Author has written 17 stories for Stargate: Atlantis, Harry Potter, Teen Titans, How I Met Your Mother, 3 Idiots, MacGyver, and Avengers.
2012, To me Fanfiction is a double-edged sword. It can lift you up or throw you over and burry you in an avalanche of your own bad habbits. It is a way to express your deepest feelings and portray who you would want to be in life if you had the strength to pull off what your or other writers' characters pulled off or it is a way to be sucked into the darkness of lust and sadism that poisons your mind. The internet puts the responsibility for your actions squarely on you as there are no barriers to stop you from reading or writing things 'for your own good'. In a way this is very good, since we have to learn to controle our thoughts and actions, but on the other hand it takes a great deal of effort to make the right choices.
I will always love fanfiction, because I know self-expression is one of the main keys to personal growth. I understand now though, that building your own barriers is essential in order to enjoy this amazing form or art.
2013, another year of amazing self discovery began. My most recent obsession: MacGyver. Maybe the most ingenious show of all times. A modest, kind hearted, self less man who puts everything on the line to help others. He uses his very well disguised genius mind to resolve impossible situations and absolutely hates gun and violence. Where are heros like that today?
2014, genius really is the most attractive feature in any charter, especially when coupled with deep caring for others. My latest obsessions on this platform are Avengers (Tony Stark), Sherlock Holmes with Robert Downey Jr., and the British TV show Sherlock. The characters of Tony Stark and Sherlock Holmes both display an amazing level of genius that they use help and protect the ones they love. To me there is no greater plot device.
2015, the years keep streaming by, I have hit the 30 mark in my life. My latest obsession is with my own self. I have discovered that my mind needs to travel to far away lands and merge into plots that are heart wrenching and full of self sacrifice. I have tried to stay away from this medium and from the thoughts and day dreams of heroism. I have managed to stay away for 6 days before the desire to get back in was too overwhelming and I opened up fanfiction once again. This is a serious addiction that I am confessing to. It is the addiction of me being unable to stay present in my own life because I desperately need to feel the tingling sensations of self sacrificing characters, wishing somehow that I could be them. I am fighting with it and I want to get myself off of this overwhelming drug. I want to be present in my life at all times and feel good about who I am without having to escape into fantasy. I know I am not alone in this endeavor and I want to encourage all who feel this rings true for them, to step back, take a breath and say "I love myself and my life and I don't need to escape". Good luck with that, who ever you are, I am having a hard time but I am working with it. :)
I am Christine, and these are my thoughts.
my quote list, some English, some German:
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere. – Albert Einstein
Denn die beste Möglichkeit, die Zukunft vorauszusagen, ist sie zu gestalten. – Joseph Beuys (translation: the best way to predict the future is to design it.)
"There can be no happiness if the things we believe in are different from the things we do."
Volunteer work is a „happy drug“ - me
"Ist der Herr Gesangsverein ein Verwandter von Holla der Waldfee?" - unknown (sorry, translation will make no sense, it's a saying: who the heck is Holla the fairy from the woods?)
"I’m going to become immortal….or die trying" - unknown
"European Pacifist…beacuse war is overrated…" - me
"Bussy finding my center" - me
"Niemand sieht mir an wie verwirrt ich wirklich bin" - unknown (translation: no one can tell how confused I really am)
"life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain."
"Manche Menschen gehen im Rege, andere werden nur nass." (some people walk in rain, others just get wet)
"A line is a dot that went for a walk." – Paul Klee
"Even when you are on the right track you get run over when you just sit there."
Warum gibt es Gesetze Herr Professor? „Weil der Mensch will, dass er etwas soll, Frau Kollegin!“ (translation: "why do we have laws professor?" "Because people desire to be guided.")
"It’s easier to leave than to be left behind"
I will my life to charge, with godly will I will it charge, through my nerves and muscles all, my tissues limbs and all, with vibrant tingling fire, with burning joyous power"
"When life forces you to your knees, you’re in the perfect possition to pray"
"It’s too late to be a pessimist!"
"Jesus on the main line, tell him what you want"
"He who trades freedom for security deserves neither and will loose both" - Franklin
"When you keep trying to change yourselve, you miss who you’ve already become" - me
"Enjoy your misary as long as you can, you have an eternity of joy waiting for you!"