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Joined 07-20-13, id: 4906027, Profile Updated: 09-20-13
Author has written 20 stories for StarTrek: The Next Generation.

I'm a published writer and have been in publishing for a long time. I've just this year joined the online fiction experience, and my preferred fandom is Star Trek TNG, although I also love TOS (and am old enough to have watched the original when it was original)...Although I enjoy all types and genres of stories, I am currently writing exclusively in the rarified fandom of Picard/Riker, which may make the Picard/Crusher and Riker/Troi fans cringe but the way I write this relationship, it works.

A Million Sherds began as a one shot on AO3, and you may find the novel in its more complete form there -- currently there are 53 chapters and I guess I'm about sixty percent done. The character -- particularly Riker's -- turned it into a novel, and I've been writing it ever since. Here are my opening notes, which I can't figure out how to post in this work:

This novel deals with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder as it develops from child abuse. While I have tried to maintain integrity to the canon here, there are minor elements of AU here as well. For those of us familiar with the survivors of extreme child abuse, William Riker's character resonated, as his "good child" persona, so over-the-top, promiscuity, hyperactivity, risk-taking (combined with timidity), refusal to leave the ship, and his sexual insecurity are all symptoms of a severely abused child. None of us who understand this believed the episode "The Icarus Factor," which was a complete abdication of responsibility on the part of the screenwriters to deal with this important issue, especially as Riker continues throughout the series to exhibit symptoms of an adult survivor. The bitter Admiral Riker in the AU timeline was very much in keeping, for example, with an adult survivor of abuse who has never been healed. While this novel is not for the faint of heart, I do offer hope from all of us out there who have not only survived abuse but who have also been able to thrive. Lastly, this work is dedicated to two young people whom I hold dear in my heart, who suffered horrific abuse as children, but who continue to grow in ways that constantly amaze me.

This is a serious work. There are triggers, for those who have been abused, in this story, and readers who may be triggered should be careful, especially with the chapters dealing with William Riker's childhood told in flashback. Also, as I post further chapters, there will be triggers as William Riker begins his therapeutic sessions with the specialist in PTSD that Troi and Picard bring aboard the Enterprise, Dr Alasdair McBride.

This novel deals with a holistic treatment of PTSD, and my chapter notes on AO3 cite new information regarding treatments and therapies, quote psychiatrists and other specialists in working with traumatised and abused children, and discuss such separate issues as respite care for caregivers, anti-social personality disorder, and the Jewish concept of tikkun olam. For those who are interested in those notes and information, you can find them on AO3 or you can contact me privately and I will do my best to give you the information you might need.

