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Due to a case of misfortune, YaoiTora has decided to leave this site. She has decided to give all of you a message that explains her reasoning for leaving and for not coming back.
Quick Note: I decided to rewrite this due to grammar issues that I noticed (not that I cared) but I wanted to write this in a more organized fashion. Not so much like a letter but a little better than I did three months ago. (again not that I cared, just wanna make sure you guys know, however, that I'm not dead.) I want to reply better to those that have hurt my feelings in the past and maybe leave on good terms rather than bad terms. (Not that it'll make anything better.)
Hello, Readers and Fans of my stories,
No, I am not dead I didn't comply to the orders/commands of those who have commented that I should kill myself. I would never ever do that. I just wanted you to know that and I wanted to make sure that you all weren't worried about me. Back in January, I wrote a letter kind of thing (this is similar but much more up-to-date) and I got private messages here and there asking me where my stories are now. I will only tell you that unless you message me. So, if you want to read or continue reading my stories please private message me.
As I've already mentioned, I have left. I only came back to update this letter. (Because the last one was a little out dated.) Okay I guess you can say I haven't really left, I just thought that the last bio-message was all over the place that's all. I wasn't really putting effort into it anyway. I don't understand why I care - oh wait, my fans! That's why!
I want to apologize to those few fans that have messaged me and told me that they were sorry because there are such rude and inconsiderate people on this site. Don't apologize for them. They don't deserve. I won't forgive them anyway. I'm sorry, however, that because they have to be rude and disrespectful that I have to leave such awesome people like you and delete stories that you all love. I apologize for that.
Let's move on to my reasons for leaving shall we? I am leaving because I absolutely refuse to be treated like crap because of writing yaoi fan fiction. I can't keep brushing off the harassment even though it's not constant. It's still considered so. The comments I've received have been rude and hateful. I will not stand for it. I know I said that I would succumb myself to becoming just a reader. I've read so many stories it's really hard to find new ones to read.
I want to say thank you to those who have been so, so, so, so, so kind. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I'm happy that you've stuck with me for five - what would have been six - years! I never really thought about it but it would have been my sixth anniversary on Fanfiction.net. Interesting how time flies. Too bad I can celebrate it though. I've cut all ties except for answering a private message from fans.
I'm not sad for leaving. I think it's the mature thing to do since people just don't understand me or haven't even tried being my friend or whatever. I wish that I could continue on this site - writing that is - but I can't without getting hated for it. I don't want to be called gay when I am straight. I don't want to be accused of homophobia because sometimes I do get uncomfortable with the kissing but that's the same for every couple in the world - in reality. And yet, I am called a disgusting virgin fag and I am told to kill myself.(I know I repeated myself but I've been told this three times in my five years on this site, it's sickens me.) I even had a reviewer tell me they were going create a fake cyber army to destroy the evil that is yaoi from fan fiction. Yes, I will copy and paste this story and redo it so that it is normal or whatever. But he also admitted that he sucked at language arts in general and he was too lazy.
First off, the stories I post are mine and my alone. The characters belong to the genius that created the anime Naruto and Naruto Shippuden! AND the very existence of Sasuke and Naruto being a couple. Yes, I said it. The apparent taboo. Sasuke, Naruto and couple in the same sentence. OMG THE WORLD HAS COME TO AN END. Sorry, that's reality. Second, I'm pretty sure fan fiction is still copy-righted because I remember that it was me, YaoiTora, who wrote "A Slayer's Confidant" A story I had once posted on this dumb site. Third, your grammar, spelling, and English/Language Arts in general sucked when you were commenting on the story. Just saying. I'm not going to assume what ethical background you have. I'll just be stooping down to your level - making an ass of myself - like you did. That's not my agenda. I have problems myself with my English because I fluently speak and currently I am typing to fast and I end up spellings things wrong and screwing stuff up - that's understandable.
I don't know about you but throughout my time on FF.net I've developed a pet-peeve where if you can't spell things write in comments, you shouldn't comment at all. Maybe if you spelled things write then I'd listen to you. I'm not calling out those who do not have English as their first language. That, I am willing to just completely ignore. I actually will understand what you're saying. Trust me, it's a life long struggle for us folks with English as their first language. No Joke.
