I am able to bear it on my own now, but still, I will wait for you.

I now present to you my results on the quiz "which pokemon type are you?"

You are a Normal Type!

Adaptable, peoples person, humble, caring, and imaginative.

If I was a normal type I bet I would be a Stuffel. Cuddly but angy.

What was with my pretentious "I have moved on from fan fiction" opener about? Just be honest that you are fanfiction loving trash Jenaaaaa. Anyway I originally made this to rewrite old stories but now it's like a soft reboot of sorts. I had 2 active accounts before this that are now abandoned af

I mainly wrote Vocaloid fanfictions on those two old accounts. I have also written some Pokemon and Fire Emblem fanfictions (also recently a Demon Slayer fan fiction) but most of that I post to PaperLaw. So what were my previous accounts? Still don't feel like telling y'all but if read one of my works and say "hey that reminds me off something [Insert Fan Fiction User] wrote did you steal it?" I will most likely respond "No that was something I wrote on my old account". I might have even favorited some works from my old accounts tho so go hunt for them if you feel like or just DM me I'll let you know.

My new username is my weeb name (I got the idea to give my self a "weeb name" as kind of a joke and a reference to one part of the Jelloapocalypse video "Welcome to Fanfiction") the name is supposed to mean summer death or beautiful death and the 4 is because a) the username without the four is taken and b) 4 and death both have the same kanji according to the internet so it's unlucky. So you can call me Natsumi if you want but my IRL nickname and sort of pen name is Jen so you are totally allowed to call me that as well. While the weeb name thing is a joke my friends keep spreading q twitter thread about how I'm white so using a Japanese alter ego online is racist. I don't want to change my username just because it could cause confusion for people looking for me but please from now on do not call me Natsumi. Just called me Honey.

Anyway that's all I have here, back in the day under my general profile I would put my ships and some little challenge things and for old times sake I'll put a few of my Vocaloid ships and maybe have a full ship thing later.

Vocaloid Ships:

Rin x Gakupo (Gakurin): My #1 OTP (not just in vocaloid but in life) and one I am judged for constantly even by some of my IRL friends. I'm not gonna play dumb I know why people judge me Rin is 14 and Gakupo is a maybe adult, no "canon" age as far as I know. Also Vocaloid songs change ages all the time and people don't say anything... Miku is 16 and is often shipped with Luka and Kaito who are both 20, Same goes for Kaito x Len and Len is also a fellow "canon" 14-year-old. Of course, I never hear as much backlash to people that ship this because we only care about minors when we aren't fetishizing them in yaoi relationships but that's just a game theory. Also no shade to any of those ships I love them (especially Negitoro UwU) but if you are gonna criticize me and ship these ships just letting you know you know that I have a right to drag you too. As for why I ship these two I have a few reasons, mostly biased reasons but most ships are biased anyway so... 1) They are my favorite Vocaloids. 2) I think they sound good together, the deep and high vocals appeal to me. 3) I love hight differences in ships 4) kind of the same as reason three but these two in particular I think have a really pleasing aesthetic (Tall and short, Yellow and Purple which are opposites on the color wheel, long hair and short hair, like even if you don't ship them they at least look good standing to each other and essentially that's all a ship is, characters standing next to each other) I could probably go on but I don't want anyone who actually decided to read my profile to think they are reading a novella.

Miku x Luka (Negitoro): One of my Vocaloid OTP's, you can pry this ship from my dead hands!

Miku x Kaito (Kaimiku): Uhhhh 2015 me called she want's her OTP back.
"nAts YoU cAn'T haVe TWo heTrO shIps WiTH prObLAmaTiC AgE gAps!" fuck you I'm starting to fall for these two again. Their voices sound amazing together and they both deserve great things

Kaito x Meiko (Kaimei): A classic Vocaloid ship and a favorite of mine. Sometimes when I ship them they kind of play the role of tired parents to the rest of my supporting cast. My favorite situation for them is Meiko being sad of Kaito's possible un-installment/cancellations or he has been canceled/uninstalled and she's sad. I make Meiko suffer for some reason haha RIP.