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Simfonia de Valdez reviews
Two years after his father's death, Jean-Guy debuts Will's symphony at the Gran Teatre del Liceu in Barcelona. Set in the Post-A Million Sherds universe.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: K+ - English - Family/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,347 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/14/2016
And the Still Hour reviews
The First Officer of the Hood leads an away team which rescues the survivors of the explosion on the medical outpost Chargas, near the Romulan Neutral Zone. The survivors include two teenaged brothers, Joaquim and Joao da Costa. It is a debt young Joao da Costa will repay over a lifetime. A prequel to the A Million Sherds universe.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,628 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/21/2016
Talking with Ghosts reviews
The last of Will Riker's ghosts, put to rest. This is set about a year after Cochrane Day, in the Post-Sherds universe. The title is from the poem "Blue Dementia" by Yusuf Komunyakaa.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,039 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/13/2016 - J. Picard, W. Riker, OC
Winter Has Its Meaning reviews
On the Enterprise-E, Will Riker realises that his symptoms of complex PTSD have returned. Part of the Post-A Million Sherds universe.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,126 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 3 - Published: 1/21/2016 - J. Picard, W. Riker - Complete
The Power of Denial reviews
A sequel to The Bright Unbroken Planet. Some things are meant to be endured. What happened, the first night Picard returns home. The title is from the poem "Arrows" by Tony Hoagland. Part of the Post-A Million Sherds universe.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Family/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,538 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/22/2015 - J. Picard, W. Riker - Complete
Waves on an Indigo Sea reviews
The end, when it comes, is quiet.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: K - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 933 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/22/2015 - J. Picard, W. Riker - Complete
Cochrane Day reviews
Set thirty-five years into the future, in the post-Sherds universe. Thirty-five years before, Will and Jean-Luc had had the best damned wedding Starfleet had ever seen, on Cochrane Day. Thirty-five years later, Will takes one day at a time, navigating Jean-Luc's illness and fading memory, and his own sense of impending loss and depression. He owes it to Jean-Luc, after all.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 25 - Words: 65,416 - Reviews: 53 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 5/16/2015 - Published: 8/19/2014 - Complete
The Sound of Wind and Sea reviews
Lunch between Admiral William T Riker and Captain Joao da Costa. This story occurs ten years after Cochrane Day and is part of the Post- A Million Sherds universe.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,188 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/1/2015 - W. Riker - Complete
The Way Home reviews
Will Riker speaks to Ambassador Spock about Jean-Luc. This takes place in the post-A Million Sherds universe, sometime after The Bright Unbroken Planet. The first meeting between Will and Ambassador Spock occurs in A Frame of Living Wood.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,041 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/15/2015
Lights That the Stars Will See reviews
Sascha's first Chanukah is in memory of his namesake. Set in the post-Sherds universe. Dr Alasdair Gidon McBride (2315-2388) was the psychiatrist who treated William Riker for PTSD in A Million Sherds.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: K+ - English - Family/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,347 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/27/2014
The Bright Unbroken Planet reviews
In Cochrane Day, which is set thirty-five years into the post-A Million Sherds universe, Will Riker and Jean-Luc discuss what Will refers to as The Incident, when Jean-Luc left him and their two young children. This is that incident. The title comes from the carpe diem poem "Jet," by Tony Hoagland.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 3 - Words: 4,601 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 12/24/2014 - Published: 12/14/2014 - Complete
A Million Sherds reviews
A psychological study of the effects of child abuse on an adult survivor. When William Riker shows the symptoms of severe complex PTSD, Picard and the treatment team he forms must delve into the darkness of Will's childhood in order to save him. This story is not for the faint-of-heart. Min. AU. The relationship is Picard/Riker.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: M - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 123 - Words: 320,108 - Reviews: 152 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 18 - Updated: 9/29/2014 - Published: 9/19/2013 - J. Picard, W. Riker - Complete
It's Been Some Time reviews
Will Riker meets the new guy in Xenobiology.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,577 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/6/2014 - W. Riker, OC - Complete
The Tender Ghost: A Passover Story reviews
Follows Haman's Son. With their shipboard wedding set for Cochrane Day, Will and Jean-Luc find that they are not only trying to put Will's illness behind them but that they are also having to negotiate the boundaries of their personal and professional relationship. Add to that Will's continued interest in Judaism, Passover, an argument with Robert, and Mrs Troi's arrival.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Romance/Spiritual - Chapters: 10 - Words: 26,792 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 6/11/2014 - Published: 4/10/2014 - J. Picard, W. Riker, OC - Complete
Haman's Son reviews
Will Riker turns to Rabbi Lior Cardozo of stellar cartography to help him come to terms with his guilt over the path of destruction left by his father, Section 31 agent Kyle Riker. He begins lessons in Judaism, but the story of Esther and Haman in the Jewish holiday of Purim threatens to reignite his symptoms of PTSD. Follows chronologically The St Valentine's Day Massacre.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Spiritual/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 17,888 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4/10/2014 - J. Picard, W. Riker, OC - Complete
The St Valentine's Day Massacre reviews
In the post-A Million Sherds universe, Deanna Troi and Beverly Crusher want to make sure that the ship's most famous couple - Will Riker and Jean-Luc Picard - don't ignore the traditions of St Valentine's Day, including the ship's Valentine's Day Ball. Will Riker is still in recovery from PTSD. This story occurs after A Horn for All Your Songs and A Frame of Living Wood.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 6 - Words: 12,053 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 2/17/2014 - Published: 2/8/2014 - B. Crusher, J. Picard, W. Riker, D. Troi - Complete
A Frame of Living Wood
A disagreement with Jean-Luc sends Will to the Arboretum and a chance meeting with Ambassador Spock, who is commemorating the holiday of Tu b'Shevat, the Jewish New Year of Trees. The setting is post-"A Million Sherds" and "A Horn for All Your Songs." The title is from a poem by Yaacov Paley.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Spiritual - Chapters: 2 - Words: 7,348 - Favs: 3 - Updated: 1/20/2014 - Published: 1/12/2014 - J. Picard, W. Riker - Complete
A Horn for All Your Songs reviews
What can you do to thank the man who saved your life? A Chanukah story, set post "A Million Sherds." Picard/Riker. The title of this story is a variation of the chorus from Naomi Shemer's hymn "Jerusalem of Gold." The chorus is loosely translated from the Hebrew as: "Jerusalem of gold, and of bronze, and of light/Behold I am a violin for all your songs."
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,637 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12/24/2013 - J. Picard, W. Riker - Complete
The Devil's Argument reviews
A late night meeting between William Riker and Erik Pressman on the observation deck. A prequel, of sorts, to "Icarus, Drowning." The title comes from Arthur Miller's "The Crucible," Act IV: Hale: Quail not before God's judgment in this, for it may well be God damns a liar less than he that throws his life away for pride. Elizabeth: I think that be the Devil's argument.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,673 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 11/29/2013 - W. Riker - Complete
Icarus, Drowning reviews
In the aftermath of the arrest of Admiral Eric Pressman, William Riker faces both his own disgrace and his destroyed friendship with his captain.
StarTrek: The Next Generation - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,075 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 3 - Published: 10/29/2013 - J. Picard, W. Riker - Complete
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