I'm a very sentimental person.

Not because I only like material things. I think it's mostly because of the fact that I have poor memory.

If I were to receive a bouquet of live roses. I would be sad more than happy. Because I know, roses will wilt and die, and then I would have to throw them away. As beautiful as they are, that beauty fades. Same goes for everything. That's why people take photographs of themselves, and then they get labelled as 'narcissist'.

Perhaps they're just sentimental like me.

If I were to be told that someone was going to give me roses. I would ask them for beautiful fake roses, maybe of all kinds of impossible colors, gradienting from one to the other. Maybe even a rainbow bouquet.

Why?

Because I believe in impossible things. I like to see rare beauty that has to be fabricated by meticulous, talented hands. It's more artistic that way. And fake roses don't die. Sure, they may be cheaper than real roses that the earth hath bore and tired farmers have had to carefully, painstakingly raise.

But wouldn't it be better to have real roses growing forever in a garden, and fake roses to decorate your home?

You wouldn't have to force a poor farmer to grow them only to chop them off and ship them to some retailer. It would be nicer to have the same farmers raise roses in pots or nurseries where they could be transplanted into someone's yard or miniature garden to be cared for instead of being put on the countdown clock known as a vase, to die.

Fake roses don't die, and you can make them any color you want, without having to worry about abusing live flowers by forcing them to drink up chemical dyes to make them something they are not meant to be. If they are white roses, all the more tragic. White means pure love, and yet you want to make them purple, blue, pink, yellow, even rainbow colors. Fake flowers however get to be what they were meant to be--what they are crafted to be. In a sense, it's more natural that way.

I am a sentimental person. It's because I have a bad memory.

If someone gave me a bouquet of fake, colorful roses. I would be very happy. I can put them in a vase forever, and maybe a few years down the road, look at them and smile. I can remember the day they were given to me--who gave them to me, what I was like personality-wise at the time, how young I looked, how stupid I used to be. And I can muse, because I can remember. Even as a forgetful person, I can remember.

I like things that last. It doesn't mean I like fake things in particular. Like those fake roses, it's not the fact that they are fake that makes me happy--it's the fact that they don't change. If taken care of properly, put in a place where the sunlight won't bleach the color too much, in a tempered room where they can remain dust-free and wont be eaten away by insects or decay from bad air, they can last for years and years to come, maybe even forever. And maybe one day they can be given to one of my grandchildren when I am no longer here.

When that happens, I can leave them the true meaning of why I like fake roses.

Just like those fake roses; morals ideals, and dreams, if kept safely and cared for, checked up on and maintained, they can last for years to come. Maybe even forever. And then, passed on.

So if you're going to give me a bouquet of roses--or whatever flower for that matter. I'd prefer if they were fake. Not because I like fake things--I'm just a sentimental person.

Name: JapFan04 (here), P4percake (on deviantart.com),

Age: 19

Current Situation: Student at NAFA, Yaoi fanatic, Occasional cosplayer, roleplayer

Follows:

Final Fantasy (Whole Game Series, and the Advent children movie)

Kingdom Hearts (Entire Game Franchise),

Naruto (First season and Shippuuden, including the movies),

Durarara! (Occasionally reads english translated novel, read the manga [Would still prefer inumog or the television animators to draw it out instead of that too-shoujo mangaka that's currently illustrating it now], and watched the anime)

Silent Hill (Familiar with all the releases, but favorite remains Silent Hill 2 for very triangular reasons),

Persona (Am familiar with the anime, but have only played persona 4 on PS2)

Samurai Warriors (1 and 2, 2 Empires, Wii)

Dynasty Warriors (1 and 2, Extreme Legends)

Warriors Orochi (PS2)

Devil May Cry (watched the anime, played the third game on PS2)

Shinrei Tantei Yakumo (anime)

Death Note (Live action, anime, manga)

Capcom vs Marvel (on Xbox)

Capcom vs Streetfighter (on Xbox)

9GAG

PewDiePie (on Youtube)

Hobbies: Cosplay, Weapon Crafting, drawing, digital painting, Writing, Singing

Favorite Yaoi couples: SasuNaru, KakaIru, ItaSasu, SasuSai, KakaSasu, AkuRoku, AkuSora, RikuSora, RokuSora, Shizaya (including their alternates like Saike, Delic, Shiztuo, ect.) , Izuo, PHXJames

Will write if told certain things you'd like to see happen to a couple I am interested in. Will also paint or draw commissions for free as I'm still in practice. Sorry if I take awhile with it though, my cintiq is being serviced for wire problems right now.

My avatar is my own work, please do not steal it, I cannot put a watermark on this site.

Some views I have:

Month one

Mommy
I am only 8 inches long
but I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two

Mommy
today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
you could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three

You know what Mommy
I'm a boy!!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don't like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too
and I cry with you even though
you can't hear me.

Month Four

Mommy
my hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
but I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
and stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five

You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I'm not a baby.
I am a baby Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what's abortion?

Month Six

I can hear that doctor again.
I don't like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can't get away from it!
Mommy! HELP me!

Month Seven

Mommy
I am okay.
I am in Jesus's arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn't you want me Mommy?

Every Abortion Is Just . . .

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

If you're against abortion, re-post this

Other things:

You are a Chibi Seme

You are the seme in disguise. Able to fit in and get along with uke and seme alike, you are able to get close to the uke on their level before exerting your dominance. This makes you at times manipulative and able to fool others about your true seme nature. Because of your harmless appearance, it takes the flamboyant Flaming Uke to match wits and really bring out your aggressive side to expose you for the seme that you are.

Most compatible with:Flaming Uke, Badass Uke
Least compatible with:Dramatic Uke