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Joined 01-17-05, id: 740404, Profile Updated: 05-14-08
Author has written 17 stories for Inuyasha, and Fullmetal Alchemist.


Holy heck! :O I just realised that it's been not only like two years since I updated a story, but since I bloody well said anything to anyone at all on here! :O

I don't think there's anyway I can say sorry enough times to make up for this. I didn't realise up until now that I had actually kind of dropped off the face of the earth here! My life has gotten fairly busy over the last couple of years, and I've sort of fallen in and out of writing during that time. Now I'm wondering if there's any way I can word this to make it seem even remotely excusable, but obviously that isn't the case, considering somebody just pm'd me a little while ago asking quite seriously if I'd died. :(

I'm sorry to make those of you who were worry so much. :( Though I'm afraid I don't think I can promise regular story updates anymore (and I think at this point most of you have probably stopped hoping :( ) I'll try and leave some kind of notice from now to make sure you all know I'm still alive.

In regards to my stories...

Well, I've fought this long and hard with it and spent many nights agonizing over new chapters and this deciscion, but... I think at this point I'm going to have to say I'm officially discontinuing "Chained." The truth is I fell out of the Inuyasha fandom a long time ago, and though I tried to keep writing for it, things kept getting in the way. At this point I've forgotten most of what I've written, most of what happened in the show, and most of where I wanted the story to go. Plus I've reached a stage where I just don't really like any of my writing at all anymore. I know these probably seem like lame excuses to you who have been waiting so long for an update, and you're right, they are. I wish I could offer you something like I had both hands amputated and can't type a story properly anymore, or I caught amnesia and don't remember how to write (which sounds similar to what I said, only without the amnesia), but I can't. :(

If anybody is still interested in getting stories from me, then I may host a one-shot here from time to time or a short series (I don't trust myself with multi-chapter fics anymore, and I really don't want to let anymore people down with one), though it likely won't be for the Inuyasha fandom.

If anybody is interested in continuing chained (is anybody?) on their own, then I doubt I'd have a problem with that. Please just let me know and I can alert anybody still interested in the story about it.

I'm kinda upset now because this came out sounding a lot more like a formality than I meant it to. :/ Still, hopefully you all understand. :( I'm truly sorry for all of this. :(

I am a question to the world

Not an answer to be heard

Or a moment that's held in your arms.

John Rzeznik - "I'm still here"

I am Extraordinary

I'm just you're ordinary

Average, everyday, sane psycho.

-- Liz Phair - "Extraordinary"

Something I will never understand about FF.net...

How they can delete NC-17 rated stories for being inappropriate, and still display banners advertising for "Dirty girls" and "swimsuit contests." o.O


Hey everyone! Yep, it’s that time again-- time when I get so bored, can’t concentrate on writing (or anything for that matter), and start redoing my profile page: D

Okay, so, let's see, how can I make this different from the last one...

Well, I don't think I've done it this way yet, so let's try it this way (dont expect specifics for this first part, though):

Name: Let's just stick with Avarwen. It's easier to remember, and you have better chances of getting the spelling right than my actual name. : D

Age: Definitely older than I usually act: D

Location: Canadia. (And yes, I know how I spelled it, and yes, I did do that on purpose. : ) )

Sex: Female. I'm sure you all could tell that already, but just in case you couldn't...

Likes: Writing, drawing, music, photography, engrish, online quizzes/tests (tickle is the best site for these: D), Fullmetal Alchemist, LotR (books or movies-- either are great), Inuyasha (or I used to. It's standing on pretty shaky legs right now, though), anime, fanfiction, ANGST!, Edward Elric ; )... REVIEW(ER)S! : D

Dislikes: Uh, there's actually not too much I actively dislike (either that, or it's just so horrible that I've blocked it out and can't remember what it was). A lot of reality TV gets on my nerves, and I really have zero to no tolerance for rap and country "music," but other than that... Oh, and Rips, but I imagine those get on everybody's nerves.

Okay, so now that that's over with, let's see what else I can tell ya...

