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Joined 09-06-05, id: 892685, Profile Updated: 04-05-14
Author has written 14 stories for Hellsing, Nightmare Before Christmas, and Dragon Age.


I was originally planning on just finishing my old fics, maybe writing a few more, and then leaving forever. Unfortunately, Hellsing always manages to capture my imagination and hold it like a vice. I now currently have a least a dozen stories I want to write, but will never be able to get around to. None the less, the inspiration does persist, so now it's just a matter of narrowing them down. Which ones are worth the effort to write? Which ones will I have the time and drive to write? Unfortunately, I really don't have the time anymore as I just started university, so you guys will really have to be patient with me.

For all intents and purposes, all current stories are completed unless otherwise stated.

Thoughts on Hellsing

Seras Victoria: I think she's a darling and a sweetheart. Everyone who's read my stories can guess I'll find any excuse to put her in every fanfic, if she isn't the outright main character. I think she's the best part of Hellsing. The one ray of sweet-hearted and good-natured sunshine in that dark world. I also think she's funny as hell. To be honest, Seras is also the character I relate to the most, as I was also a temperamental tomboy when I was younger, and have huge hang ups about sex due to past trauma. At the same time, Seras has that wonderful "nature triumphs over nurture" force of will and natural goodness of character that many of us probably wish we had. I won't do her the dishonor of making her a self-insert though. She's a great character that I feel was under-utilized in Hellsing (being reduced to sidekick / comic relief) and would like to explore by putting her in different situations and seeing how she reacts.

Pippen de Bernadotte: I have a huge hang up about the name since "Pip" is the English version and "Pippen" is the French version of the name, and isn't he French? That aside, he's my second favorite character. Like Seras, he's a naturally good person who started life as an adorably sweet kid. Unlike Seras, he let his "nurture" overshadow his nature and, honestly, became the type of man I hate the most. Drinking, smoking, womanizing, dirty, skuzzy, perverted, obnoxious, sexually harassing... the list goes on and on. I think what saves him is that naturally noble character buried under the years of socially acquired greed and selfishness, which gets unearthed during his time in Hellsing. I honestly could have cared less about him until he expressed moral outrage over what Millennium did to London, (probably the first character to do so), and selfless love for Seras.

The other characters vary on a sliding scale from "I like them good and well" to "I would like them under different circumstances" (e.g. "if they weren't Nazis") to "Hate the bastard!"

Seras x Pip: A thoroughly interesting and tragically unexplored pairing since they're so different and yet so similar. They're naturally good, loyal people, but they have such different upbringings and reactions to those upbringings. She's the daughter of a police officer, he's the son of a mercenary. Her life fell apart when she saw her family get murdered, his view of himself as a good person fell apart when his grandfather revealed he was from a mercenary family. She held onto her morals despite living through one of the worst tragedies imaginable, and he basically resigned himself to being the "scum of the earth" because he took his news of his heritage as a prophecy. And yet, despite it all...

I think Pip x Seras is one of those few examples of "opposites attract" done right. On the surface, they're very different. She's a prude, he's a womanizer. She's high-strung, he's laid-back. She's rather prim and proper while he's rather scruffy and casual. She's shy and submissive while he's very charismatic and assertive. She's... honestly a bit simple (I LOVE her, but she is) while he's damn clever. She's English, he's French. I can go on. But underneath it all, she also has that bit of tomboyish scruffiness while he can also be gentlemanly and charming, so they have some common ground. They have similar core values. At their core, they believe it's wrong to murder innocent people, they will defend and avenge those unjustly targeted (like the victims of Millennium), and they will loyally stand beside and risk their lives for those they love. Also? They just bring out the best in each other. As others have pointed out, Seras brings out Pip's hidden heart of gold, while he brings out her hidden backbone.

When two people support and bring out the best in each other, what other reasons does one need to ship them?

