Author has written 16 stories for Final Fantasy VII, Kuroshitsuji, Fushigi Yugi: Genbu Kaiden, and Final Fantasy I-VI.
gDeIpVhIrNoEtt, Previously known as gephirotti here in fanfiction.net. I major on the KaiCil (KainxCecil) fandom here, and rule over its angst territory. Currently trying to take over the kink territory too. Sephesis/Gephiroth was my first yaoi ship ever.
Genesis Rhapsodos is one of the few very very special FF characters in my life and as a person - so I wrote Born FREE, a CC novelization in Genesis' POV.
Astrological Sign: Scorpio/Aquarius (you take a guess)
In real life, I suffer from extreme moodiness, being a night person, insanity, OCD, being sadistic, brontophobia, arachnophobia, the obsessiveness to being germ-free, paranoia, and yes, all that nasty stuff.
Age: Two digits. Guess.
Writing Credentials: Nothing, just a student, baking in the oven.
Gender: Whatever you think is best.
I defy a lot of grammar and punctuation rules - just a warning.
Other notes: If you have seen me on any other site, then please note that what's on those other sites stay there. If you think that this is a place where you will get a very warm reception about anything that involves anything else on any other site, then you are terribly mistaken. So if I ignore you (which is rare ) because what happened is similar or exactly to what was stated above, then I will ignore you. Exceptions: deviantart.
If you hadn't noticed already, I'm a very ginormous fan of unreadable usernames/pen-names that even I don't have an idea of how to say them. But if you were thinking I am making up these gibberish-ic names, then you are very very mistaken. I own and make up these names for a reason.
If you hate me or find me annoying, please note that you are free to do whatever you want about it. If you hate me because of my twisted nature or my sadisticness then keep in mind that you are better off than most others.
Night person, extremely moody (unless during night-time), extremely unusual and possibly psychotic,. No, I say I'm just highly unusual. If you happen to find me unbearably weird, don't say you weren't warned. We're all weird here.
Music preferences: Gackt, DBSK/TVXQ, the Gazette, Nobuo Uematsu. Classical music scholar, slightly obsessed with Baroque violin music (especially Bach). I love j-rock and video game music.
Very very very deep Final Fantasy fan, particularly with VII. I shun all other games that are not Final Fantasy (there are A VERY VERY VERY FEW exceptions, including Kingdom Hearts and Chrono)
Loves reading historical fiction/shonen mangas and watching animes around the same genre. I love manga and anime. It's a very dear past-time. And yes, I'm an otaku. A proud one.
Hates coffee and tea. Loves milk and Lychee Juice.
Self-proclaimed EXOtic. Bias in K is...Suho (though I don't know a lot about that) and in M...it's Luhan. But mind you, since I am not part of its fandom, I am not insane. Even then, even if I happened to be part of EXOtic, I still wouldn't be insane. Just because you're an EXOtic doesn't mean you're insane.
A nasty. (Kpoppers, you know what I mean...)
Yunjae is real, but I'm more HoMin biased when it comes to ships...
A Cassie. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH!
A currently inactive Troper.
Hobbies: Bitching about the Final Fantasy franchise, preaching and mantra-ing about LOVELESS, hanging out on dA's Help with Real Life forums, crying on Final Fantasy music and character deaths, yelling as I read fanfics, yelling at the console as I play FF games, fangirling, dying from feels, bitching about noteworthy animes and mangas...
I love reading but I lack imagination so I'm not very good with creating my own ideas. I prefer to narrate video game cutscenes mostly, or novelize something animated.
Views on Homosexuality and Gayness
Though I'm not big into hetero either (with the exception of Zerith, RagikuxGin, CecilxRosa, ZidanexGarnet and others) I don't think homosexuality should be like this in society's view. No one has the right to tell someone who they can like/love/spend their precious time with.
FFVII OTP: Though it's my first ship and my first addiction, Sephesis/Gephiroth is NOT my OTP. It is my favorite ship, because the game has really excellent backing for it. It's romantic, realistic, and very practical. They look perfect together. They really look like two true lovers together - it's not some forced, brutal thing or that, well...
The pairing is truly serious when you approach it. Just look through Crisis Core again...
These are my current thoughts. Though Sephesis/Gephiroth is my favorite ship, my OTP is Zenesis.
Many people think that Sephesis is real just because Seph wasn't violent towards Gen during the game with the many chances he had in front of him. Now please don't hate on me..I also like Sephesis, but that argument is weak. Gen was violent.