Gakupo x Miku (GakuMiku): This ship deserves rights and also the group of cosplayers that inspired me to cosplay often cosplay this ship so it means a lot to me and they are cute. AND one discord I am in has decided I am the ultimate GakuMiku shipper so maybe I should write something for them.

Luka x Meiko: "They are lesbians Harold!"

Rin x Len: Honestly getting back into this ship too. If you think it's weird I can write these two as siblings in one story but lovers in a different story it's because I view Vocaloids like actors. Their relationships change depending on the story/what I am into when I am writing.

Len x Miku (Lenku): This ship used to be the #1 rivalship for RinxLen shippers but now I really like it, not a main ship of mine but I have been feeling it more recently.

Kaito x Len: I can have problematic MLM age gap ships too!

Piko x Len: Shota's in love

Neru x Haku: This ship for me is basically the saying "could be gayer" like I could be writing about Haku and Neru trying to make it big in the city and somehow they end up together. I don't know how this happens. Best friends turned lovers I guess how fun.

Miku x Haku: Or a little more specifically Clarith x Michela from the Evilness Chronicles. They were so cute together. They're cute together just as their original selves as well.

Mikuo x Neru: If your one of those people that likes to see Neru as Miku's rival/hating Miku then this is funny because it's like dating your enemies brother. I used to write Miku and Neru with a cat and dog relationship but I have leaned away from that a bit but that's kind of where this ship stems from.

Kiyoteru x Lily: I said I see Kaito x Meiko as like tired parents and I think it's because I see Kaito and Meiko as the adults of the Vocaloids (Gakupo can also fill this role and I defiantly portray him more mature than Kaito but Kaito can be serious if he needs to be like a good dad). I bring that up because while I don't see Kiyoteru and Lily as parents necessarily I do see them as kind of an adult pairing. (not in a kinky way lmao)

Gumi x Meiko: Lowkey a crack ship. I started shipping it back when I only knew 8 vocaloids and thought every vocaloid needs to be paired off.

Oliver x Yuki: Since they are two of the youngest Vocaloids I kinda like to ship them as like that childhood first love kind of thing.

Rin x Kaito: I think I did kind of ship them for the same height difference thing but I'm not very big on this one. But this is the only other person besides Mikuo or Miku I can ship Rin with.

Rin x Mikuo or Miku: in my mind, they are basically the same ship it just depends if I'm in the mood for cute lesbians or nah.

Kiyoteru x Miki: I've been into this ship lately I honestly don't really know why. A found family between Kiyoteru, Miki and Yuki is my new religion.

Miku x Dell: A ship back from my MMD days. I keep writing Dell as the bad guy lately though idk why. Maybe it's the smoking.

I also kind of have a lot of BROTP's (Vocaloids who I like to think are best friends) but I think for now I'll stop.

I stole some little challenge thing from my old fanfiction account and re-did it so I hope you enjoy thots

12 Characters (Vocaloid)

(In no particular order)

1- Miku Hatsune

2- MEIKO

3- KAITO

4- Rin Kagamine

5- Len Kagamine

6- Gakupo Kamui

7- Luka Meguine

8- Gumi Megpoid

9- IA

10- Lily

11- Neru Akita

12- Haku Yowane

1) Have you ever read a Six/Eleven fanfic before?

(Gakupo/Neru) I have not, that might be interesting tho.

2) Do you think Four is hot? How hot?

(Rin) Hell yeah. She can punch me in the face any day of the week.

3) What would happen if Three got Four pregnant?

(Kaito got Rin Pregnant) Kaito better run for his life Len went to get the road roller.

4) Do you recall any fics about Nine?

(IA) There was one I read a long time ago not necessarily about IA but she was one of the main characters and I liked that story. It was like a Star vs the Forces of Evil dimension-hopping story before that show even came out. I forgot what the title of that fic was tho.

5) Would Two and Eleven make a good couple?

(Meiko/Neru) My headcanon is that Neru is the designated driver for Haku’s drunk ass so in a scenario where Haku and Meiko a drinking buddies I’d say that could work out.

6) Five/Eight or Five/Ten?

