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Wow, I hadn't realized I left this completely open and empty this whole time.

Alright, so I'm Amanda and my penname is actually a tribute to my best friend Thad, who was sadly killed in a car accident by a drunk driver running a red light in 2005. A lot of my reviewers have asked me how I write angst so well and how I'm able to write such dark themes in stories like "For Marti," and I actually started the story while I was dealing with the death of Thad. It was a sort of cathartic relief for me. It was a dark period in my life, one that hasn't full passed and I found writing Casey and Derek's pain really helped ease it some for me.

I'm twenty years old and I've been writing for about six or seven years. I currently have three stories loaded, all of them having to do with the Life With Derek category. I'm personally a Dasey shipper through and through and any story I write will center around that ship. My first story, "The Secret," is finished and has a sequel, "What Happened To Happily Ever After?", that is currently paused, but will be updated as soon as I finish, "For Marti," which was formerly known as "Marti the Matchmaker."

I realize that I haven't updated FM in quite some time and I apologize for the overdue submission, but the next chapter is already half done and still in the works. Please understand that personal interferences have caused the break from the story, but I will see it through to the end.

I can't thank my readers and reviewers enough. They've been so good to me and I really do appreciate everything they've written, both having to do with my stories and passing on their own personal experiences that understand my situation. It's reading how many other survivors of lost friends and family that makes it a little easier to face another day and I truly appreciate their concern and understanding.

I've been asked if the passage in chapter 10 of "For Marti" is from my personal experience after the death of my best friend and I'd like to reply on the whole by saying, "Yes." My father and I had a conversation that was exactly as portrayed just the night I wrote that chapter actually. Losing someone you love has to be one of the hardest parts of life. It's emotionally taxing, physically painful, and just overall something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. And there's so little people can say. So very few things that really break through that shell that we put up when we lose someone. In fact, to consider for even a moment that it won't hurt is unfathomable. To believe that they're gone and in a better place feels wrong. To try and make friends or get close to others feels like we're replacing them, that we've somehow marred them with the simple idea that somebody could be as important as them. For nearly two years I've dealt with the, "I'm sorry's," and the "I understand's," and of course the "it was part of God's plan," and I appreciate them, later when I'm able to think that they were just being sympathetic, but those words are so meaningless sometimes. Am I right? Overall, the pain sticks. It eats away, it scars, it burns for eternity. There is a black hole that will never fill. But I guess that sometimes, through the darkness, through the pain, something good of it does come. My dad was right. In some painful, unjust, totally unjustified way, I was given the ability to write the pain I feel into a story that numerous others can relate to. And for that I'm thankful.

I owe my gratitude to my best friend. For his life, for his love, for his death, and for every day that he stays with me. I love him. I will always love him. And I thank him daily for giving me the few precious moments that I had with him. And I hope that in future, I can walk away with a sense of completion somehow. That I can look back at my stories and know that other people felt it too. That they felt like somebody finally got it. That's all I can really ask.

So that's my profile. That's who I am and what I do and what I think. I'm not a superb writer. I'm not a genius at the computer. I'm a regular person who suffered. A person who could put feeling to computer keys. I thank everyone for reviewing and telling me that they feel like I really got down to the grit of it. That I explained their feelings justly. Death and loss is such a huge subject, such a mind boggling concept, that so few can truly capture it. I hope I've down Thad proud. My painter, my equal, my best friend. Rest in peace and forever love.

To drink and drive is a fool's action.
To believe yourself immortal with that bottle falling from your lips, is stupid.
To sit behind that wheel, turn the ignition, and find no fault in your actions, is murder.
Don't drink and drive, it might just save a life; possibly your own.


P.S - For Marti has been nominated at the UFO Awards!

