HelenahJay
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Joined 06-06-10, id: 2393331, Profile Updated: 05-16-11
Author has written 8 stories for Twilight.

After reading hundreds of Twilight stories, writing one kind of snuck up on me.

I'm a VIP Author at A Different Forest, and you can also find my stories there (adifferentforest)

The title for TPTM comes from a quote from Abraham Cowley, an English poet in the 15th century:

“A mighty pain to love it is, and 'tis a pain that pain to miss; but of all the pains, the greatest pain is to love, but love in vain.”

Banner for That Pain to Miss, made by the amazing Heather Dawn for Fandom Gives Back: http://i843.photobucket.com/albums/zz359/helenahjay/TPTMR.jpg

Banner for Giving Way To Dusk: http://s843.photobucket.com/albums/zz359/helenahjay/banners/?action=view¤t=duskbanner.jpg

The delightful emmajanepringle and I entered the In The Closet Contest together, and came second in open voting with The Science of Holding Together. We got this beautiful banner: http://i843.photobucket.com/albums/zz359/helenahjay/banners/ITC-OpenVoting-SecondPlaceFF.png

Current theme songs include:

Gin Wigmore's It's Too Late for Lovers http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXbxx6SOxi0

The Naked and Famous' Young Blood http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdO85Qf4Poc

Florence & the Machine's Rabbit Heart (Raise it up) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nxO-yPQesA

Dukes' Vampires http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ampFpOQaUQ0

