I am just a girl in love with words

Poetry is my first love

I live to dream and I dream to live

I am by no means an expert on words, just in love with them. I am not a writer by profession nor have a degree in writing. Though I have dabbled in writing poetry and haiku.

I am a dreamer at heart, realist at best, pessimist as needed.

I love the written word, be it books or fanfictions. Not just because I want to escape reality but because, there is no limit to what imagination and words can do. They open up alternate universes and second chances. A retelling of a different story. A heartfelt desire for something more, something better, something that was out of reach before. Other times, it's an outlet for creativity, may it be a passing whim, an itch that needed to be scratched, an errant thought translated to a story, a stroke of inspiration.

I bow to the geniuses who write fiction that could rival the original and seem as if they have made up a whole new world. I bow to those who write prose like poetry, with beautiful words that tug the heartstrings. I bow to those whose ideas leave me thinking, those who make me look forward to the next updates, those whose updates make me smile. I bow to those who write for the love of it.

This is my attempt to have my way with words, to write as if I were writing my own story.

Some of My Favorite Book Quotes - why I believe in the power and wisdom of words

If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him. Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering. ― Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane.
― John Green, Looking for Alaska

As he read, I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

When you go into the ER, one of the first things they ask you to do is rate your pain on a scale of one to ten, and from there they decide which drugs to use and how quickly to use them. I'd been asked this question hundreds of times over the years, and I remember once early on when I couldn't get my breath and it felt like my chest was on fire, flames licking the inside of my ribs fighting for a way to burn out of my body, my parents took me to the ER. nurse asked me about the pain, and I couldn't even speak, so I held up nine fingers.

Later, after they'd given me something, the nurse came in and she was kind of stroking my head while she took my blood pressure and said, "You know how I know you're a fighter? You called a ten a nine."

But that wasn't quite right. I called it a nine because I was saving my ten. And here it was, the great and terrible ten, slamming me again and again as I lay still and alone in my bed staring at the ceiling, the waves tossing me against the rocks then pulling me back out to sea so they could launch me again into the jagged face of the cliff, leaving me floating faceup on the water, undrowned. ― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

My sister will die over and over again for the rest of my life. Grief is forever. It doesn't go away; it becomes a part of you, step for step, breath for breath. I will never stop grieving Bailey because I will never stop loving her. That's just how it is. Grief and love are conjoined, you don't get one without the other. All I can do is love her, and love the world, emulate her by living with daring and spirit and joy.― Jandy Nelson, The Sky is Everywhere