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Author has written 13 stories for Teen Titans, Fire Emblem, Ouran High School Host Club, and Death Note.

Heya, I'm Raye Williams. And I am a rabid yaoi fan. Not the annoying kind...just the kind of fan who's not ashamed to admit she likes hot, graphic, guy x guy action. XD

Current OTP: Mello x Near

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For my Death Note readers:

I bet you're wondering why my Near in RP, thus, in my stories, is often OOC...

Excellent question. There's a fine line between the canon "Death Note" Near, the mostly-in-character "Playing With Fire" Near, and MY Near, ie, the one I use for most of my OOC-ish RPs (one-shots derived from this are "Injection," "My Favourite Toy,"...).

What makes up my Near? I'll explain the basic variations without giving too much away. If there's a (!) beside the variation, it means I'm being vague to avoid spoilers.

1: Innocence.

My Near is a little more shy, innocent, and childish than the canon Near. He is more suspicious of people, but more open to trusting them if they come across to him the right way, and is also a bit more forgiving and understanding. This childish persona, however, is still hidden behind an indifferent facade.

2: Loneliness.

As an orphaned child, it's kind of obvious that Near would be lonely, so there's not much to say here. However, his loneliness is probably his greatest weakness; in role-plays with certain people, it's painfully obvious that his desire for a friend breaches his logic. When badly insulted, especially by Mello, he often complains of an aching heart. A good example would be his trust toward Gabriel in "Mockingbird," despite the clear threat.

3: Irony.

My Near is fairly notorious for sarcastic remarks when things are tense, even to the point of pointless puns. An example would be him insulting Matt's video game habits in the middle of a detective case, or to make snarky contrasts between certain things. These remarks come most often in the form of a dry analogy.

4: Articulating.

Same with in the manga and Anime, my Near is very formal, not often using slang and even avoiding contractions, depending on the situation. He has a very expansive vocabulary, and utilizes it, though not to the point of trying too hard. However, there are three things that break his pattern. First, he tends to stammer a lot when terrified. Second, he swears, not as badly as his allies, but still pretty badly, when he's furious, especially during sex with Mello. Third, he only neglects to pronounce the L's in "Mello" when he is extremely flustered, or in a sexual frenzy. At these rare points, yes, he reverts to using "Mero."

5: Albinism. (!)

He's albino. No questions asked, I fuckin' made him albino already. This doesn't change much. Except his eyes; he's very sensitive to light, and this plays into his bad aim with darts, marksmenship, etc.

6: Blood. (!)

L, Mello, and Beyond all have oral fixations to sweet things. Matt is a chain smoker. Well, my Near has an oral fixation for blood. Yeah, lemme elaborate before you guys go all "OMG EMO VAMPIRE." As stated above, his loneliness is awful, and his way of filling the gap in his heart is to drink his own blood, or the blood of others (seen in RPs with Gabriel, random smuts RPs here and there, etc). In rare cases, usually those restricted to one-shots (such as "Injection"), he resorts to self mutilation to draw the blood out. He does NOT cut for pleasure, so he is NOT emo. He absolutely hates the pain; he does it only to drink the blood.

7: Mommy Fearest. (!)

Near isn't an orphan because of an accident. He was BORN of an accident, but his mother's death was well-planned. Enough said for now. Not sure when I'll elaborate.

8: Chiraptophobia.

My Near hates being touched, because he connects it with pain. No matter what RP or one-shot he's in, this DOES NOT change. It is the most solid part of his character, and certain stories overcome it in certain ways, but he ALWAYS reverts back in a new story.

9: Pyrophobia.

Unless a story specifically states that it took place before "Playing With Fire," my Near is afraid of it. Any kind of it. There's nothing more simplistic than that. xD

Um...yeaaaah, can't really get into detail with his two most defining features...so yeah. Super Uke, but also vampiric. Gotta love him. :'3


Who is Gabriel?

Demonic entity. He's basically a failed scientific experiment who took Near's form as a human (except for huge, sinisterly blue eyes). His true form's a wolfish-draconic demon. Go figure. He doesn't know his own name, and his favorite way of torturing people includes promising to stop only when they give him this information.