Support # 1: Though he revealed the truth to Seph and drove him insane, I think it was a backfire of his original intention to win Sephiroth to his side and join him in his rebellion against the corrupted Shinra, who made them monsters. Sephiroth couldn't understand yet at that point (because he was still with Shinra), so he was confused. But when he did realize it, it was too late, and he reacted in the WRONG way.
And come to think of it, Gen was the ONLY person willing to spill everything to him. Not even Zack had the intention - he kept yelling "shut up" in the reactor scene to Gen.
Support # 2: Gen was a Sephiroth wannabe. Look at the X straps on his top and the shoulder guards on his coat. And no, the black wing isn't part of that. Gen had the black wing FIRST...
Support # 3: "Sephiroth isn't here today...I wonder why?" During that Banora scene, he was surely looking for Seph. Hmm...angry that Shinra sent Zack instead of Sephy, he summons...a Bahamut, which we had to take care of?
Support # 4: The expression Gen had when Sephy said "LOVELESS, Act I", during that Junon scene. And...at the end of that scene when they got back to the training room, there was Sephy's expression when Genny said "Erg, just a scrape". )
Back to Zenesis. It is cute, but at the same time it has the unbelievable, stunning capability of being immune to fluff. That's why it's my OTP.
Support # 1: Genny was chasing him (correction - his copies), Zack, all around the Planet. Wait, that's weak...
Support # 2: That reactor scene where Gen rubs his face, and the expression he gave Zack..?
Support # 3: Genny greets Zack when he finally escaped from the labs. He even used three copies to hold Zack down so he wouldn't escape/try to attack. Isn't that sweet.
Support # 4: That SMILE he gave to Zack during Banora Underground before he morphed into Genesis Avatar. THAT SMILE!!!!! THAT INNOCENT CUTE SMILE!!!!!
Final Fantasy Stuff!
LOVELESS has been my most favorite piece of literature ever since...well, I don't know. And it shall be that way forever. I can recite both the English and Japanese translations. I prefer the Japanese one.
My favorite FF characters are mostly
And no, I won't mention the love triangle. It's a chain reaction. Half of the Kain Highwind Fandom exists just because Rosa rejected him, no matter how much he loved Rosa that he was going to die. I'm a Kairos shipper - but half of Kain's glory would be non-existent if it was Kairos. So, no, Kain being rejected and me pitying him is NOT a reason he is one of my favorite characters. Getting to the point, he is The Lancer (Tropers, you get what I mean)..he struggles and struggles to burn Rosa out of his heart and accept that it's Rosa and Cecil getting together. The feelings that he actually had were strong enough for him to be persuaded to turn evil...but unfortunately not strong enough to shield him against those temptations.
He's that tough, strong guy - quiet, resilient, charismatic, etc.
So, why is he one of my favorite characters? It's because no matter how much we fangirl/fanboy/worship him, he will NEVER ever get overrated like Balthier.
Hmm...Aerith in Crisis Core...she was so sweet. She was the most important person in Zack's life, and was half the reason he kept on living through the torture he faced in Hojo's lab. She was the reason Zack wanted to go to Midgar and escape the army, no matter what the costs. That's it. That's when the tragedy struck her. Zack died trying to protect Cloud from the army, because they were on their way to see Aerith.
Aerith never knew then. She never really got to know the fact that her boyfriend died on his way to see her. And it remained like that for a long time. What strikes me most about Aerith is that despite the tragedy of her past, she wasn't all sad and mopey about it - she remained strong and upbeat. Though Zack was burned out of her heart soon, she still never forgot about him.
Ramza Beoulve for president!!!!
Ramza was a very symbolic character. Though I still couldn't FULLY comprehend the politics and the corruption involved because I was terribly young when I've played Tactics, and there was that danger of my mind being corrupted, but Ramza was always there. Ramza was always there - moral, upright, dignified - no matter how screwed up things were turning out for him and the whole world, no matter how many betrayals he has faced, no matter how he was humiliated, disowned, branded, and stripped he was of his honor and name, no matter how much he was being exposed to the power of the Lucavi and the stones - Ramza was always good. You don't find a lot of people who are like that. He dealt with the pressure, he ignored the corruption, and at the same time he still tried to save the evil ones.
