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Author has written 22 stories for Digimon, Dragon Ball Z, Slayers, Fanfiction Poetry, One Piece, and Naruto.
Welcome to my profile. My real name is a secret, but my alias is Ascaisil. I'm now 27, a stay at home wife and soon-to-be mother. And when I say soon I mean...lemme count...24 days soon. If he comes on time. He might be early apparently, but I told him not to try that since I want to at least wait for my mom to be here with me before doing the whole labor and birth thing. Huh, sorry, just got distracted. Anyway! The point of that little rant was that I will soon have absolutely no time for writing of any kind, which completely sucks because I am addicted to it. I love the English language and find writing to be not only fun, but also a great stress relief. It's been very frustrating the last few months; I haven't managed to write a thing in...ugh. I don't want to even think of how long it's been.
But when I do write it's mostly comedy/romance, (I'm a big wuss and hate horror.) I tend to be attached to couples that have a "love-hate" relationship; I don't know why, those are just the characters I end up loving the most. I have realized however (to my everlasting shame,) that I'm a closet romantic. Like, the cheesy kind even. Oh the shame! I am especially addicted to the Mercy Thompson series recently. The writing is amazing, the characters are awesome, and the romantic aspect satisfies my silly closet fan-girl-iness without being absurdly fluffy. It's a great series; you should go read it.
Ah, what I was saying about the English language...I love it, I really do. There is something so satisfying in reading or writing a piece of literature (no matter the size or depth) that I just don't have the words to explain it. I don't have any aspirations of become a published author or anything like that, but how writing makes me feel is why I ask for the input of anyone who chooses to read my stories. I want to improve. I want to become better then what I am. So please don't be afraid to tell me what I do wrong. I am extremely grateful to anyone and everyone who does!
In general I'm a quiet person by nature, but I still really enjoy getting PMs from people, so I also encourage anyone to drop me a line at any time. I know I'm soon going to be very busy, but I promise to always get back to you if you write to me. Just have a little patience. :)
As for the stories that are currently in existence...pretty much everything is on hiatus at this point. At first it was just writer's block, but then I got preggo and it's been a difficult one; now we're on the last home stretch before Cid is born (yes, to anyone who is wondering, we named our firstborn after a Final Fantasy character. That's just how me and my hubby roll, ha ha!) and I don't feel like I can string more then a few words together before my brain short circuits and I'm left thinking "um...what was I talking about again?" (seriously, it's taken me like, 20 minutes just to write this profile.) My husband and I call this "pregnancy brain" and it is the bane of my authoring existence. Basically I don't know when I will start writing again, and you have my sincerest apologies for that. To anyone who is waiting for an update I can only say - don't wait. Consider me gone and forget about my stories. That way, when I someday am able to start updating again, it'll be like reading them for the first time.
I apologize most especially for those waiting on 'Crazy.' I didn't feel like it was going where I wanted. Or, (more accurately) I didn't know where I wanted to go. I had a vague plan but was going from chapter to chapter and I don't like that. You guys have all been so amazing and supportive of me, I feel like you deserve better. So in addition to being on hiatus 'Crazy' is going to get a full re-write. I know that I've improved a lot since I first started it, and I hope to continue improving. Someday I'll have a story worth presenting to you guys, but I don't know when that will be. All I can say is that I promise I won't give up on it. This isn't the end, it's the beginning, and all that. Regardless, I do appreciate those who periodically PM me and ask about it; it lets me know you guys really do care and I'm so grateful for that. You guys are the best!
And once more I add this: please, pleaseDon't read anything written before 2009! My old stories are so crappy and terrible that I'd be ashamed if you read it! The only reason I haven't deleted them is because of a promise I made to my best friend, so please, please, please don't look at them. I can not even describe how horrible they are!
And, since I have mentioned that promise several times already, I feel I should clarify.
My best friend is like, a goddess of fanfiction. She's amazing and brilliant and could become a published author no problem; her imagination and creativity are just awe inspiring for me. She's seriously amazing in a way that I can't even begin to describe. The best I can do is liken her to Scheherazade, the Persian queen with the One Thousand and One Nights.
Anyway, I am in possession of the only existing copy of her first written work...which is kinda like owning the treasure of the lost arc, or the holy grail, for her fans. (Me included.) But she, for some insane reason, thinks her old work is terrible and has (literally) burned every other copy. Erased, deleted, gone forever...except for the one I have.
Being the wonderfully glorious supreme being that she is, (She's like a Jedi Master to my padawan,) she tries to encourage me in my writing, and tells me loving lies about how good my first stories were. To get to the point, I told her I was going to delete it all, quit writing and take up embroidery or something silly like that, (which I still did. Embroidery is actually very relaxing, ha ha ha!.) in order to spare the world the lameness of my imagination. This is what she told me, "If you take down those stories I will break into your house, find my old stuff and burn it! If I can't destroy my first stories then neither can you!"
I admit I paraphrased; it was a really long time ago when this happened. But that was the basic gist of it.
So...I am forbidden from deleting things from my account, because it is her most reliable way of making sure that I don't secretly destroy it behind her back. Thus, I am forced to beg and plead with any who listen to never, ever read it! Please! Please, please, please! I'm not trying reverse psychology here! (And yes, I have been accused of that before.) I really, genuinely, don't want anyone to ever look at those stories again!
So there you have it; the promise is finally out in the open. You now know why I am so insistent that nobody look at anything written before 2009. (Though, re-reading some of that I'm like "yuck. maybe I should say no one should read anything written before 2011.") Many people have told me to just delete it if it's such a big deal to me...I can't. I would if I could, but I can't. Le sigh.