(Len/Gumi or Len/Lily) Len/Gumi of course I mean have you watched It’s a Wonderful Cats Life or The Sleeping Princess?

7) What would happen if One walked in on Five and Six having sex?

(Miku walks in on Len and Gakupo) She either takes pictures for blackmail or calls the cops on Gakupo for diddling little boys.

8) Make up a summary of a Three/Ten fic.

(Kaito/Lily) Lily is a studious college student who acts indifferent to all the things girls her age are into like boys and trends. But secretly she is a huge idol fangirl who has fallen in love with her favorite idol Kaito. But when Lily gets a part-time job at a run-down cafe Kaito secretly regulars she finds out he isn’t the perfect man his image portrays.

(This is basically like a manga I was reading just go with it)

9) Is there any such thing as a One/Eight fluff?

(Miku/Gumi) Oh defiantly. I personally think they are really cute so if I can’t find some fluff I’ll make some fluff. A non-ship fluff song of theirs is Hocus Pocus. It’s also a really sad song but still cute because Miku’s so smol.

10) Suggest a title for a Seven/Twelve Hurt/Comfort fic.

(Luka/Haku) A Drunken Knight. Two adult women meet at a bar drunk off their asses and help each other through their issues. The title suggests sex but probably no sex.

11) What kind of plot would you use if you wanted Four to de-flower One?

(Rin deflowers Miku) Doki Doki Yuri Gakuan continued and rated R

(I mean there are a few suggestive things in that PV and even in the lyrics)

12) Does anyone on your friends list read Three het?

(Kaito het) I mean I don’t really have friends on this site yet and all of my IRL friends either aren't into vocaloid or care about the songs over the shipping (like a sane person honestly) so idk. Maybe?

13) What might 3 scream at a moment of great passion?

(Kaito again) “ICE ICE BABY!”

14) If you wrote a song-fic about Eight, what song would you choose?

(Gumi) Either “This Love-Struck Kitty Won’t Be Discouraged!” or “A Natural Born Coward” if I can include another character I might also do one of those two Len/Gumi songs I talked about earlier.

15) If you wrote a One/Six/Twelve fic, what would the warning be?

(Miku/Gakupo/Haku) Maybe cheating? Gakupo isn’t gonna stay in this equation for long Miku’s leaving him for Haku.

16) What might be a good pick-up line for 1 to use on Two?

(Miku use on Meiko) “I’m yours tonight Nee-chan” or “Hey Meiko I bought you sake let’s get drunk and fuck”.

17) When was the last time you read a fic about Five

(Len) For shits and giggles last night I got on wattpad and read one of those “I pretend to be a character and that character rates ships you send me” fan fictions if that counts lol.

18) Who would make a better college professor: 6, or 11?

(Gakupo or Neru) Probably Gakupo because Neru would just tell you what section to read and just play mystic messenger on her phone all class.

19) Do you think 2 is hot? How hot?

(Meiko) She’s a babe she can smother me in her anime titties and/or beat me up any day.

20) 12 sends 1 on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?

(Haku sends Miku) Haku sends Miku to buy her more sake. Miku is ID’d at the register and is arrested. But maybe that was all according to the plan?

21) What would 5 most likely be arrested for?

(Len) International war crimes.

22) If you had to walk home through a bad neighborhood late at night, would you feel safer in the company of 7 or 8?

(Luka or Gumi) Probably Luka I mean did you see how she drop kicked Gakupo in the face in "Go Google It"?

23) What would 3 do if he found 2 and 4 together?

(Kaito found Meiko and Rin) Ask to join and get punched in the nuts by Meiko.

Or you know this video: https://youtu.be/QJY159BQh5s

24) Make a summary about 1 and 4.

(Miku and Rin and I’m assuming a fic summary?) Rin and Miku were best friends since they were in pre-school. But in middle school when Rin realized she had feelings for her long-time friend tried to act on them was rejected by Miku. Now the pair are in high school and no longer friends, in fact Miku has made Rin’s life a living hell. But Miku may soon realize that she might just be afraid of what’s really in her heart. Can these two rekindle their friendship and maybe start something more?