He never turned bad, and he was a sort of metaphor that fought against the people who were falling into evil and corruption - he was reminding us of who those corrupt people used to be; he taught us that you must always stay good and not succumb to your temptations, no matter what you face. Every Chapter, he had different reasons for fighting. And those reasons were changing because things around him were changing. Though his reasons to fight were constantly changing, his main focus remained unchangeable - he kept fighting for good. And so, he became the hero.
Sephiroth, Genesis, and Angeal was carved deep into his being. He has Angeal's legacy, Sephiroth's strength, and uh...I don't know what he got from Gen.
He fought all three of them (two of them in their most powerful forms), meaning that he has surpassed them all. Though he couldn't defeat Sephiroth in the reactor, maybe it was just because of his feelings and the pain and confusion he had to deal with when Seph betrayed them.
Though A,S,G came before him, he was truly the one who had saved the three - correction, two - Cloud did the other one. He didn't go insane (like Gen or Seph) and he didn't try to suicide (like his mentor did) when things were REALLY screwed up for him and his whole life.
It was a death of a real hero.
I hate X-2 and XIII-2. Though I really respect each ff's individuality and its own defining characteristics, these two in particular...are not just to my taste. Having seen and having a fair idea and knowledge of all fourteen FFs, I can tell that XIII-2 is nowhere near what you call "Final Fantasy". About X-2, I just don't like it.
My favorite FF is IV, followed by VII, XII, and IX. Tactics remains something special, because it's my childhood, and...it's not in the main series.
I wasn't really into the original VII game. Though Advent Children was one of the first Final Fantasy stuff I have ever laid my eyes on, and the very thing that reconnected me to FF when I stopped playing, my main reason for saying that VII is one of my favorite FFss is because of Crisis Core.
Crisis Core: I don't care how many copies the original FFVII game sold. I don't care how many prepubescent players cried when Aerith died. I don't care about Cloud's coolness (or so they say). and his big sword (Angeal was the original owner, and then was passed on to Zack, who passed it on to Cloud!) I don't care whether this was branded "The RPG" and the "best game that ever existed".
I DO NOT CARE.
Crisis Core is the ultimate installation of the VII Compilation. It's the best installation that ever existed. Yes, I know, I'm just like everyone else. No one can really deny that Crisis Core was one hell of a game - with an actually excellent story and even more excellent characters to make everything even more excellent.
No one can hate Zack. No matter if it's a psycho with a severely-damaged brain or a clueless baby, NO ONE can hate Zack. And what about the Trinity? CC revealed that Sephiroth, Angeal, and Genesis were the original heroes. They were the people whom Zack looked upon when he was still in training, baking in the oven. And just look. S/A/G/ aren't people who you can easily forget or mistake with any other FF character. Aerith. Sweet, sweet, poor Aerith. I won't delve into this. And THE STORY AND THE PLOT!!! I don't need to explain.
XII has a very different feel and flavor. The story and the plot is epic - it wasn't something I saw with other FFs...I can't really understand why people say this game is horrible. Though I haven't finished the game (I have played a morsel of it, but I gave it up) the characters and the concept was very...different (that's the only word I can think of). The cast - all the individuals in the part - they all had different pasts, they had very few similarities..yet they worked so well. The story - a queen fighting to regain her kingdom through all the corruption - it was different. This was the first FF I saw that actually had a story that was explainable and understandable in the context of the real world (if you get what I mean).
IV. IV, IV, IV. piqjeffsnlkl1380975grS;cj;ozvkfv!!!!!!!!
Then, to IX. I haven't played it, I have only watched a few cutscenes, and I am barely familiar with the story. But I have read a few essays - mostly praising about characters and their development. I do agree, though I don't really know anything. Zidane is a very exemplary and downright admirable character, AND at the same time he has charm and coolness. He's a very great breather for all the previously "Emo", "Amnesiac", "Aloof" protagonists we had from VII and VIII. And there's also Kuja, who is simply fabulous.
Final Fantasy Tactics...even my attachment to Crisis Core cannot rival it. This game is my childhood. This game taught me about corruption, human nature, real life, politics, and basically everything - when I was still at that clueless, careless age. This game was a first for me at pure, thorough strategy and tactics. It taught me a lot about warfare and how to think, how to plan, how to handle things, how to endure treachery, how to overcome the negative feelings when you are betrayed, to never give up, that good will ALWAYS win no matter what, how to manage your resources, how to know whether it's the right time to act or not..it's basically the only FF game that I've finished. It was my first FF, and no words can tell how precious it is to me. I couldn't realize it then, because I was still very very young - and I couldn't understand yet.
I spell it "Aerith", not "Aeris". Because "Aeris" sounds silly.
