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Author has written 10 stories for Final Fantasy VIII.
“In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.” - Robert Frost
September 10th, 2012
First, I apologize. When I updated on August 28th, I had redone the 'update information' on my bio, but hitting 'save' is beyond my comprehension, apparently. XD So, the notes I wrote sailed into cyberspace-oblivion. I still need to redo this entire bio, maybe next update. So yeah...let's jump in the way-back machine and pretend this was written on August 28th - I posted chapter 19 of The Meaning of Resistance ...which it's futile, right? (bad. bad me. sorry...or not) I'm having so much fun with that story; it's been such a welcomed break from the stress of the last chapters of After the Fall.
Which brings me to the next point, I'm currently working on that story, pretty seriously, actually (yayness!) I do have a decent portion of chapter 88 done, but then I creeped into parts of 89 and 90. I have a horrible habit of writing out of order, often depending on my mood. These last chapters are so important as it's the cumulative of a nine year endeavor. I'll try not to dwell on the fact that it's taken forever to finish or at least get semi close, but I'm getting there. The baby steps have now turned into 'toddler steps.' YAY progress! By now, I thought I'd have a chapter up. I could post as I do have enough, but I wanted to take the time to work towards the completion. For these last chapters, I'd like to post them somewhat consecutively - such as bi-monthly intervals until finished. This way, it will be 'done-done' and so I can give more definitive information rather than my horrible, extremely random, guesses. It's how I finished writing Crimson Lies and it worked well. I find myself more motivated when I can't post until I have reached a certain goal. So, please check back here or on theand I'll give updates.
Over the next few weeks, I'll post chapter 88 either way. I don't want it to sit too long. Seriously, I'm almost done - NINE YEARS. Yes, I all-capped that. I have no clue if anyone reads this. If they do, I'll tell you the 'shocking-twist ending.' Rinoa decides to leave Squall for THE ONE, her true love, the Flying Spaghetti Monster. And that right there is why I shouldn't type late at night without the aid of caffeine. I need sleep...or coffee. Now. :D
August 15th, 2012
I apologize for the small sabbatical on this account. I got sidetracked with the sequel to Castles in the Sky - Sandcastles. It's located on my secondary account. Then, I got sidetracked from my sidetrack and wrote a one-shot pre-Castles. It's my first Julia/Laguna piece, Sheets of Empty Canvas, a 'love story in reverse' type concept. From here on out, most updates will remain on the Ashbear account - Meaning of Resistance, After the Fall, and yes, Endless Waltz. I didn't forget about that either, it means so much to me. I plan on finishing everything, which includes Somewhere in Between with possibly a new co-writer. Thanks to everyone for the continued support - twelve years in Final Fantasy VIII. I cannot say how much writing, the community, but mostly the friends I've made mean to me.
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..To my other Works.
where silence has lease- @ffnet, T, drama, romance, complete. Squall & Rinoa. Facing the silence; living in darkness; accepting their fears. WiB Challenge piece.
- A custom CD created by a truly amazing author and friend, Summoner Luna.
...Inspired by my works.
where silence has lease: Psychological reviews/drabbles per chapter [ Kuchiki Jeanne, , , and .] * by
...Where I Belong, August 2012.
Information: During August of 2012, several fans of Rinoa and Squall came together for the "Where I Belong" challenge. We reached out to people across the internet for an all-inclusive family reunion of fans past and present. After 31 days, we had a total of 129 submissions - these were spread out over many sites. Even though the challenge is over, please support these members of the community. The master list can be found at FFnet., , and here at
@ WiB - Fanfiction.net C2 / @ / @ / @ /
...Of other interest.
Miscellaneous links: An Ashbearsite [by Alessia Heartilly] * An [in Italian] * [by Alessia Heartilly] * [RinoaKnight]
Art: SummonerLuna [After the Fall] * [Dancing in Time] * [Endless Waltz] * [ Bio/Meaning of Resistance ]
Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VIII and its characters, locations, ideas, and in-game dialog belong to Square Enix, formally SquareSoft.
Personal (and very useless) Information
I'm basically a (semi) normal married, mother of two, who writes fanfiction as a hobby. I'm currently residing (and/or hiding) in Northern Indiana - somewhere between the cornfields and the cows. My son is now a freshman in college and my daughter a freshman in high school. This is an extremely horrifying thought as my oldest was in first grade when decided 'hey, why don't I try to write something?' I also have my 'four legged' babies. First, my three cats - Indianapolis (aka Indy), Arizona (aka Ari), and Jazz (aka Jazz...original, no?) and not only do they believe they own the house, but they believe they own my very soul...it's currently under joint ownership between Indy and Ari. Jazz is the 'Garfield' of catdom; he's too lazy to care about trivial things like soul ownership and world domination. The newest addition is a rescue beagle named Skyla. She’s an amazingly loveable dork and also the cat's minion.
As far as my writing, my stories mainly revolve around Squall and Rinoa as they have always been close to my heart. I was drawn to them originally, I believe, because of my own experiences - I met my husband when we were sixteen, engaged at eighteen, and married at twenty. To me, Squall, Rinoa, and their relationship have evolved into something so much deeper. While it's easy for some people to dismiss their differences, I believe the importance is their similarities and what they draw out in each other.
Twelve years ago, I wrote because I thought it would be fun. That's why I write to this day, although the process can get exhausting, but writing is a hobby that makes you think. Sometimes, a plot is like a puzzle that needs to be solved; the process itself can be frustrating. However, when you're finished and look back at what you've created, it's every bit as rewarding as any other hobby. What means the most are the small things - like the letters and comments I've received. Most importantly, it's the friends I’ve made over the years; these friendships extend well beyond fandom. I know that if I hadn’t been doing this, I would have missed out on so many experiences. So, I thank each and every one of you who has taken the time to read this or any of my stories. Oh yes, I was twenty-nine when I started writing back in 2001 – let’s all just pretend I’m still that age. Please? (Begs) - Revised on August 15th, 2013
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