25) Can you make a 2 ,3 and 10 lemon?

(Meiko, Kaito and Lily) Honestly, that kind of sounds hot and I’m down for it.

26) Did you read a 9 and 8 fic yet?

(Gumi or IA) One fic I read a while back that had Gumi as the mute protagonist at a new school befriending Rin and Len. I don’t remember if it was a GumixLen for GumixRin fic but I liked the first few chapters. I don’t think they ever updated again though.

(As I was editing this I realized it says and not or so no I haven't read a Gumi and IA fic)

27) what would 7 do if he found 9 in bed with 5.

(Luka finds IA in bed with Len) She asks them if they are using protection probably. If her kids are gonna fuck they are gonna be S A F E .

28) Will you make a 1 and 4 lemon

(Miku and Rin) Honestly, I gotta write the Doki Doki Yuri Gakuen smut now.

29) Do you think that 7 and 4 makes a perfect yuri couple?

(Luka and Rin) yeah, they’d be cute.

30) What would happen if 4 walked in on 1 having sex with 6…

(Rin walks in on Miku and Gakupo) Runs that cheater Gakupo over with a road roller. But I actually do like Gakupo x Miku heh

I have some general Vocaloid headcanons I'd like to leave here! These are my default headcanons for the Vocaloids but I like to play around with the Vocaloids in stories because that's the fun!

Miku: Kind of a ditz, was also very sheltered when she was younger and grew up rich. She'll not know about things that a normal or uninteresting to regular people, she talks about these things kind of like Tamaki in OHSHC but she doesn't come off as arrogant as him. Grew up on music and doesn't have many interests outside of music. When hanging out with other people she is always just letting someone else make plans because she's down for anything. Her biggest fault is probably that sometimes she is too passive.

Rin: Meme's to hide insecurities. Seriously though debuting at the same time as your twin is hard, sometimes Rin can get a bit too competitive especially when the situation wasn't a competition in the first place. Back in insecurities she is cute and she knows it but she feels lackluster personality-wise however everyone that has met her would tell you she has a good sense of humor and goes out of her way to help her friends.

Len: A little bit Tsundere (pretends like he doesn't care, but really cares too much) but instead of getting mad at people for no reason he just kind of gives off an "I'd sell your soul to satan for one cornchip" vibe. He personally doesn't mind being short but it does bug him when people keep bringing it up. Has a bit of a mischevious streak and enjoys pulling small pranks or just messing with people's minds. Fairly active, he loves going on morning runs but Rin hates going outside so he usually just goes with Miku or Luka or by himself. He is into meme's like Rin and is the group chats obscure meme dealer.

Luka: Lives off of caffeine but still looks tired as hell. She's the responsible mom friend making sure her dumb, reckless friends don't die. Also is the least fond of fanservice out of all the Vocaloids, she'll do it if she really has to but she's been oogled at her whole life she hates that feeling of being objectified (I mean a sister really went and snapped in "I'll quit singing") Also usually spends her money on nice clothing or food, she likes looking like the god damn goddess she is and put the most into her appearance out of the Cryotonloids. Don't wake her up unless it's an emergency she's a cranky waker, also has a hard time opening up to others.

Meiko: The mom friend who will kick someone's ass for you. Has a bit of a short temper, usually the other person is deserving of her anger but still. She is most protective of Miku because the. poor baby has no clue what's going on 50% of the time. Drinks usually help her calm her nerves but she isn't a lightweight and knows how much she can handle. She will get a bit crazy on special occasions though and it's a mix of being drunk on Sake and being drunk on the mood. Meiko isn't very good at properly expressing herself, she's working on it.

Kaito: Look he's a chaotic dumbass but he's not unintelligent. Man can take care of himself but sometimes a dumb thought pops in his head like "will my tongue really stick to a pole like in movies?" and then Meiko has to drive downtown with an ice-scraper. He works really hard and is genuinely a great friend if you can handle his shenanigans.

Gumi: Honestly just here for the Chaos, would watch the world burn. She is really upbeat despite this, as the baby of her family she can't really take care of herself but doesn't really try to anyway. Dysfunctional gay, enables Len's shenanigans and runs the before mentioned group chat.