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The Dividing Line by anthfan reviews
PostHogwarts. Harry and Ron are Aurors and face their most difficult case yet when Hermione is found near death, missing an entire day and is the prime suspect in a grusome murder. Will this bring Harry and Hermione closer together or is she really guil
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 20 - Words: 53,043 - Reviews: 118 - Favs: 214 - Follows: 90 - Updated: 3/22/2010 - Published: 7/24/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
War and Betrayal by Abraxania reviews
While Voldemort has been defeated, the Great War rages on. To end the Civil War overtaking the Wizarding World, Hermione does the unthinkable and saves someone nobody thought she would. R&R
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 7 - Words: 12,231 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 24 - Updated: 10/6/2009 - Published: 7/20/2006 - Hermione G., Draco M.
Wanting Casey by NotAContrivance reviews
What Derek wants, Derek gets, right? So what happens when what he wants the most is Casey, his stepsister? He does what he always does; he goes after her... But what's this? Is Casey wanting Derek? Guess he wasn't kidding when he said he was irresistible.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 27 - Words: 321,752 - Reviews: 778 - Favs: 320 - Follows: 268 - Updated: 7/19/2009 - Published: 10/28/2005 - [Derek V., Casey M.]
The Starting Line by WhenLighteningStrikes reviews
"Why do you care?" He does. N't. Doesn't. Wait, what was the question again? Derek/Casey. Post Futuritis.
Life With Derek - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,412 - Reviews: 49 - Favs: 205 - Follows: 21 - Published: 6/18/2009 - Derek V., Casey M. - Complete
Back to you by tini243 reviews
"If you could go back in time, change something that went wrong for you, would you do it?" "In a heartbeat." AU JR, MC
Friends - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 10 - Words: 26,442 - Reviews: 110 - Favs: 59 - Follows: 64 - Updated: 10/10/2007 - Published: 5/7/2006 - Rachel G., Joey T.
Changing the World, One Class at a Time by soulmatesDC reviews
Derek's giving a presentation to his 11th grade English class and hopes to open some of his classmates eyes along the way. Short oneshot. Dasey in the background.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,427 - Reviews: 77 - Favs: 153 - Follows: 20 - Published: 4/22/2007 - Derek V., Casey M. - Complete
Blood Is Thicker Than Tears by atruwriter reviews
Draco's entire world is turned upside down when he's told his parents are not the Malfoy's. Struggling not to be killed and to become close with his brother he falls in love with one of his worst enemies, his brother's best friend. [ABANDONED]
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 61 - Words: 420,484 - Reviews: 3187 - Favs: 1,383 - Follows: 1,012 - Updated: 4/14/2007 - Published: 3/27/2006 - [Draco M., Hermione G.]
Beautiful by Michelle Moonshine reviews
Eighteen year old Hermione Granger is unbearably uncomfortable with the way she looks, and it becomes up to Harry Potter, her best friend and boyfriend, to help her understand what true beauty is, and ultimately, allow her to think of herself as beautiful
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 11,812 - Reviews: 66 - Favs: 562 - Follows: 117 - Published: 11/12/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
Fun & Games by n1c0le reviews
Sometimes life is just fun & games to some people, especially one Derek Venturi. But eventually those people realise that life is much more than that, usually when they least expect it.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 7 - Words: 7,756 - Reviews: 207 - Favs: 101 - Follows: 39 - Updated: 8/2/2006 - Published: 7/24/2006 - Complete
Coming Home by n1c0le reviews
What will happen when Casey and Derek see each other for the first time in three long years? And what secret has Casey been hiding away all these years?
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 12 - Words: 15,051 - Reviews: 379 - Favs: 179 - Follows: 68 - Updated: 7/7/2006 - Published: 6/25/2006 - Complete
Expulsion by Thunder's Shadow reviews
Harry has to deliver horrible news to Hermione while she’s in the library. AU
Harry Potter - Rated: K+ - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 380 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 2 - Published: 7/4/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
Bridge by Geniusgirl The Original reviews