Well, I started reading/writing fanfic about five or six years ago now (Woah, has it really been that long? o.O). Began with the Lord of the Rings fandom and have slowly worked my way through a few others to my latest obsession (or mania, or whatever other lovely term you would like to use), Fullmetal Alchemist. I love FMA! It's my fav fandom so far, though you may not be able to tell that by the stories below. Yes, I do (or did) write a lot of Inuyasha while I was hooked on that for about a year. Lost patience with it, though, didn't like the end of the anime and don't have the energy to pursue the who-knows-how-many-chapters-long manga, so I've kinda fallen out of that fandom.

For all the "Chained" fans currently spazzing and panicking, don't worry, I don't intend to leave that story unfinished! I'm just having a real hard time right now working up any kind of enthusiasm (not to mention finding the time) to write new chaps for any of my stories in that fandom. It should be continued though! And if it, for some reason, is not, then I'll be sure to let you all know (unless, of course, the reason for it not being continued is that I've dropped dead or something. Then you might have to figure it out for yourself).

Anyway, I actually have quite a few FMA fics, just not posted on this site do to the ahem nature of some of them. I'm still confused as to what the maximum rating allowed on FF.net is, but I'm fairly certain it's lower than NC-17, so therefore you will likely never find me posting anything above an R rating on here.

As to what I write... Whatever the hell I feel like. : D

I'm an angst-whor... addict, I admit it. Most of my stories have angst in them. Every once in a while you'll find me branching off to write some WAFF (ACK!) stuff, but usually I write angst. I also write a good deal of yaoi. Don't worry, most of it's too adult to be posted on here, so you likely won't see much of it. Once in a while a fic does slip through, though. I've written a bit of het, too, but not too terribly much. As for yuri... don't write it, don't wanna, chances are never will. I'm afraid I'm just not at all interested in that. I like to surprise people, though, and I love adding twists and cliffhangers and all that stuff to make people's jaws drop, so who knows, maybe someday I will, but chances are... no.

Anyway, that's about it. My stories are below, most of them are pretty old and not at all up to snuff, but there's one or two down there that are newer and a bit more skilled (Or so I'm hoping). Reviews are always appreciated, critical or not, and I don't even mind flames that much (great for smores!)-- just no rips. As I said, I don't like those and really don't like to have my time wasted with them.

Feel free to email me, too, if you want, I'm pretty sure there's a link somewhere around here that let's you contact me... if not, then I'm sure I'll discover it eventually and post my email for you.

Til then... ; D

This is what I brought you, this you can keep

This is what I brought, you may forget me

I promise to depart, just promise one thing:

Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

-- AFI - "Prelude 12/21"

(Aw, I think this one's longer than the last one... still, shorter than the one before that, so that's good: D)

