Author has written 6 stories for Supernatural.
Antlerish. 22. Cold-blooded American female.
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-I am a Christian; despite my swearing-sailor internal voice, despite my shortcomings, despite maybe not being salt and light very well. I am loved by my precious Savior, and can only attempt to return and reflect that love.
-Introvert extraordinaire. I enjoy getting out and doing things with my people, but after that I need to be left alone for a while.
-Named my car Garth Fitzgerald V, after Garth Fitzgerald IV, who is a literal ray of sunshine and should have been in more episodes.
-Besides my ferocious love of SPN, I also enjoy Sherlock, Lord of the Rings, Doctor Who, Firefly, The Walking Dead, Marvel.
-The internet is one of my favorite things, but it does tend to bring out aspects of my personality that I would prefer remain dormant, so I have to be careful of what I say sometimes. I get angry about petty things sometimes (when my favorites are attacked for example) and mostly just need to keep my damn mouth shut about it because sometimes I say mean things and then I hate myself for it.
About my writing:
-I don't really ship. (except Megstiel. I shipped that so hard) Having romance in my own life is enough for me thanks, and I prefer to explore and read/write about weird, codependent, messed up brother relationships. Occasionally some of my writing will feature interactions between the brothers that some people might interpret as "more than brothers", but that is never my intention. I believe the Winchesters have a relationship that sort of transcends "normal" relationships. They are co-dependent, but in a way that I think can be beautiful and special. They are each others everything, and that is it- plain and simple. Soul mates in the purest sense of the term. That kind of closeness often brings about odd thought patterns, I've found, and so sometimes when you have a relationship like that you sometimes think about things differently, more intimately, than most people in that relationship would, and that's okay, and that's how I like my Winchesters.
-I edit all my own work, and it's never proof-read by anyone except me, so if there's glaring mistakes please feel free to (kindly) let me know. I tend to be a bit of a grammar-police, but everyone makes mistakes.
My Controversial Statements:
-I hate Destiel with a burning passion that will never die. I dislike everything about it, but there is enough drama and hate already in the fandom, so I refuse to argue this point as vehemently as I refuse to accept it.
-The only thing wrong with Wincest is the incest. Take away the sexual, the romantic, and what you're left with is a generally more emotional version of canon, which I am totally on board with. These guys need each other with every fiber of their being, but not perversely. Never perversely. They are my OTP: Agape. (look that word up [the love version of it]- it's gloriously beautiful)
-I am a bitter Sam girl, and that will probably never change. I love Dean, but I hate him. It's hard to explain. I don't wanna argue about him. He's a bastard, and doesn't deserve someone as forgiving as Sam. He is so terribly broken, so desiring of the right thing, but won't stop making bad decisions, because really he's just afraid. My heart breaks for him.
-"The Talk" at the end of The Purge... is probably one of the most talked about controversial moments. Here's my thoughts. I'll be brief. Sam was right. Sam had every right/reason to say exactly what he did. He was right to set the boundaries that he did, to express the hurt he was feeling. He was right. (I can't say it enough) That said, what he was doing in that situation is the exact thing that people like me do. When hurt, lash out. Hurt that person as quickly and harshly as they hurt you. It's almost a subconscious reaction. I recognized that trait in Sam so suddenly and violently that it rocked my perspective of this man clean off the tracks. (I think I just made up a really weird analogy) But yeah. My point being, when Sam said "No, Dean, I wouldn't do the same thing." What he was actually saying was "No, Dean, if you were dying and ready to go, I wouldn't kick your feelings and bodily autonomy to the curb, and do something I know you would hate, and basically allow you to be violated, even though you've had a long wretched history involving possession and evil entities taking control of you." But that's not how it sounded, and he did that on purpose. He knew how Dean would take it, and he let him take it the wrong way, because he was hurt, and was clearly not about to get any sort of understanding or apology from Dean. It's exactly what I would have done. So, no, Sam Winchester is not perfect. Far from it. But I understand him, and he's right.
Works that are Finished:
Pathetic- also a post-season 8, AU I guess, considering how things really went down. Sick!Sam and Domestic!Dean. All fluff and sweetness.
Really Really Gross, Sam- Season 1-2 one-shot. Slight Hurt!Sick!Sam, sort of FreakedOut!Dean and of course some good old Awesome!Bobby
Lana- Tag to 9x19-Alex Annie Alexis Ann. Little bro-ment because I needed one (or a thousand) after the season 9 finale.
Numb- Early season 7. Four part piece. Loooots of angst. And schmoop. And teddy bear Bobby. A little bit OOC, probably because I was dealing with some crap when I wrote it and had a lot of emotions running rampant through me, and that translated.
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