INDEFINITE HIATUS. At seventeen, Casey finally cracks. A month in Florida, a misplaced DVD demo and a straightshooting guidance counselor all help to push the McDonaldVenturis toward the inevitable. Dasey, because anything else insults my intelligence
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 10,702 - Reviews: 135 - Favs: 51 - Follows: 112 - Updated: 6/23/2006 - Published: 5/31/2006 - Derek V., Casey M.
Hush by n1c0le reviews
A mixup in the VenturiMacDonald household reveals a well hidden secret between two members of the extended family.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,575 - Reviews: 67 - Favs: 137 - Follows: 32 - Published: 6/16/2006 - Complete
Out of Control by n1c0le reviews
Sequel to Long Weekend. Casey's tried to stop thinking about Derek and their night of passion. But she's decided that she doesn't want to forget.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 10 - Words: 9,278 - Reviews: 247 - Favs: 119 - Follows: 49 - Updated: 6/12/2006 - Published: 5/29/2006 - Complete
Temporary Insanity by degrassichick reviews
In a rush to make a date with a girl, Derek winds up getting himself and Casey locked up in a department store by themselves for the night. [OneShot] [Dasey!]
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,702 - Reviews: 66 - Favs: 123 - Follows: 20 - Published: 5/28/2006 - Complete
Long Weekend by n1c0le reviews
A camping trip for the MacDonaldVenturi family causes Derek and Casey's relationship to change. Warning: last chapter rated M.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 8 - Words: 10,078 - Reviews: 212 - Favs: 193 - Follows: 46 - Updated: 5/28/2006 - Published: 5/16/2006 - Complete
Statistically Improbable by adamolupin reviews
“Make her stop,” Ron whispered over his chess pieces that were dominating the board. “She’s really starting to scare me. I never thought she was mental before even though I always said it. But now ... now I really do think she’s gone completely mad.
Harry Potter - Rated: K - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,596 - Reviews: 33 - Favs: 136 - Follows: 30 - Published: 5/21/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
Soaked From Head to Toe by adamolupin reviews
Set shortly after the Lessons Trilogy, Harry and Hermione take a vacation the only way they know how. The rating has been upped just to be on the cautious side.
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 4 - Words: 6,679 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 5/14/2006 - Published: 4/22/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
What She Hopes Nobody Knows by n1c0le reviews
Oneshot. Dasey Noir. Derek and Casey have a secret nightly ritual.
Life With Derek - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,218 - Reviews: 68 - Favs: 126 - Follows: 34 - Published: 5/9/2006 - Complete
Parties Weren't Meant To Last by n1c0le reviews
Derek and Casey get the house to themselves and Derek throws a party that gets out of control. Dasey.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 7 - Words: 13,768 - Reviews: 141 - Favs: 101 - Follows: 52 - Updated: 5/2/2006 - Published: 4/11/2006 - Complete
Idle Threats by adamolupin reviews
Hermione has a favorite threat, but does she really mean it?
Harry Potter - Rated: K+ - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 799 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 2 - Published: 4/30/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
Obvious Heart by n1c0le reviews
Sequel to my fic entitled 'Tangled'. Dasey.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 10 - Words: 28,762 - Reviews: 223 - Favs: 163 - Follows: 45 - Updated: 4/17/2006 - Published: 2/13/2006 - Complete
Parenting Lessons by adamolupin reviews
Part III of the Lessons Trilogy. He looked like a demented Dishwasher Bandit. “If you tell me to ‘stick them up,’ I swear to Merlin I will hex your manhood off and all of this will be for nothing.”
Harry Potter - Rated: K - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,359 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 6 - Published: 4/14/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
Cooking Lessons by adamolupin reviews
Part II of the Lessons Trilogy. Hermione carefully cracked another three eggs before spending ten minutes picking out invisible bits of shell. “Hermione. Hermione, love, leave the egg alone,” Harry growled wrestling the bowl away from her.
Harry Potter - Rated: K+ - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,326 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 6 - Published: 4/8/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
Driving Lessons by adamolupin reviews