Seras x Dark Walter: Second favorite pairing. I'll admit this doesn't stem from much, other than they look really good together and share a tender moment in volume/OVA 9. I think it's worth exploring though because they also have a subtle "opposites attract" theme that doesn't clash too much. She's sweet, warm, caring, rather uncultured and of course a bit of a tomboy. He seems cold, distant, taciturn, but also very cultured and refined. I think it's fun to explore because they were both such spitfires when they were kids, and clearly bring out good qualities in each other when he's "Dark Walter." She brings out his deeply buried kindness and he inspires her to try to reach out to him. And he doesn't bite her head off for trying the way Alucard does. It's worth exploring in an AU.

Girlycard x Young Integra: Judge not. I guess I just have a soft spot for this since I love young love, girls' love, and Carmilla-type romances.

Girlycard x Young Walter: Judge less. I guess just the way Hirano drew them leaves a lot of room for stories and character interactions.

Yumie x Heinkel: They're both very fun and interesting characters, and their implied romance has so much potential for so many fascinating stories. It's too bad they're religious fanatics.

Okay, pairing I will never support.

Alucard x Seras: I'll start off by saying I do think these two care about each other very deeply. I think they will always watch out for each other, and probably share a bond and a love more profound than anything in this universe. I just don't think they work as a romantic couple. Again, different core values. At his core, Alucard LOVES war, slaughter, bloodshed, sadism, tormenting people, etc. At her core, Seras is viscerally repulsed by these things. He loves being a vampire and eating people. She hates being a vampire and hurting people. Alucard seems to like Seras best when she's giving into her vampire nature. Guess which part of herself she hates the most? Alucard is most annoyed/repulsed when she's holding onto her human sensibilities. Guess which part Pip loves and encourages most? Alucard also loves pushing people around and needs someone to push him right back, which Seras is not cut out to do, both because she's his servant and it's not who she is.

Plus, I just don't think they bring out the best in each other. Alucard loves mocking, scaring, and pushing Seras around. She, in turn, gets scared witless by and resents being pushed around by him. Not to mention they have an admittedly genuine father/daughter and/or teacher/student relationship that doesn't really do either justice. He's a "sink or swim" mentor that tells her of a new skill (like her "third eye") then waits for her to figure out how to use it herself. (Notice he didn't directly help Seras against Anderson or Zorin.) That's not the type of teaching Seras needs though.

What's funny is everyone complains of how weak, stupid, ineffectual, and cowardly Seras is through the start of the series, but she doesn't become more badass until around the 6th or 7th volume... Notice that Seras is with Alucard during most of the first half of the series, while she's with Pip for the second half. That's right. She doesn't respond to Alucard's "Go do it," she responds to Pip's "Let's do it together."

What's more, they don't have the same values or desires. He loves slaughtering, she hates it. When she tries telling him "they're humans," he bites her head off. When he tries encouraging her vampire nature, she becomes horrified after she snaps out of it. Her bloodthirsty vampire side is the part she likes least. Even after she becomes a true vampire, she'll drink only from a willing human whom she loves and wants to be with, fights to defend humans, and still retains her moral personality instead of her bloodthirsty side.

I've also noticed that very few fics have Seras remain who she is to be with Alucard. Most of them have Seras "embrace" her vampire nature in one way or another. My response is: A) How come Seras has to be the one to change while Alucard doesn't? B) Why does SHE have become more blood-thirsty while he doesn't have to reign in his blood lust? C) If one or both has to fundamentally change who they are, I don't think they're right for each other.