You can also find me on twitter: http://twitter.com/helenahjay

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The Plan - OUTTAKES by QuantumFizzx reviews
REMOVED. Thank you for your readership. Kept a few chapters up to explain why & share outtakes alter. Obsessed but unnoticed for over a year, she puts a plan in motion to catch the eye of the corner-office. That's her plan. Fate has another plan entirely
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 4 - Words: 4,687 - Reviews: 19574 - Favs: 6,536 - Follows: 4,470 - Updated: 3/9/2014 - Published: 12/12/2010 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Creature of Habit by EZRocksAngel reviews
Bella begins working for the elusive and distant Edward Cullen who she discovers is hiding behind an elaborate charade to maintain his secret lifestyle. Bella is determined to find out the mysteries of Edward Cullen but with what results? AU, OOC.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 33 - Words: 189,751 - Reviews: 14462 - Favs: 11,690 - Follows: 5,418 - Updated: 5/16/2013 - Published: 1/4/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
La canzone della Bella Cigna by philadelphic reviews
A famous voice teacher. A mysterious piano prodigy. Backstabbing classmates. Music school is competitive, and aspiring singer Bella Swan is determined to succeed. Hard work she can handle, but who expected music school to be dangerous? A story in 3 acts
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 45 - Words: 336,125 - Reviews: 7295 - Favs: 4,127 - Follows: 3,783 - Updated: 11/9/2012 - Published: 6/9/2009 - Edward, Bella
The Harder they Fall by Ironic Twist reviews
Bella Swan had big dreams that were quashed by reality. Now, a momentary indescretion may cost her the little she has. Or maybe it will be the best mistake she's ever made. Edward Cullen's life is perfect. Well, almost. Perhaps these two can help each other out in an unorthodox way.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 56 - Words: 348,581 - Reviews: 10887 - Favs: 5,530 - Follows: 5,812 - Updated: 9/21/2012 - Published: 7/28/2009 - Bella, Edward
The Fallout by OCDindeed reviews
March 16/06 the world the Cullens knew ended. Faith, hope & love are powerful things. Edward finds out how powerful they are when he loses the one person who made his life worth living. Not just an E/B story. Entire Cullen clan is here, each with their own hardships. Set during a post-apocalyptic nuclear war. Try the Prologue before passing judgment. You might be surprised! NM/AU
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 39 - Words: 325,178 - Reviews: 6595 - Favs: 4,268 - Follows: 3,172 - Updated: 3/24/2012 - Published: 3/24/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Breaking Points by sugarbucket reviews
Ever wonder why Rosalie and Edward are so cold towards one another? Their story from the start; in keeping with the books, but based on the idea that they're both masterful liars. Love, lust, betrayal, desire, lies, darkness and breaking points.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 43 - Words: 413,898 - Reviews: 1119 - Favs: 530 - Follows: 344 - Updated: 2/25/2012 - Published: 8/17/2008 - Edward, Rosalie - Complete
Breaking News by WriteOnTime reviews
Two network news anchors. One desk. In a race to get the story, love might become the headline - if they don't kill each other first. AH Canon Couples, smart people, particle physics, and tap dancing.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 26 - Words: 182,215 - Reviews: 7120 - Favs: 5,337 - Follows: 4,074 - Updated: 1/3/2012 - Published: 10/5/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Real Plastic Trees by HotMessica reviews
In the pages of every high school yearbook, there is a girl that everyone thinks they know. I'm her, and sometimes, I don't even know myself. But he does. A/H
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 19 - Words: 134,142 - Reviews: 631 - Favs: 587 - Follows: 289 - Updated: 9/17/2011 - Published: 7/5/2011 - Rosalie, Emmett - Complete
A Rough Start by ItzMegan73 reviews
Overnight irresponsible Edward goes from bachelor to father of a 5 yr old. Meanwhile responsible, prepared Bella begins her first job as Kindergarten teacher at Forks Elementary. When irresponsible meets the epitome of responsible, sparks will fly!
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 41 - Words: 253,554 - Reviews: 22847 - Favs: 14,096 - Follows: 10,624 - Updated: 8/31/2011 - Published: 8/20/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Cannabean Betrothal by ItzMegan73 reviews
Edward has immersed himself in the Cannabean way to ward off the hurt of a life-changing experience; but an unexpected betrothal teaches him how little he knows about life. There is no abuse in this story.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 38 - Words: 231,548 - Reviews: 14389 - Favs: 7,324 - Follows: 5,295 - Updated: 4/23/2011 - Published: 9/5/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Stranger Than Fiction by MasenVixen reviews
Six years after Edward left, Bella's written a bestselling book about a girl and the vampire who loves her. Edward returns to her, hell-bent on recapturing the happily ever after that he destroyed. AU. Rated M for lemons.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 28 - Words: 140,407 - Reviews: 8799 - Favs: 7,310 - Follows: 4,849 - Updated: 1/23/2011 - Published: 1/2/2010 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Wedding Party by spanglemaker9 reviews
The perfect person appears at the worst possible moment, and one unforgettable encounter changes everything. AH
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 33 - Words: 192,619 - Reviews: 9328 - Favs: 6,339 - Follows: 3,668 - Updated: 11/3/2010 - Published: 4/1/2010 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Long Way Home by TheHeartOfLife reviews