Cloti and Zerith forever. End of discussion, Zack met her first, and died trying to see her again.
Leading us to...
Pairings that don't make sense and I really hate!
When Zack died, Cloud was traumatized - and he never ever recovered from his friend's death. Zack's memories became his, and the experiments he was forced to go through REALLY screwed up his memory. So, in the spiritual sense, Cloud became Zack.
Then Cloud met Aerith. There was that attraction between them. Why? Though Zack was already burned out of her heart, she never forgot him. She was attracted to Cloud only because he was very much like Zack. Backing? In The Maiden That Travels The Planet, (or whatever the title is, it's long and I don't exactly remember it) Aerith, in the Lifestream, tried to conjure Cloud. But she got Zack. Why? Because Cloud has Zack's memories, Zack's personality, Zack's sword, etc.
Cloud became Zack. Clerith shippers, don't forget that. Zack's death, in the spiritual sense, killed the ORIGINAL Cloud Strife, and Zack's soul used Cloud's body as means to go on living.
Cloud was using Zack's personality and his memories to carve a relationship with Aerith.
So, it's still Zerith! Clerith does not exist, because Cloud was making him fall in love with the person who wasn't even Cloud, but was really Zack.
For Pete's sake! I don't even want to rant about this.
The most valuable and priceless love stories I have ever seen (hetero only!)
#1: Matsumoto x Gin: NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE JUST HOW REAL THIS LOVE STORY IS.
Since childhood, Gin never failed to break Rangiku's heart. His secretiveness and the way he was hiding things really hurt for her, so she followed him to the Shinigami Academy. There, she thought Gin would finally open up to her, but she was wrong. And when his betrayal was already becoming so obvious, she was REALLY getting teared up. And when he actually revealed his allegiance with Aizen...bang. Rangiku's heart was shattered into a zillion pieces...that can never be put all together again, unfortunately.
Why? Why did Gin leave her behind and keep hiding things from her? Why did he join Aizen? Why did he betray Soul Society? Why did he turn his blade against the Shinigami? Why did she confuse and hurt Rangiku's feelings? Why was he hiding things from her? Why did he leave her behind and went on ahead to become a Shinigami?
In the end...it boiled down to one answer. He wanted to protect her - to protect her from everything. He wanted to take revenge against those who nearly killed her by starvation (this was how they met, and Aizen was behind Rangiku's fainting), he wanted to live together with her forever, with no one against them. He saw Aizen's wrongdoings and the way he messed up other people's lives just for the sake of his stupid experiments...and he was REALLY upset. So, he vows to take revenge for Rangiku and kill Aizen for the better good.
Gin passed the training required for a seated officer in only a year. One year. Though he does have a genius intellect, it's necessary to say that it was his strong feelings for Rangiku that enabled him to accomplish such a feat. When he actually did, and when he became captain, he sensed and soon realized that Aizen was going to act soon. By swearing his allegiance to Aizen, he knew his plans and exactly how he would execute him. His genius intellect and his feelings enabled him to manipulate a power that can actually kill Aizen (his power is not magical, it's scientific, so it will work on anything and anyone) - that's why he was training so hard and passed all his classes so easily...and since he was one of the few people who knew of Kyoka Suigetsu's weak points, and who can actually stand up to Aizen, he decided that he would be the one.
He would take the double-agent role. Except that no one must know, for the sake of his success - for the sake of Rangiku's safety. He played the most loyal pawn to Aizen, knowing his plans, his true intentions, his weaknesses, etc.
And when the fateful day of their battle came, it was epic. But unfortunately, he is defeated.
"I'm sorry, Rangiku. In the end, I couldn't give back what I took away from you.."
Those were his last words.
Now this is something. Playing the victim and the traitor, and all the while pretending to be on evil's side...but actually being on the good...Gin was on the good side, but he was never on Soul Society nor on Hueco Mundo's side - he was neutral. He was doing it all for Rangiku. Just for her.
I was DEEPLY moved. Seriously, turning evil, turning his back on everyone, sacrificing his honor and his pride, sacrificing his life, not caring about how people will view him, became the turn-coat, was very misunderstood...all for that woman he truly loved. Now that is what I call true (hetero) love.
Pairings and Ships:
(FF yaoi pairings by order of how much I like them)
Gephiroth/Sephesis ... Zenesis (it's a sort of tie, but Zenesis is my OTP)
(FF HETERO pairings by order of how much I like them)
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