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Thirst by CzyDauTep reviews
After the death of a comrade, Integra punishes Alucard by ordering him to not feed for a month. Unfortunately, after ten days Alucard's thirst gets the best of him as he begins to stalk his fledgling, Seras Victoria. This is AxS material.
Hellsing - Rated: M - English - Horror/Romance - Chapters: 5 - Words: 9,301 - Reviews: 178 - Favs: 180 - Follows: 239 - Updated: 7/17/2012 - Published: 12/26/2008 - Alucard, Seras
The Day of Admiration by Zeden reviews
Every year there was a citywide holiday known as the Day of Admiration. The people of Kirkwall would honor a person they admired by mimicking their appearance. Fenris/FemHawke/Varric
Dragon Age - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,962 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 9 - Published: 1/28/2012 - Fenris, Hawke (F)
The Big Hellsing: The Forks Affair by Master of the Boot reviews
Millennium was destroyed, but the conflict never ends. With their backs against the wall, Hellsing will fight a war that will reshape the world as we know it, and Forks is the new battle ground. Welcome to the Big Hellsing. Crossover with Twilight.
Hellsing - Rated: M - English - Humor/Adventure - Chapters: 38 - Words: 201,714 - Reviews: 313 - Favs: 50 - Follows: 37 - Updated: 1/8/2012 - Published: 7/23/2008 - Alucard, Integra
All the Pretty Things: Strangled at Birth by Master of the Boot reviews
Seras Victoria is thrust into the dark heart of the vampire world to serve as the Vampire King's slave. Under his sadistic rule, Seras will have to fight for both her life and her sanity. rated for gore and sex. Not for the squeamish
Hellsing - Rated: M - English - Horror/Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 32,555 - Reviews: 44 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 6/22/2011 - Published: 12/21/2010 - Seras, Alucard
Over The Top: Terror on Gay Street by Master of the Boot reviews
Edward Cullen is the unofficial king of the Seattle gay scene. All he wants is to take Jasper Whitlock home for a little fun,fun,fun. Unfortunately, tradgedy hits Edward and Jasper and the two are forced to fight for their lives. AU, AH.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 12 - Words: 46,924 - Reviews: 93 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 12/2/2010 - Published: 4/5/2009 - Edward, Jasper
Moonlight Sonority by DarkMignonette reviews
Say Policegirl, if one bangs a vampire...does that make them a necrophiliac?" // One-shot series, Pip x Seras
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Romance/Horror - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,710 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 4/9/2010 - Published: 2/16/2009 - Pip, Seras
Rainbow Zebra: An ode to Vampire Bella by Master of the Boot reviews
This is an AU story. You've probably seen a lot of stories with Edward as the human and Bella as the vampire, but you've never seen it like this before. Oneshot
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,278 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/18/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
The Cost of Dying by darknessfollows reviews
A vampire without a voice. A voice without a body. And Seras is the only bridge between them. In exchange for what she desires most, she must act as translator in an effort to reverse an ancient curse, and free her master. AxS, Alternate Universe
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 12 - Words: 37,693 - Reviews: 164 - Favs: 176 - Follows: 87 - Updated: 6/19/2009 - Published: 12/12/2008 - Alucard, Seras - Complete
Return To Me At Sunrise by SunilaMoon reviews
Years have passed since the fall of London. Hellsing has rebuilt, and things have started to settle back down, that is...Until Sir Integra meets someone whom she thought to have been long lost. Will the sun ever rise on this endless night? R&R, thanks
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 15 - Words: 35,988 - Reviews: 82 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 28 - Updated: 8/21/2008 - Published: 2/11/2008
A Smile In the Dark by DarkMignonette reviews
Entwining bodies and soft skin -- only one heartbeat. Shouldn't be doing this. But she's such a sweet girl. Smile Seras, for me? I'll try to chase the nightmares away. Oneshot Pip/Seras
Hellsing - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,842 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 15 - Published: 5/4/2008 - Complete
Cravings by DarkMignonette reviews
Seras wished she could kill the hunger. She'll give all she has to fight it..until Pip Bernadette shows up and blows her concentration. Oneshot, // Slight PxS