Naturally, he doesn't stop. -.-

KEEP IN TOUCH WITH MY LJ! I post more stories there than here! :3

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Vampire Heart by IrvingZissman reviews
COMPLETED Raven is attacked by a vampire and forced to inherit the dark gift of damnation. Now she tries to adjust to an undead life, while hiding her secret from the team. BBRae RobStar
Teen Titans - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 9 - Words: 20,259 - Reviews: 117 - Favs: 122 - Follows: 32 - Updated: 2/27/2006 - Published: 2/14/2006 - Raven, Beast Boy - Complete
A sad little song in the night by Writer Awakened reviews
Only when something innocent is lost does the futility of life become apparent. A story about Pent, Erk, and Louise Slightly AU, 'what if'
Fire Emblem - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,063 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/23/2006 - Pent, Erk - Complete
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Nulli Secundus reviews
A hailstorm. A bell tower. And a four-pointed star...these three things awaken something in Mello that seems to shatter him, and even Near is unsure about how to put the pieces together. But...what's Branding? And what exactly does L know? MxN, AU-ish.
Death Note - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Romance - Chapters: 12 - Words: 54,808 - Reviews: 46 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 41 - Updated: 3/22/2009 - Published: 9/7/2008 - Mello, Near
Playing with Fire reviews
Wammy's isn't as peaceful as it appears. Behind the indifference is fear. Behind the kindness is bloodlust. And what appears to be strength is insanity, a shattered, broken childhood memory. MxN. Rated for sex, violence, torture, rape, murder...ON HIATUS.
Death Note - Rated: M - English - Drama/Suspense - Chapters: 7 - Words: 24,710 - Reviews: 55 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 38 - Updated: 8/30/2008 - Published: 8/10/2008 - Mello, Near
Misread Cards reviews
Near's tarot cards aren't meant to predict the future. Mello's actions would confuse fate itself. Near's salvation rests in the cards...and Mello...confuses him. That's a horrible thing, to the mind of a genius. Yaoi, fairly PWP. :3
Death Note - Rated: M - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,362 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 2 - Published: 8/18/2008 - Near, Mello - Complete
Injection reviews
Once again, Mello has walked in on Near's shameful activities with a knife. This time, however, Mello wants to play with weapons, too...but the poison he injects into Near is far more deadly than any other toxin. MxN, graphic yaoi, drugs, blood fetishes..
Death Note - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,305 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 54 - Follows: 8 - Published: 8/14/2008 - Near, Mello - Complete
My Favourite Toy reviews
A community game on a public forum makes for an interesting game for Near and Mello...until it leads them questioning who would be seme. Near is convinced Mello's a natural-born uke...Mello is sick of being Number Two. PWP, MelloxNear. Guilty pleasure?
Death Note - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,565 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 8 - Published: 8/5/2008 - Mello, Near - Complete
It Doesn't Matter Now reviews
Even if one eye sees in only black and white, there's still emotion there...until the entire world faded to darkness. Takes place at the moment of Mello's death, and is written from his POV. Implied MattxMello. Rated for language and shounen-ai.
Death Note - Rated: T - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,055 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 5 - Published: 7/18/2008 - Mello, Matt - Complete
Akatsuki, Yuhi, to Tsuki reviews
What Kaoru finds in a box on the side of the road turns into a secret between him, Mori, and Hunny. However, with Tamaki and Haruhi getting serious and Hikaru's blood boiling with envy, other secrets are unlikely to be kept. Yaoi later in story. HikaKao.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 16 - Words: 29,292 - Reviews: 109 - Favs: 89 - Follows: 24 - Updated: 6/27/2008 - Published: 4/23/2008 - Kaoru H., Hikaru H. - Complete
A Reward for Selflessness reviews
Kyouya visits Kaoru as he worries about his brother and Haruhi during the thunderstorm. Secrets are laid out, and the two boys admit things they'd never even dreamed of realizing. Pairing is Kyouya/Kaoru. Rated for graphic Yaoi and MalexMale. Long Oneshot
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,044 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 111 - Follows: 8 - Published: 3/23/2008 - Kaoru H., Kyōya O. - Complete
Muffled Voices reviews
A Guiding Ring means more than an upgrade in power and skill. To Erk, an upgrade means an entire wardrobe change. And he's never missed his hooded cloak more. OneShot Drabble: FE7, Blazing Sword.
Fire Emblem - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,987 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Published: 2/28/2008 - Complete
Thunder Horses reviews
It's a stormy night and Starfire wants Raven to get her a flashlight. Raven goes to get one from Beast Boy...and ends up staying with him instead. Fluff story, BBxRae. OneShot.
Teen Titans - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,444 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 40 - Follows: 4 - Published: 6/5/2007 - Raven, Beast Boy - Complete
Two Kinds of Love reviews
She loves the Titans as friends. He loves her because she's Raven. OneShot.
Teen Titans - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,383 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 36 - Follows: 5 - Published: 6/5/2007 - Raven, Beast Boy - Complete
Grimms' Scary Tales reviews
We all love the stories of the brothers' Grimm. Little Red Riding Hood, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty...but the only Titan that knows them is Raven, and the others wanna hear them...uh oh.
Teen Titans - Rated: K - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,598 - Reviews: 48 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 7/15/2006 - Published: 6/21/2006 - Raven - Complete
Scrapbooks and Spellbooks reviews
Every little detail from a friendship counts. Save the little things. He did. Now they have one BIG thing.
Teen Titans - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,774 - Reviews: 42 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 4/9/2006 - Published: 2/14/2006 - Raven, Beast Boy - Complete