There was a girl. She loved a boy. And then she lost it all. Will her journey back to the place where it all began and ended light the path for forgiveness, or will it swallow her whole? A story about friendship, love and the true meaning of coming home.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 24 - Words: 169,014 - Reviews: 1277 - Favs: 636 - Follows: 378 - Updated: 10/25/2010 - Published: 12/28/2009 - Complete
The Blessing and the Curse by The Black Arrow reviews
By pretending she is falling for Edward, Bella is fulfilling Esme's dying wish. But sexy, possessive Edward can read her mind. Will she ever get into his? Can Bella forget the pain of her teenage years, and can she resist his relentless seduction? AH.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 22 - Words: 140,448 - Reviews: 14192 - Favs: 15,091 - Follows: 8,247 - Updated: 9/10/2010 - Published: 5/31/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Brown Study by littlesecret84 reviews
Bella's dreams have a way of coming true. But what will she do when the man she dreams of appears in her life as a boy who is less than ideal? Will finding him mean losing her BFF, Jane? Does knowing the future change the present? Rated M for adult stuff.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 28 - Words: 142,197 - Reviews: 7705 - Favs: 2,444 - Follows: 1,554 - Updated: 8/31/2010 - Published: 12/6/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
For the Summer by camoozle reviews
Every year Bella waits for the 'Pay Checks' to roll into her sleepy river town and every year Edward's hers, just for the summer. AH, AU, OOC, B/E
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 19 - Words: 176,780 - Reviews: 8836 - Favs: 7,432 - Follows: 3,875 - Updated: 8/19/2010 - Published: 4/30/2010 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Summer of Salt by lola-pops reviews
The heat wave lingers. Sweet, savory and slick. Jasper, Rose and I wade through the humid days, content in our relative isolation. We spend June through August at our family lake property, and this summer is like any other. Until it's not.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 26 - Words: 88,646 - Reviews: 4476 - Favs: 5,476 - Follows: 2,025 - Updated: 7/5/2010 - Published: 12/18/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Rhapsody in B by Lillybellis reviews
When a rising musician falls in love with his small-town childhood friend, can their yearly New Year's Eve tradition bring them together once he rockets to stardom and leaves her behind?
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 12 - Words: 87,888 - Reviews: 2909 - Favs: 3,278 - Follows: 1,576 - Updated: 6/13/2010 - Published: 10/7/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
If You Could Read My Mind by bella c'ella luna reviews
Bella has moved back home to Forks. It's only a matter of time until she crosses paths with Edward Cullen, her former best friend and first love. They both thought that they had moved on... full of angst. All-human, LEMONS.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 39 - Words: 143,353 - Reviews: 7073 - Favs: 5,109 - Follows: 2,802 - Updated: 4/11/2010 - Published: 6/8/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
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Giving Way To Dusk reviews
In Volterra, Alice doesn't catch up to Bella and Edward in time, and they face the Volturi alone. Edward makes a trade for Bella's life, with devastating consequences. Canon AU.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 26 - Words: 54,730 - Reviews: 879 - Favs: 387 - Follows: 358 - Updated: 12/17/2011 - Published: 5/16/2011 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Agony of an Instant reviews
"Grief is the agony of an instant, the indulgence of grief the blunder of a life." - Benjamin Disraeli. My entry for the Season of our Discontent contest.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,167 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 5 - Published: 12/16/2011 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Rising Swell reviews
The summer I turn 16, it seems like I am exactly one day older than the day before, and everyone else around me fast-forwards a couple of years. Entry for the Boys on Boards Contest. AH.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,551 - Reviews: 35 - Favs: 104 - Follows: 34 - Published: 8/16/2011 - Bella, Edward - Complete
This is what you give up reviews
After Rosalie tells Bella about her history in Eclipse, Bella comes back with questions for Rosalie. Canon AU. Entry for the In The Closet Contest.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,273 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 40 - Follows: 8 - Published: 10/1/2010 - Rosalie, Bella - Complete
The Science of Holding Together reviews
Even with the gift of premonition, surprises can happen. A missing scene from "New Moon". Femslash, co-written with emmajanepringle for the In The Closet Contest.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,683 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 8 - Published: 10/1/2010 - Alice, Bella - Complete
The Art of Battle and the Art of Love reviews
Even with a sister who can see the future, life remains unexpected. Missing scene from Breaking Dawn, the first night Edward and Bella return from Isle Esme. AU. Co-written with emmajanepringle for FemSlash10.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,970 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 2 - Published: 9/1/2010 - Bella, Rosalie - Complete
Behold the child reviews
Charlie, just before Twilight. Second chances. A tiny oneshot for sensecoalition's birthday.
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,478 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 4 - Published: 8/4/2010 - Charlie S. - Complete
That Pain to Miss reviews
Carlisle told Edward it was his decision to try and extract the venom from Bella's wrist in the ballet studio. Edward decided not to. E/B, Post-Twilight AU, canon couples.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 23 - Words: 38,090 - Reviews: 1321 - Favs: 1,474 - Follows: 473 - Updated: 7/15/2010 - Published: 6/10/2010 - Edward, Bella - Complete