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,794 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 2 - Published: 12/24/2007 - Complete
Fallen Angel by DarkMignonette reviews
The girl was beautiful, having the appearance of a saint. She was perfect, if you didn't mind the fact that she was dead and walking. Oneshot PipSeras
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Romance/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,771 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 11 - Published: 7/19/2007 - Complete
Before It All by DuchessRaven reviews
PreDawn. In his early years at Hellsing, Walter's first love was his partner Alucard, but can their friendship and budding romance survive when he finds out who and what this ravenhaired Lolita really is? Young Walter x Girlycard. COMPLETE
Hellsing - Rated: K+ - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 12 - Words: 27,593 - Reviews: 109 - Favs: 82 - Follows: 14 - Updated: 6/26/2006 - Published: 4/20/2006 - Complete
China Doll by Thess reviews
Once a week, Seras dresses up for her lover. But all symbiosis comes with a price to pay. Pip x Seras.
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 912 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 2 - Published: 3/22/2006 - Seras, Pip - Complete
Sleep Walking by Thess reviews
“For our kind, blood is not the sole craving. We have other traditional means of nourishment, Police Girl. If you repress both urges, you'll lose control over one of them.” Pip x Seras.
Hellsing - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,867 - Reviews: 28 - Favs: 62 - Follows: 6 - Published: 12/11/2005 - Seras, Pip - Complete
Static by Thess reviews
The music was playing before the battle. Slight Pip x Seras. One shot.
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,089 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 1 - Published: 10/8/2005 - Pip, Seras - Complete
Warm by TeaRoses reviews
Mangaverse AU romance about Pip Bernadette and Seras Victoria. If one event had gone differently, what might the future have been like? One-shot. (P x S)
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,022 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/10/2004 - Complete
Scarlet Thirst by Alucarda MetalHead reviews
SerasXPip Part 1 of my Hellsing romance short stories 'In a Glass Darkly'. This one is about Seras's feelings towards Pip and being a vampire. Very lemony, Pip-a-licious, and dark
Hellsing - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,007 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 6 - Published: 5/7/2004
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The Little Mermaid: Hellsing Style reviews
When the little mermaid Seras Victoria falls for the handsome Count Dracula, she trades her voice with Sea Witch Zorin Blitz to walk the land by his side. However, as the Count leaves her in the care of his captain and arranges to marry another, she begins to question her choices in life and love. (Some SxA, with SxP and IxA.)
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Fantasy/Romance - Chapters: 9 - Words: 70,101 - Reviews: 47 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 22h ago - Published: 11/6/2013 - Alucard, Integra, Pip, Seras
Beauty and the Geese reviews
Seras is a prudish tavern maid working in a poor provincial town. The Wild Geese are perverted mercenaries quartered there till the incoming war. The two clash in every way. However, when Seras is targeted by the unscrupulous town hero and the Geese's loyalty to the monarch is brought into question, can the two look past appearances and stand by each other in their times of need?
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 7 - Words: 51,619 - Reviews: 48 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 3/30 - Published: 9/8/2013 - Pip, Seras
Mr Brightside reviews
During the Victorian Era, Captain Pip Bernadotte comes to work for a strange cabaret run by vampires and falls for one of the girls. However, she is still bound to her master, the owner of the cabaret and maker of all within it, and he does not like sharing his toys... (One-shot. PxS. Implied AxS.)
Hellsing - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 10,375 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 4 - Published: 3/26 - Alucard, Pip, Seras - Complete
Poor Thing reviews
One Shot. Minor Sweeney Todd/Hellsing crossover. Captain Bernadotte of the Wild Geese ship returns to London after being away for a year, hoping to reunite with the girl he fell in love with. When she doesn't turn up, he goes looking for her. As he asks around, he discovers to his dismay that a year ago, something happened to her. . . something not very nice.
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 11,560 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/10 - Pip, Seras, Rip Van Winkle - Complete