Gakupo: History nerd, if you tell him to tell you some cool history fact be prepared to listen to him ramble for like an hour. You won't even mind though because his voice is so nice and you can feel the passion for what he's talking about. Gumi wanted him to start an ASMR channel. He relaxes in traditional Japanese clothing and even knows how to use a katana. When he was younger he used to be more insecure but now he can learn to laugh at himself. Can't cook and also is the most behind on trends of the vocaloids.

Lily: The only one who can cook in this godforsaken family. She has a resting bitch face but she's usually not mad! She's probably just going through her day in her head. A meticulous planner who can get frustrated when things don't go her way, she doesn't take it out on other people, usually herself but it's still not good. Bad with animals.

That's all I got I'm going to catch some Z's

Stories I want to rewrite:

Better: I want to explore this dystopia freshman me tried to create in this story, probably won't be Rin x Len anymore or maybe not any romance. I just want to explore the concept some more and see where that takes me.

Demon, Shame and Good Girl: All of these stories took place in the same fictional story, Demon being the first installment, Shame being a sequel I never really had inspiration to finish and good girl was a spin-off about the life of Gumi's character in Demon before the events of Demon. I can't tell you what exactly happened in this story since I refused to go back and read my awful shit but something with a demon could be fun and I might go back to these 3 stories for inspiration. Also I want to try writing evil Gakupo again.

He Loved her for 10 Years: I kind of like flashback stories and death and while the death in the story is kind of stupid and I don't know if it would still be Miku x Kaito or really what to do with it. Unlike how Demon, Shame and Good Girl are outlines of a possible future story I'll still probably keep the 10 years 10ish chapters theme if I rewrite this.

A Lost Piece of our Hearts: A writer I really looked up to left a review on this story at the time I wrote it so that alone kind of makes me want to rewrite it.

Living in a House with Stupid Boys: At the time this was defiantly one of my longest fanfictions but I am hesitant to re-write because it was a poor man's slice of life with a ship I probably won't write again (same goes for all of the before stories) Rin x Len. But since it was long and people didn't hate it I might rewrite it.

Someone's got a Secret Admirer: This was probably my favorite story to write when I was still writing fan fiction. It's a GakuRin one and I would love to rewrite it but I kind of want to get rid of the whole "sentient Vocaloid" thing and just have them be people but with how this story was set up I'm not sure how to get around that issue. I have considered maybe a boarding house (like when people rent out rooms of big houses or whatever, saw it in a movie once) but I don't know if those still exist or if opposite genders can live in boarding houses. If I have these issues figured out I will defiantly re-write this story. EDIT: Put them in an apartment complex, you idiot, you absolute buffoon.

Two Hearts One Body: I still kind of like this idea but the set up was bad, all my deaths back then were car crashes and this is probably the only story that will keep that cheap death because it has to be sudden. The False Sister is kind of a spin-off of this idea.

Fleeting Flower Love: Person A and Person B fall in love but Person B gets sick and dies also there is a war. This is the basic plot to the story and that melodramatic setting still appeals to me.

Little Miss Troll: I like how at the end of the time I was writing this Neru, Miku and Rin were doing kind of friendship things (like breaking into Gakupo's house) and I might explore friendship things with Neru as the protagonist Again. But FanFiction.Net, please give Neru her name back. Unknown 33 doesn't have the same ring as her actual name. UPDATE: She got her name back. But it might have never gone away \_(ツ)_/

Sweet Queens: The original Sweet Queens story was so bad I deleted it. It was kind of a shameless Yumerio Patisserie rip off but I randomly got an idea that might make the story more interesting so I'm going to rewrite it.

A cat story I wrote so long ago I forgot the name of it (maybe Neko Rin? or something dumb like that): This story only exists in my memories but in the story, I made Len and Kaai Yuki siblings and I really only want to rewrite this story because that's a sibling dynamic I'd like to explore again one day. Kaai Yuki is a great and under-appreciated queen. Or is she 86 apples in a trenchcoat?

