Author has written 25 stories for Xenogears, Lord of the Rings, Dissidia: Final Fantasy, and Final Fantasy VII.
JAN 25, 2015: I'm back with another chapter! My email had a problem and I didn't get to receive the more recent of your wonderful reviews, so apologies if I failed to reply. Thank you for your patience and continued support!
JUNE 17, 2013: Those who feel the need to verbally abuse me for ruining your happy picture of LOTR characters, please feel free to move onto happy stories. Your hatred of darkness will not make it cease to exist, and art deals with all parts of life, including the chaos and misery. I can promise you that I do not use darkness as cheap plot devices, and explore the dark corners of reality that I loathe, daring to express it and through it, some hope and heroism despite it all, through my humble pen. If you still don't like it, I fully respect your opinion, but if you can't be bothered to actually read the whole thing, you cannot expect me to take your flaming seriously.
FEB 17, 2009: Posted Epilogue of The Dance of Shadow and Flame. Thus comes my darkest journey to an end. Thank you, dear readers.
FEB 8, 2009: Posted Chapter 14 of The Dance of Shadow and Flame. The 'final spur' is becoming something of a limping marathon, wrought with hospitals, deaths, accidents, illnesses. Do bear with me. Meanwhile, I am re-reading every single review I have received on this site; I am elated to see readers and I sharing the same joy, sorrow, fear, excitement. I know not many of you are left now, it being quite post-LOTR in the 2009, but to all who have once walked with me in my journeys, thank you. And to all who are with me now, thank you. Just as my young Legolas says - I shall fear no evil (be it illness, fatigue, lack of confidence, whatever.)
JAN 10, 2009: A FAQ for readers and reviewers who have read, have waited for, and continue to read my works.
Q. Which story was the easiest, and which the most difficult, to write?
A. Every story is a bloody mess, but dark stories are hard, because I plunge deeply. Little Legolas stories were relatively easy, namely The Strength of One Green Leaf ; I was new to English fanfiction, and had no idea of the challenges I would later make up for myself - I was just itching to tell a story. Maybe that fearless enthusiasm can be accredited for the overwhelming reception and awards that story received in contrast to my later, darker fics. My greatest personal trial was To Love and to Sin, as it opposed every fiber of my usual self - happy endings, chaste love, perfect father and just ruler, blah blah. And because my tales all come from a deep place inside of me, in addition to tiptoing around the balance of how much to reveal and conceal in a taboo topic, I struggled momentuously every step of the way as I spun my darkest tale yet.
Q. Tell us about your characters - your favorite, easiest to write, hardest to write, how you characterize them, etc.
A. In the movies, the elf - the oldest and most experienced of the Fellowship minus Gandalf - was surprisingly inconspicuous. Pondering this, I began to construct his history, resulting in The Strength of One Green Leaf. Although I touch on other characters, my stories are all segments of my Greenleaf Chronicles. As for Thranduil, persistent winner of most-popular-elf award in my stories, I know next to nothing about him canonically. As for characterization, I step into each character, good or bad; currently I'm unearthing some pretty ugly stuff in The Dance of Shadow and Flame, but I believe it's through ugliness that true noble qualities shine. Speaking of which, that story may yet end up beating To Love and to Sin in darkest-story award...
Q. Stories or comments about readers and reviewers?
Before my 2-year-break from English fanfiction, I had some very consistent reviewers, whom I was quite attached to. One of them and I got into a squabble over difference in political opinion, but we hugged (in a manner of speaking) and all was well. I get quite attached to people, even online. And I get the silent treatment, disgruntled comments, or flames when I explore taboo topics or portray relationships in a novel light. I was rather stressed by the responses to my Imladris-centric fics, but my Glorfindel and Erestor's relationship did not suffer alterations; I'm stubborn. And I even look back at that fondly. By all means, I do appreciate all comments, be it wordless drooling, biting criticism, or just a 'hi'.
Q. Plans for upcoming stories?
After my present story - a a backdrop to my next story - I will pick up where I left off in From Twilight to Dawn. The upcoming tale will return to Legolas and Thranduil's struggles before a dark past returned, entwined with Erestor and Glorfindel's quiet steps toward salvation, or so to speak. I have more tales lined up, so if readers will stay with me, I have quite a journey ahead of me still.
Q. What are your biggest challenges in writing?
Switching between languages resets me on a blank slate every time. And I like to challenge myself to experimenting with different styles, as seen in my Imladris fics versus Mirkwood fics. The Dance of Shadow and Flame was the furthest extreme in my experiment with abstract lyricism, and amidst that I lost 8 years' worth of writing in one computer failure, whose consequent despair led to failure to return to English fanfiction for two years. Within those years I was trained in college to follow the trendy, dry-cut style; and now, returned as a little Hemingway factory, I face the challenge of gliding back into my most anti-Hemingway narrative. I can't believe I wrote with such passionate honesty, all those innocently emotional stories. In an age of cynicism, where it's cool to be sardonic and not cool to be emotional or sentimental, I now struggle to regain the sensitivity I've been taught to cast away in shame.