Bad Things reviews
Pip drinks alone in a seedy bar when he's entranced by a beautiful young woman. As the night wears on, he realizes that he wants to do bad things with her. However, what he doesn't know is that she wants to do bad things with him too. (A sort of prequel to Cry Little Servant.)
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,608 - Reviews: 1 - Follows: 2 - Published: 11/10/2013 - Pip, Seras
Caution: Children At Play reviews
A series of one-shots on how I think various Hellsing characters would behave if they met each other as children. To quote Girlycard from Hellsing: "When you get down to the nitty gritty... this kind of thing's a kid fight. So look, we're kids!"
Hellsing - Rated: K+ - English - Adventure - Chapters: 6 - Words: 25,341 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 23 - Updated: 9/28/2013 - Published: 5/3/2009 - Pip, Seras
Alucard and Integra of Neverland reviews
One night Integra discovers a mysterious shadow in her nursery belonging to a beautiful boy named Alucard, who whisks her away to Neverland. There she encounters lost boys, natives, pirates, and the adventure of her life. (Complete)
Hellsing - Rated: K+ - English - Fantasy/Adventure - Chapters: 17 - Words: 64,823 - Reviews: 32 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 14 - Updated: 9/9/2013 - Published: 12/26/2009 - Alucard, Integra - Complete
Helling! The Genetic Opera reviews
Seras loses her memory and wakes in a world that has been taken over by Millennium. Walter takes her in and protects her from the new regime, but as time goes on, Seras begins to wonder if there's something he isn't telling her. AU Hellsing/Repo! The Genetic Opera crossover. Some Lemon. Lime. (Complete)
Hellsing - Rated: M - English - Horror/Drama - Chapters: 14 - Words: 53,369 - Reviews: 50 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 9/5/2013 - Published: 7/9/2011 - Seras, Walter - Complete
Knife Ear reviews
While humans are all right with elves saving them from the darkspawn, they don't seem to be in a hurry to allow basic rights. Poor grammar is intentional, since the text is adapted from Rudyard Kipling's "Tommy."
Dragon Age - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 532 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 4 - Published: 8/30/2011 - Tabris, Zevran A. - Complete
The Nightmare Before Disneyland reviews
After Sally takes Jack to Disneyland, he becomes as obsessed with the park as he was with Christmas, and is determined to take his place in the park as one of the Disney Canon lineup. A fictionalized version of how I think TNBC invaded Disneyland. (Complete.)
Nightmare Before Christmas - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,885 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/15/2011 - Jack S., Sally - Complete
Little Match Girl reviews
Seras Victoria is a poor girl who must sell matches on the street to make a living. However, when passer-bys refuse to purchase her wares on New Year's Eve, she must use her matches to cope with the bitter cold. One-shot.
Hellsing - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,078 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Published: 1/1/2011 - Seras - Complete
Alucard reviews
Integra Hellsing is a lonely young girl who lives with her father in a reclusive castle in Transylvania; however, a carriage accident outside her home brings an unexpected friend into the family's care, a beautiful and mysterious girl: Alucard. (One more chapter)
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Mystery/Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 41,152 - Reviews: 78 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 43 - Updated: 12/10/2010 - Published: 3/28/2009 - Alucard, Integra
Seras of the Selkies reviews
Seras is a seal maiden who is rescued by Alucard after being captured by cruel humans. Unable to return to the sea after her sealskin is destroyed, she must rely on Alucard if she is to survive on land. AxS (This story is complete. I am literally out of ideas for it. I'm so sorry.)
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Fantasy/Romance - Chapters: 4 - Words: 10,310 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 36 - Updated: 8/7/2010 - Published: 1/25/2009 - Alucard, Seras - Complete
Cry Little Servant reviews
During a vampire gathering, mercenary Pip Bernadette watches as Seras Victoria dances for the first time among her "sisters." Will she finally give in to her master's call or remain the servant vampire we all love?
Hellsing - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,549 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 2 - Published: 10/30/2009 - Pip, Seras - Complete