 54 - Updated: 1/29 - Published: 5/31/2013 - Shepard (F), Thane K.
Worth Fighting For reviews
Kaidan saved Shepard on Earth - Shepard saved Kaidan on Mars. That should have been the end of it, right? But now Kaidan's back and he's gunning for Shepard's heart. There's only one thing a former vigilante can do. Garrus POV no-longer-a-oneshot. Shenko ME, Shakarian ME2. Rated for language.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 4 - Words: 4,466 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 50 - Updated: 5/10/2013 - Published: 7/1/2012 - Garrus V.
I'll Follow You reviews
Shakarian post ME3 Destroy XC songfic. Five chapters of angst, with a side of dark fluff. Currently rated for language, later chapters for adult themes.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,255 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 8/21/2012 - Published: 8/20/2012 - Garrus V., Shepard (F)
Celebration, With Associated Complications reviews
In which this fanfic writer attempts a celebration, but miscellaneous Shepards get in the way. Written as a thank you for everyone who has bothered to read Stars Fade.
Mass Effect - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 593 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/13/2012 - Shepard (F)
Eight Strangers reviews
This is the true story... Parody fic. Will cover all three games. Rated for language and adult themes.
Mass Effect - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,709 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 11 - Published: 8/10/2012
Jealousy reviews
I've always been irked by the fact that, if you have romanced Fenris and he's left you, and you try to take Zevran up on his offer with Fenris in the party, that blasted elf totally *@#!blocks you. Which led to this oneshot. F!Hawke/Fenris - could easily be M!Hawke, if you substitute pronouns.
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 996 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/22/2012 - Fenris, Hawke (F) - Complete
Small, But Fierce reviews
What happens when the qunari find a young thief in their midst. Young F!Hawke AU oneshot. Posted in two parts.
Dragon Age - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,825 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 6/5/2012 - Published: 5/25/2012 - Complete