Author has written 7 stories for Transformers/Beast Wars, Spore, Inheritance Cycle, and Elder Scroll series.
A letter I posted on Fire Winds, it is relevant to my whole account:
Not a chapter update, curb your excitement
and stab till it stops breathing-
So, as you know I haven’t updated this story in a while, and to be honest I’m not going to update it again. I’ve been thinking about posting a notice about the cancellation of this story but thought it would be better to just let it die with time. In hindsight this was a bad idea as I continue to get reviews on the story. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, I do appreciate the criticisms as they help me to learn how to write and construct a story better. However, some post reviews with the thought that perhaps I will fix the problems with the story or that I will continue the story.
Now, there are those of you who will want an explanation as to why I have canceled this story. First, I will come completely clean concerning this story. I uploaded Fire Winds in 2015. I just turned 17 only a few weeks prior, but most importantly at this age: I had no idea how to write, construct, or organize a story.
Fire Winds starts with a basic premise and that is it.
I had no plans for Fire Winds, no direction, and no idea what I wanted to do with it, or what kind of story I wanted to tell with it.
After I posted the first chapter of this story, I immediately had problems with it. I will tell you the truth, a good chunk of the first chapter of this story was not supposed to be for the Fire Winds story line. I had written it some time ago for a different kind of story, but I was lazy and not happy with the original first chapter I had written for FW. I don’t really remember why I felt that I had to rush it out, but in the end, I presented a mutilated form of two stories mashed together. A lot of you had the same problems with the first chapter that I did, however, my naivety and perhaps my pride got the better of me and I refused to change it.
As the story went on, I realized that I was making many errors, particularly with the main character. He was inconsistent and a reflection of my own uncertainties at the time. It was 2015, with 2016 on the horizon, I was only a year away from high school graduation, my 18th birthday, and the reality of adulthood. 2016 came along and the US elections were in full swing with a sort of ferocity that I had never experienced in my young life and ultimately it would be the political turmoil that surround the election that caused a dramatic shift in my life and how I view the world.
Some of you started writing/reading fanfiction at a much younger age than I did, and this allowed you to learn more about how to write and about how to structure a story much faster than by other means. Due to the way I was raised and the fact that my parents were too poor to afford any kind of internet but dial up, all I had was the books at the library and my English teachers to learn from (which trust me, is the most terrible way to learn how to write any kind of story/novel). When we did finally get an internet connection, I lead a self-imposed sheltered existence on it for the first few years. It had to maybe have been 2010 or 2011 when I first got my fanfiction account and in 2012 I posted my first story. I was young then. Ignorant of the art of story construction and to an extent, I am still ignorant.
Story time over, sort of
It is a combination of factors that lead to this story’s downfall, though I like to think that it was doomed before I even started writing it.
As I mentioned above, the year 2016 was important for me. It was a year of great confusion and great discovery. I learned why I believed the things that I did and how I had to let go of some of my values, while clutching tighter to others, even discovering new ones. 2016 was also a polarizing year politically, so I won’t go into any more detail about that.
By the time 2016 was over, I was supremely disappointed with FW. I was also disappointed in myself for the terrible way I had written it and all the problems that it had. I have played with the notion of rewriting FW, however, I realized early on that the story would be so radically different that it wouldn’t be fair nor right to post it under the same title. Some people read and enjoyed FW for the way that it was and changing it so much, I think, would not be fair to them. Even if FW is a dumpster fire.
That is why I choose to keep FW up, rather than deleting it. If you enjoy what I have written, then good for you. If you didn’t, then I guess you have this. An admission of guilt. Most of your criticisms were criticisms that I had with the story and the writing. FW was flawed, and I truly regret writing and subjecting your eyes to it.
For those of you wondering if you have missed out on any grand story: You have not. As I said before, there was no story to begin with, only a half-formed premise and a poorly executed thought.
Now, will I stop writing altogether? No. FW was a tremendous learning experience for me and in a way, I am glad that this fuck up has allowed me to learn so much about writing and storytelling. However, I won’t be posting on the InfinityArk profile any more. InfinityArk, to me, is a monument to my past, my former innocently oblivious and idiotic self.
I have condemned this account into an archive for those who enjoyed the stories that I wrote all those years ago. It will probably remain that way, for as long as it continues to exist.
I don’t know if I will ever post any of my new writings to any website, let alone fanfiction. But, I have created new accounts with the thought that I might post something. I won’t release the names, simply because I don’t want to, they are not worthy of attention right now anyway.
Well, I suppose that this is the conclusion of this letter. If you have any questions then… well, you will just have to keep them to yourself, because I will not respond. I will not respond to any reviews posted or any private messages. I am done with this account, and I am done with the stories posted on it.
I will also post this letter to my profile.
Thank you for reading.
InfinityArk – Signing out
(P.S. Thank you FractiousDay and all the others who wrote comments in the last year, for annoying me so much that I got up off my fat lazy ass and wrote this.)