Part I of the Lessons Trilogy. Harry looked over at her with a gleam of triumph in his green eyes. He had finally dominated this Muggle machine and Hermione wouldn’t have been surprised if he suddenly broke out into a fit of yelling and chest beating.
Harry Potter - Rated: K - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,003 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 8 - Published: 4/4/2006 - Harry P., Hermione G. - Complete
Give In by n1c0le reviews
Short oneshot fluffy Dasey fic. Derek shows Casey why all the girls want him.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,141 - Reviews: 72 - Favs: 132 - Follows: 14 - Published: 2/21/2006 - Complete
Tangled by n1c0le reviews
Casey is starting to think more and more about Derek, and does something impulsive about it. Consequences ensue. Dasey. Look for the sequel to this, 'Obvious Heart!
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 9 - Words: 20,640 - Reviews: 220 - Favs: 217 - Follows: 59 - Updated: 2/7/2006 - Published: 1/11/2006 - Complete
It was Supposed to be a Family Vacation by n1c0le reviews
It was supposed to be a family vacation, but with new found feelings between Derek and Casey, there's not much family about a week at the beach. DerekCasey.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 24 - Words: 12,983 - Reviews: 238 - Favs: 161 - Follows: 84 - Updated: 1/3/2006 - Published: 12/17/2005 - Complete
Deep Obsession by n1c0le reviews
Oneshot. Derek has a secret obsession. Dasey, of course.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 876 - Reviews: 39 - Favs: 72 - Follows: 25 - Published: 12/31/2005 - Complete
Far From Lonely by n1c0le reviews
A Derek oneshot. Get inside Derek's head and see why he's not as lonely as everyone might think.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 638 - Reviews: 44 - Favs: 73 - Follows: 18 - Published: 12/23/2005 - Complete
Mistletoe by n1c0le reviews
A Christmas twoshot story. Derek and Casey under the mistletoe. DerekCasey.
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,932 - Reviews: 108 - Favs: 195 - Follows: 38 - Updated: 12/22/2005 - Published: 12/19/2005 - Complete
Three Years by tini243 reviews
After the disastrous wedding, Ross follows Emily to London, leaving behind a heartbroken Rachel. JR, a bit of CM
Friends - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,512 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 98 - Follows: 18 - Published: 10/2/2005 - Rachel G., Joey T. - Complete
A One Time Thing by tini243 reviews
What would have happened if something had happened after TOW Ross's step forward? JR RR
Friends - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 12,635 - Reviews: 40 - Favs: 53 - Follows: 13 - Updated: 5/28/2005 - Published: 4/28/2005 - Rachel G., Joey T. - Complete
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Life With Derek: For Marti reviews
Tragedy hits the Venturi:MacDonald family, causing the two eldest children to become responsible adults through their overwhelming grief, thus bringing them closer. DASEY. Sum inside. R&R FORMERLY: MARTI THE MATCHMAKER!
Life With Derek - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 19 - Words: 107,699 - Reviews: 1175 - Favs: 576 - Follows: 555 - Updated: 7/6/2009 - Published: 7/11/2006 - Casey M., Derek V.
LWD: Some Things Were Meant To Be reviews
When Casey and Derek both wish that their parents had never met, they wake to find it's come true. However, their dream lives are more a nightmare when they find their families are a sad mess. It's time they learned some things were meant to be. DASEY!
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 4 - Words: 28,601 - Reviews: 191 - Favs: 116 - Follows: 154 - Updated: 8/12/2007 - Published: 6/18/2007
LWD: What Happened to Happily Ever After? reviews
Sequel to LWD: The Secret. Following through the years of Derek and Casey's life and leading into the problem they face now. DASEY! : ON HIATUS! Just until I finish Marti the Matchmaker I'm really sorry!
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 19,062 - Reviews: 126 - Favs: 101 - Follows: 116 - Updated: 7/11/2006 - Published: 7/9/2006
Life With Derek: The Secret reviews
There is something about Casey that only Derek knows. They had met previously back before they became siblings. They shared things things that nobody knew they had together. Things that explain how they are together. Dasey
Life With Derek - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 17 - Words: 69,207 - Reviews: 546 - Favs: 518 - Follows: 136 - Updated: 7/9/2006 - Published: 6/13/2006 - Complete
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