NOV 28, 2008: Chapter 4 of Dance of Shadow and Flame posted. Yes, at last I have returned to Fanfiction Net. My sincerest gratitude to all ye readers who have waited for me and given me encouragement through reviews, emails and PM's. Please enjoy!
FEB 3, 2007: Forgive me for the rant. I don't know why I'm sad for a little thing like this. It was just a small review with a hateful remark left on the review page, among other reviews that overwhelmed me with kindness and openmindedness. I suppose I am growing up, and begin to tire of resisting those who want me to divide my world into a black and white worldview according to their liking. I am surprised to find myself tempted to give up and say, "This is NOT slash, ok? Get on with it." I constantly remind myself that my characters are not 2-dimensional and should be treated better - but with my limited skills of writing, and narrowmindedness, I am always struggling to hold on to my initial conviction - or even hope of even bringing my visions to life in a convincing manner. If I do not, I will have failed, becoming nothing but a hypocrite who claims that she has created a butterfly when she has only envisioned one and succeeded in creating a worm.
I am probably just as squareheaded as any other flamer out there. Forgive me for my narcissistic rants.
AUG 24, 2006: My Erestor and Glorfindel seem notorious for making readers edgy. They are once again causing unease amongst some readers in my newest work, Dance of Shadow and Flame. Please note that the category is Drama/Angst, not Romance. I will not define their reltionship in terms of sexual labels; as a similar controversy has been stirred up during my posting of Tears of Yesterday, please read my thoughts on this below.
MAY 3, 2005:To Live Another Day nominated for MEFA Awards.
APRIL 21, 2005: Nominated for Parma Eruseen Awards.
Best Plot/Concept: The Strength of One Green Leaf
Best Study of a Character Through Multiple Works: Kasmi Kassim, Legolas
Best Chaptered Story: The Strength of One Green Leaf
FEBRUARY 13, 2005: The Strength of One Green Leaf won the Flame of Anor Award for Best Action/Adventure.
JULY 26, 2004: I think a written work is like a tree. You can either relax and enjoy the rustling of the unfamiliar leaves, or back away thinking it's poison ivy.
Cultures and eras change and perceptions change with them. Does Aragorn not kiss Boromir before his death in the movie? Does Legolas not mention being bound by love to Aragorn? In one culture, people of the same gender who hold hands, hug, and sleep together are good friends, while in another culture they are homosexual partners. The thin ice I tread is the modern Western culture of homophobia. If you think I am straddling the rope between "friendship" and "romance", I daresay you are creating an imaginary rope; though not a "romance", my characters' relationships cannot be defined as "friendship" if it would restrict them from being intimate. Please, do not draw a line based on your own values when reading a story written by someone else and tell them that they are crossing your line, which did not, does not, and hopefully will not have to exist to them just to please the reader. I daresay it's not the way I wrote it, but the way you are reading it. If you feel that my tree is poison ivy, you are free to leave its shade and walk away. But please do not expect me to dig up the roots to explain myself to your satisfaction, or to disguise my tree to make it look more like a tree you are familiar with. If you have qualms about male friendships in my story, I suggest reading Someone Reading's review of Tears of Yesterday, ch. 9, SakuraSun's review of chapter 11, and Chloe Amethyst's review of Chapter 12.
JULY 18, 2004: Some readers expressed discomfort regarding Erestor and Glorfindel's relationship in Tears of Yesterday. Though slash was not my intention, I am unwilling to give assurances, because I believe art should be free to reside outside one's sphere of analysis and comfort zone. I won't draw a boundary and define my work by saying 'they're just friends' or 'this is slash'. Trust me and please relax, judgments and inhibitions cast aside for a moment.
JULY 1, 2004: The Strength of One Green Leaf nominated for MPA Awards in Best Action/Adventure.
-Timeline to Kasmi's GREENLEAF CHRONICLES-
Dance of Shadow and Flame
Tears of Yesterday
The Strength of One Green Leaf
Of Elflings and Adolescents - In the Dark of the Night - Trolls and Oliphaunts
A Winter Evening in Imladris
Of Overgrown Dwarves and Lembas - Pondering Beauty
To Love and to Sin -> Golden Sun, Silver Moon -> From Twilight to Dawn -> Road to Redemption
Into the Light
Beasts of Burden
To Live Another Day
I Will Not Let You Fall
Cry Not for the Moon
At the Shore
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