Anyway, what's normal? What is freaking normal in this world? I consider being gay normal, how about you? I consider being autistic normal, how about you? I consider being left handed, African American (American, Japanese, etc.), being Catholic (and other religions), and whatever else in this world - normal, how about you? Do not tell me that being homosexual, bisexual, asexual, pansexual - or any other freaking sexualities aren't normal! Do not tell me that being homosexual is a sin. Do not tell me that you will copy and paste what is MINE - with consideration that the characters belong to someone else - and make it normal. Do not tell that that you'll create a stupid cyber army that will destroy the evil that is yaoi from fanfiction. Lastly, do not tell me that yaoi - gay - or whatever you can possible call this type of sexuality - EVIL. It is NOT.
I'm pretty sure I lost so many brain cells. God. I consider pretty much everything normal because it's part of life. LIFE. What I don't consider normal is that the littlest things such as two men kissing and two women causing a freaking stick to grow in your assholes and as you continue to bad-mouth and insult these people that stupid stick just keeps getting larger and well, it's so painful that you have to take it out on people being gay.
That sickens me. Seriously. It does. I am in no way shape or form homophobic. I mean...two guys kissing, hey it's hot. Apparently, there's something wrong with me when I say that because I was called a virgin fag and I was told to again kill myself. Honestly, if you can't come to terms with being gay yourself don't take it out on me. I'm not in anyway possible gay.
BTW, the term gay - I don't like using the other terms for it because I personally think they are all insulting even though I'm not gay -is usually referred toward males and the term lesbian is usually referred to women. Homosexual means to be in a relationship with the same sex. I normally don't like repeating myself but to emphasis how many times I was called that... I will. Anyway, considering since I'm a woman I would be considered a lesbian IF I was - which I AM NOT - homosexual.
Just to throw out, I like getting criticism. I like getting constructive criticism. I manage to try to take the advice I am given. But even though I have been on this site for five years with in those five years I've been confronted with so much stupid bull.
And okay sure I've only ever written yaoi fan-fiction. I've grown used to it. Now I've decided to expand my horizons and write boyxgirl fan fiction or girl x girl fan fiction. Does that still make me a virgin fag? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! That's funny. Um no it doesn't.
I've been nice, I've been polite, I've been sad, I've been angry, annoyed and now I am just plain fed up with all this b.s. Not doing it anymore. I like other pairings too. I just have so many ideas with Sasuke and Naruto I just have to write them down. If you people can deal with what I like then I won't deal with you. I've dealt with it for five years and every year I end up hating fanfiction and never wanting to write on it again.
People have told me my stories suck and I wondered why. Are they jealous? Are they homophobic? Are they just coming on to my profile just to be rude in general? Well, I don't want anything on my profile anymore. That's why I've decided to take down all my stories and just be a reader. That way I don't have to deal with this anymore. Harsh reviews are allowed? Hmph! Yeah, then you just support cyber bullying obviously. Nice fanfiction.net, nice.
Well, I won't be dealing with that crap. I think cyber bullying is stupid. You want to be cowards and not say things in my face. Fine. Good for you. Words don't hurt me as much as you think. At first, maybe they hurt, but as life goes on, they don't kill me, they only make me stronger.
Let me tell you about me. And that's not something you're getting out of. Anyway, my name is YaoiTora. I will not tell you my real name because I don't want to and though some already know my name - my real name anyway. Not the point. I'm an aspiring fanfiction writer. I currently write stories associated with yaoi. I've done that for five years now and within those five years people have either been extremely nice to me or really really rude. When I first came on this site, I was welcomed with open virtual arms. I was excited to upload my first fanfiction which was the first part of the original Uchiha Yuuki Series, December 21st. Some liked it and some didn't and after that I was finished with the story and decided to create a squeal. The sequel...some liked some hated it. And well truth be told I started to believe that it was no good. Well, I rewrote the second part of the Uchiha Yuuki Series, "Uchiha Yuuki" and I plan to bring it back to this site. Maybe. Just to warn you.
