Author has written 20 stories for Final Fantasy: Tactics, Final Fantasy I-VI, Fire Emblem, Dissidia: Final Fantasy, Final Fantasy XII, Final Fantasy: Record Keeper, Final Fantasy X-overs, Tales of the Abyss, Misc. Games, Pokémon, and Game X-overs.
Update September 13th, 2018
I've been playing Dragon Quest XI as much as I can, which makes it really hard to update stories. However, it does give me ideas! I'm about 40 hours in, something like that. I don't want to give any spoilers. I just know that I have a yaoi OTP for it, which goes to tragedy. That's what I specialize in, y'know. That's what I enjoy. Why? I don't know. I can't manage to cry a tear over what happens to me in the flesh. I only feel things through media anymore. I suppose that's one reason why I cling to writing fanfic. You go through enough trauma and you turn off your ability to feel. It's just life, I've told myself a million times. No love feels real, no matter how genuine it is. Nothing feels like it matters.
I might actually be dead emotionally. It's hard not to think that.
So. I write bullshit half-baked damn near worthless romance (if you can call it that) for an escape, because I don't believe anyone made of flesh has any real feelings for me. Ever have or ever had, really. It might because I have such a seething self hatred for myself. After having a long meditation on it, I figure that's the reason why I go around ruining every good relationship I've ever had. Despite how much want to believe I love people, I don't believe I deserve to have anyone that loves me. It's better if everyone stays the furthest away from me that they can. I put up a face: I can be friendly. I can get along with others when I attempt at it, especially when there's a common interest. I do genuinely love video games. It might be the only thing I genuinely do love simply because it gets me out of my body, my mind, my problems. Lets me be someone else for a while. Fanfic lets me do that, too.
...If I knew how to embark on the quest for self love, or at the very least, self... not absolutely hating? I would quest for it. There's no skill tree that unlocks the skill, and I don't believe it can be learned through leveling up. *deep sigh*
Call me Suzuri. I'm a 32 year old semi-evil, sleep-deprived, college dropout turned mommy addicted to video games, soccer, and doing creative things like writing, drawing, and sewing. Sum me up in four words? Easy! Furry otaku gamer mom.
I am a dragoon/bard. You cannot convince me otherwise. I feel like I am a part of the Highwind family as I have a love for flying machines and dragons! I fight with a spear, but I can also serenade you into oblivion, too.
There are three things you must understand about my writing on this page:
Fun fact: I don't usually write fanfic without self-inserts. That's kind of... my thing. If I can't be in it, I really don't wanna bother writing it. That's selfish, and I don't give a fuck.
Another fun fact: I don't ship my characters with characters that have a canon love interest. Are they married? Do they have a love interest in canon? Then they're off limits. As much as I'd love to ship an OC with Ronfar from Lunar 2, he's with Mauri. I love Ghaleon, but he loves Althena. I would dance forever in the arms of Asgore Dreemur, but. Well. You get the picture.
Yet Another Fun Fact: I have a lot of self insert characters. But I only have one character I ship myself outside my fics with, and that's Kain Highwind. He is my husbando and my personal hero that I aspire to be like. My champion, my hero. I have characters to ship with other characters that I have affection for, yes. Rynah x Xander, Hala x Avdol, and Riley x Hector, Skyla x Balthier are things I want to explore further, yes, absolutely. Don't confuse me as a person for who my OCs are. Do NOT assume that just because I write characters certain ways that I am that way outside the realm of fanfic. It's fiction. You have to separate the characters from the writer.
Soooo... If you understand these simple facts, then read my work! If you enjoy it, that's great! If you don't, that's great, too! I accept all reviews, even flames. I'll cook marshmellows over them and make s'mores! Kain will cook them on this little spear we got just to cook marshmellows!!
STUFF I WANT TO WRITE IN THE FUTURE:
1. Star Fox: Peppy Hare's granddaughter aspires to take his place in team Star Fox! (a furry story! yeeeeeeeeeees)
2. Fire Emblem Heroes: Hector and Lilina daddy/daughter fluff
3. Kingdom Hearts: Sora and friends find out Cid has a daughter. She's mining for supplies for Cid to craft things! Much ado about gummi ships.
4. Final Fantasy IV: Kain backstory. Much ado with his relationship with his father in Baron.
5. Final Fantasy VII: Cid backstory. Military school, and why he and Palmer hate each other the way they do.
List of favorite characters ever in no particular order!!
-Kain Highwind (Final Fantasy IV & The After Years)
-Lucia, Princess of the Blue Star (Lunar 2: Eternal Blue)
-Cid Highwind (Final Fantasy VII Compliation)
-Crown Prince Xander of Nohr (Fire Emblem Fates / Fire Emblem Warriors / Fire Emblem Heroes)
-Kratos Aurion (Tales of Symphonia)
-Jade Curtiss (Tales of the Abyss)
-Velvet Crowe (Tales of Berseria)
-Thany (Fire Emblem: The Binding Blade)
-Minwu (Final Fantasy II)
-Tom Lucitor (Star vs The Forces of Evil)
-Ffamran Mid Bunansa, aka Balthier (Final Fantasy XII)
-Emperor Mateus Palamecia (Final Fantasy II / Dissidia Final Fantasy)
-Sable of the Able Sisters (Animal Crossing)
-Mohammed Avdol (Jojo's Bizarre Adventure: Stardust Crusaders)
-Caesar Zappelli (Jojo's Bizarre Adventure: Battle Tendency)
-White Knight Leo (Lunar 2 Eternal Blue)
-Ryudo (Grandia II)
-Vanellope von Schweetz (Wreck-it Ralph)
-Spider Jerusalem (Transmetropolitan)
-Ashton Anchors (Star Ocean The Second Story / Star Ocean EX)
-Ernest Raviede (Star Ocean The Second Story / Star Ocean EX)
-General Beatrix (Final Fantasy IX)
-Lord Hector of Ostia (Fire Emblem Blazing Sword)
-Princess Eirika of Renais (Fire Emblem Sacred Stones)
-Nakoruru (Samurai Shodown II)
-Megurine Luka (VOCALOID)
-Suzuricho (Monster Rancher 4)
List of favorite Pokemon... in no particular order!!
Songs that inspire me to write (AKA my writing playlist)
Pat Benatar: "Painted Desert"
Bryan Adams: "Heaven"
Jontron & The Gregory Brothers: "SDGAF"
Ninja Sex Party: "Danny Don't You Know" , "The Last Unicorn"
Hamilton The Musical: "Wait For it", "It's Quiet Uptown", "Non Stop"
Heathers The Musical: "Freeze Your Brain", "Seventeen"
Jekyll and Hyde The Musical: "Alive", "A Dangerous Game", "Confrontation", "His Work and Nothing More"
Elton John: "Rocket Man"
Josh Groban: "So She Dances", "Hidden Away", "Weeping", "Lullaby"
Scorpions: "Rhythm of Love", "Wind of Change"
Lady Gaga: "Bad Romance"
Savage Garden: "To the Moon and Back", "A Thousand Words"
N'sync: "It's Gonna Be Me"
A Goofy Movie OST: "Eye 2 Eye", "Stand Out", "After Today"
the entire OST for Undertale, Chrono Cross, and Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles
Currently playing: (updated 9/13/2018)
Dragon Quest XI: Echoes of an Elusive Age (Steam)
Etrian Odyssey V: Beyond the Myth (3DS)
Steam URL: steamcommunity.com/id/ladydragoon
Current DeviantART URL: duchessofmalkuth.deviantart.com
Personal Tumblr URL: palamecianprincess.tumblr.com