First Year: Haku is a teacher that helps her students and her friends with their life issues. I am gonna delete the original story and rewrite it and plan it better. That probably won't happen though until after "Let's Live a Normal Life" so oof.

Len and Neru's mistake: If anyone still cares about this ship and my old story I'll rewrite it.

Original stories I'm writing at the moment:

Mary: This is a story based on an idea I've been trying to work with for like 3 years and I finally pinned down what I wanted to do with it. It's also kind of based off something I've gone through personally so judge me all you want after you read this story I don't really care anymore. It's a Gakupo x Rin story so yay my OTP. (Too bad I suck at writing Gakupo, or really just males in general) Edit for this one: I got halfway through writing this but came up with some issues so it will probably never be published or finished but just in case I'll leave it here.

The Magical Book of Unsolvable Mysteries: This one is kind of like a magical mystery with implied Kaito x Rin. This story was inspired by an anime called "The Mystic Archives of Dantalian" but books don't come out of Rin's chest also there is only one book of short mystery stories that Rin figures out. I suck at writing mysteries but I will finish this one day T-T

Miku's Mythical Bar: I just wanted to do something slice of life and supernatural fight me bitch.

Stories I am writing right now that have been published:

The False Sister: Also a story based on an idea I had for a while, it's also based on a kind of similar story I wrote a long time ago. It's a RinxLen and I originally made it KaiotxLen cause I was gonna make Len dress up as Rin and Kaito was gonna be a demon but then last minute I changed it to some soul-changing shit. I actually don't hate RinxLen tho and not much shippy things happen in this story between the two that I'm okay writing it. Also Rin's only technically in like one chapter of the story so for once this is technically a story where Rin isn't my protagonist. That's all I got right now look forward to what I write I guess. I'll update it one day I swear.

Love Letter: I just wanted to write some pure fluff and decided to write it with a ship other than GakuRin or Miku x Luka. Will also update this one day. I just gotta edit chapter 3 oof.

Dear Kaito: This is a hurt/comfort murder mystery story that I got inspired to write after watching A Simple Favor and bingeing a bunch of videos about both solved and unsolved murder cases. No incest in this story tho because that was in the movie and was weird...

Let's Live a Normal Life: I got stuck on First-Year tbh but still wanted school stuff but with a twist. This story seems to be going in a poor direction however but I am trying my best to figure out what I need to do from now on. Been going through a lot IRL so deadass I might not update this again until 2020.

GakuRin Oneshots: It's just what the title says, oneshots for this ship.

Venner of the Songbird: KaiMiku Isekai

Oneshot's/Completed Stories:

Purple: I wanted to write some cute shit for Meiko's birthday and some more KaiMei and something with a proposal because I watch too many wedding shows and if you don't like it go to your nearest Denny's we can fight in the parking lot.

Mistletoe: I wanted to write something cute for Christmas and published it only a few minutes before midnight on Christmas day haha whoops. Anyway, I did a little fluffy moment that could be shippy but I wanted it to end on a platonic note because Rin was a student and Gakupo was a teacher in this story and I don't want to promote illegal relations. I've alway's heard "Rin is 14 so shipping this is wrong" which yeah if you ship a 14-year-old and an adult man not great but Vocaloid ages change all the time for songs and fanfictions so you will find me shipping an 18-year-old Rin with Gakupo. Also 14 is the age of consent in Japan hahaha kill me.

Christams Cake: Just a fluffy LenKu sequel to Mistletoe.

Sadistic Pumpkin: I just like this RinLen song so decided to write a songfic after overanalyzing all of the symbolism in it. Besidessssss it is spooky month so it works.
Happy Halloween besties!

Stories that have been deleted:

The Seasons of Love: It's about Gumi falling in love with different dudes in each of the four different seasons. If Piko wasn't irrelevant as fuck in this story he would be the spring season love. However I had to do a teacher crush, I crushed on so many teachers in my youth. I deleted this because I wasn't happy with how rushed it was.

First Year: I do want to maybe rewrite this, the first chapter was really bad so I deleted it.

Santa Baby: I wasn't feeling it and was never gonna update it so I deleted it. Sorry, Someonespecial35 Jr, I will write more GumiRin someday!