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Chained reviews
DISCONTINUED! : See profile page! ‘...I’d sneak back in and go to the room she used to have there. The air was so still in there, like no one had passed through it for a long time, and the room smelled stale.’ He looked back at her. ‘Like this'
Inuyasha - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 74 - Words: 180,364 - Reviews: 796 - Favs: 58 - Follows: 51 - Updated: 11/4/2006 - Published: 11/3/2005 - Inuyasha
Narcissistic reviews
‘Al,’ Edward gasped, eyes closed as his chest heaved, struggling to take in a steady breath. ‘Al.’ Al and Alfons shared a look over Ed’s shoulder, neither entirely certain who the eldest blonde was calling for. Elricest!
Fullmetal Alchemist - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 792 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 10 - Published: 10/31/2006 - Alphonse E. - Complete
Together in the End reviews
SPOILERS! After attempting a human transmutation, years of struggles and battles and very lifethreatening situations... of dying twice and attempting to do so a third time to bring his brother back... it was a damn disease that finally brought down the le
Fullmetal Alchemist - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,296 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 1 - Published: 10/13/2006 - Alphonse E., Edward E. - Complete
A Promise Kept reviews
He had promised long ago that he would do ANYTHING to get Al his body back. It was time that he kept that promise.
Fullmetal Alchemist - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 806 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 3 - Published: 9/21/2006 - Edward E. - Complete
Alone reviews
He had defied them and denied them what they wanted and had managed to keep his little brother safe even from within the confines of Laboratory 5. And, as long as he continued to do that, Al was safe. But nothing was.... full summary inside
Fullmetal Alchemist - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,852 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 4 - Published: 9/4/2006 - Edward E. - Complete
Subjection, Subjugation reviews
“That place” is the only name he could use to refer to it He knew no other name for it, and did not think it was worthy of one. “Torture chamber” had seemed like a likely candidate at first, but even that was not enough to describe the horror’s of it.
Inuyasha - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,803 - Reviews: 38 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 4/25/2006 - Published: 4/5/2006 - Inuyasha - Complete
Let the Rain Fall reviews
Inuyasha remained where he was, crouched over, staring out at the abused earth before him, unable to actually see it as the word continued to burn against his mind... searing him... making the pain rise in even greater amounts...‘Kagome...’
Inuyasha - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,447 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/9/2006 - Inuyasha - Complete
Haunted Alternate Pairing reviews
His instincts roared within him, telling him to flee from... to go to that gaze...But he could do neither of those things.He could do nothing but sit, frozen... Waiting for whatever would come next... YAOI, Songfic Alternate pairing to the original story
Inuyasha - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,852 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3/9/2006 - Inuyasha - Complete
Haunted reviews
His instincts roared within him, raging against one another, telling him to flee from... to go to that gaze...But he could do neither of those things.He could do nothing but sit, frozen... Waiting for whatever would come next... YAOI, Songfic
Inuyasha - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,809 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3/9/2006 - Inuyasha - Complete
Forever can't last reviews
You showed me something I had never seen before perhaps something a filthy halfbreed like me was never meant to see and that, even if I wanted to, I couldn’t forget. You showed me love. NOT AN UPDATE, JUST AN EDIT!
Inuyasha - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,468 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 2/11/2006 - Published: 12/9/2005 - Inuyasha, Kagome H. - Complete
Farewell, My Beloved Sango reviews
You have two paths you must choose from to take: The easy way out or the hard way through. Sometimes living is harder than dying. Sometimes the hardest thing about dying is those who you’ll be leaving behind. A MirokuSango fic. Warnings inside.
Inuyasha - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,668 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Published: 1/24/2006 - Miroku, Sango - Complete
Listen to your heart reviews
Her own voice rang in her head, and her eyes narrowed slightly. ‘I may not be able to ever give the same sacrifice Kikyo did. But that doesn’t mean that I can’t bring him as much happiness that I can’t love him as much!’ Songfic
Inuyasha - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,552 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 2 - Published: 12/31/2005 - Kagome H., Inuyasha - Complete
What did I do to deserve you? reviews
And for that I owe you more than my life and loyalty. I owe you my mind, body and soul. My heart you already have. OneShot fic!
Inuyasha - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,282 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 2 - Published: 12/19/2005 - Inuyasha, Kagome H. - Complete
The Weakness of Hearts reviews
Her constant yearning for him was nothing more than some basic lust. A common need to sustain her libido. Nothing more.At least, that’s what she told herself as she soared over the earth on her feather, her rubyred eyes glaring at the ground below, search
Inuyasha - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 873 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 12/18/2005 - Published: 11/18/2005 - Kagura - Complete
Understand reviews
Because they didn’t understand, couldn’t comprehend the one simple truth behind it all that held them in it’s tangled web of spun emotions: They loved each other. And that’s all they needed to understand.
Inuyasha - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,407 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 4 - Updated: 12/17/2005 - Published: 12/6/2005 - Kagome H., Inuyasha - Complete
What Have you Done to me Alternate Ending reviews
An Alternate ending to my original story with a different character at the end. Sesshomaru and who? You'll only know if you read!
Inuyasha - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,682 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 2 - Published: 12/5/2005 - Sesshomaru - Complete
What have you done to me? reviews
Basically Sesshomaru ponders just how exactly he ended up with his current mate. I suck a summaries, so try not to assume the story is as bad as the summary. Sesshomaru? You won't find out unless you read!
Inuyasha - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,588 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 11/26/2005 - Published: 11/24/2005 - Sesshomaru - Complete