Then I decided to write the third squeal and it didn't work out with all three so I got rid of them. Now, I am bringing them back and I don't give two rats butts about how you people will or would think of them. Then I decided to write Jinchuuriki which I rewrote because I realized how badly written it was and how incredibly short the chapters were despite the author's notes. From there I wrote Disney crossovers with Naruto like the little mermaid and Aladdin. Plan on bringing those back as well once I proofread them and well add more detail and stuff. I also did a crossover with Princess Protection Program. The only problem I really had with that story was the word "said". I've also had people tell me I needed a beta which I stubbornly refused to get because I didn't know anyone on this site, I wasn't friends with anyone on this site and well, yeah. I just didn't want a beta, at all.
As time went on, I wrote a story called Murder Romance. I don't remember why this story sucked but I just couldn't continue it anymore because people were being so rude about it.
If anyone would like to truly understand me. Yes, your words hurt me more than ever. I've cried many times before and now...now I just laugh and tell myself I am not gay. I am straight as a god damn board and you people don't know me or haven't even stop to think and ask yourself "Is this person gay?" No, I am not. I know people who are gay. I have a friend that's gay. My boyfriend's cousin is gay and has a partner - point is just because I write yaoi fanfictions doesn't mean that I am gay. It really doesn't.
Besides the recent crap, I've dealt with. One reviewer told me that my boyfriend - a male, straight - was probably cheating on me. Uh no he is not. We've been together since April of 2014 - for three years and we have not once have had problems like that. So don't give me shit that's not true. And a little news flash, we're not friends so don't give me any stupid nicknames like doll.
I had to delete that because it was repeated. I didn't realize it. So, I was looking through my messages. They were all in my outbox so really they were the messages I sent to people that have reviewed to me. As I was surfing through, I've gotten told to stop writing. Funny because I haven't and I won't. I was told that because I wrote an Aladdin version of Naruto this person reported me and the pairing for it was NaruSasu - the apparent taboo.
Get over yourselves. This person also had the gull to call me a waste of human space, a stupidness as, and told me to stop writing. I replied to that comment already but he's a better reply: Get yourself a new hobby other than hurting people's feelings and making them feel like crap. Just because I like writing and I decided to write the story doesn't make me a bad person. Especially if I said that I don't own the story like to Aladdin and I don't own the characters to Naruto. Also, calling me stupid and a waste of human space only makes YOU an even bigger ass and even bigger waste of human space yourself.
I've tried reporting people who have given me these horrible comments but I just never really knew how and they it said that harsh reviews are allowed and whatever. It's not fair to me. It's not fair to other authors.
I just wanted to write this little letter on my profile because I feel like if you read this you'll see what who I am. If you even read it. :P I don't care. It was something I felt was important to me that I get it through to all your thick heads that I really don't want to be called gay or homophobic. Yes, well recently a reviewer - a guest - decided to tell me that I supported homophobia and tell me that I said something insulting.
Well, guess what, I don't support homophobia. I don't even think it actually exists. It's just a word people hide behind because reality is so freaking below them. Plus they have a stick up their butts so deep it's really hard to get it out.
I'm not stupid, whiny, bitchy, a bitch or an asshole. To the one who called me that. Why didn't you just leave? You're the pathetic one if you just had to be a whiny bitchy asshole to me. *snort*
Not so Sincerely,
P.S: To anyone that has been through the same problems I went through, I will always have your backs. It's my way of saying thank you for having mine.
Final Notes: Whether I decide to come back to FF.net or not is entirely my choice. I'm not concerned with comments, favorites, and reviews anymore. I'm more concerned with how people treat others and the lack of respect. Harsh reviews shouldn't be allowed when they use the term "fag" and the phrase "go kill yourself". That's not criticism.
Thank you for reading this message. YaoiTora apologizes for her suddenness in leaving. She does not want to deal with abuse any longer. You may think that this is childish but this is her choice - the choice she made for herself not because you drove her away.
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